We don't seem to be dead
we want to be dead
we don't live in order to sleep
we sleep to avoid living

when you sleep, you're not dead however you're not awake

no one can talk to you
no one can judge you
no one can hurt you

until you wake up...

How are you?
I'm fine, she replies

How was your day?
It was fine, she replies with a sigh

Are you okay?
I said I'm fine, she says holding her tears

what's wrong?
She doesn't answer, instead she walks away

she knows she's not fine, she knows she needs help but...

saying you're fine is easier to explain.

Here lies a girl who dreams big
Here lies a girl who knows what she wants in the future
Here lies a girl who hates herself
Here lies a girl who wants to travel the world
Here lies a girl who left her friends and family
Here lies a girl who feels guilty for thinking and feeling sadness
Here lies a girl who gave up on the life she thought she had

Now who is this girl? You maybe thinking
Even she doesn't know the answer as to 𝐰𝐡𝐨 she is.

If I wanted to run away,
where would I go?

Is it as magical as my dreams show?
or maybe a place well known

people say don't think about it just go with the flow

even so, the surprise is nice
it wouldn't really fill me with suffice

If I wanted to run away
I wouldn't be alone

we've made an oath to be together as one

so it doesn't matter where'd we wound up

cause passion is just another word for love

When I met you
I didn't know you
I was scared
of dying alone
Years later

You're like a father to me
you helped me through the unimaginable

Even so, you found it easy to lie to me
and ignore my wishes

Because of this my life could of had meaning

Now you're gone, down deeper in dirt and I'm hurt
wishing I had more time with you.

Realising I did have meaning
told you I'd try to forgive you

Didn't know I had to be

          𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓉

for it to happen.

We have a angel now
Did you hear that? They called you angel
But sometimes an angel has to spread her wings and fly.
But that means to leave what they love behind.

She has feistiness in her eyes
And love in her heart
But most importantly she has peppermint in her blood.

The decisions she makes hurts and helps
Yet she’s the most damaged

Big world around us brings us down
by time, we learn to get up

let the sweetness and the sour taste linger
of the broken down peppermint

Day turns darker
Warmth turns colder
Everyday I'm getting older

sleeping is my own get away
pray that what I want consumes me
Even knowing that it will doom me
Thoughts become louder
Love becomes deeper

Why can't you make this easier for me?
I now really have to hold on...
but for how long?