it is relentless
this fight between gay and grim
this balance is thin

it's just like how one collects water from a deep deep well,
and by the time the bucket makes its way to the surface,
no water is left
and no one dare sees the hole.

hello little gnat
flying so small
in my ear,
with a noise like that

in my neck, in my ear,
clever little thing
no one else can hear you
or see your buzzing wings.

this side that side
round you go
buzzing in my ear
nobody will know

where did we go
so far across oceans
that we forgot about the fruit
of our backyard tree?

I am dust, a shell, a forgotten sweater
unravelling in darkness
ennui is stuck
inside of me

it takes so much to stay away
I am addicted but I say
I can stop at anytime
huh... remember when you were mine?

it takes so much for me to be
smiling in this happy weather
the sun is warm but I do not feel it
rather, I think to when we were together.

it takes too much out of me
but this is self inflicted
like tides upon the shore,
without my moon I am conflicted.
with too much room, I am somehow restricted.