i forgive you for breaking me
i forgive you for forsaking me
i forgive you for tearing me apart
i forgive you for hurting me from the start

i never asked for much
i never asked to be crushed
i never asked to be here
i never asked to live in fear

i never asked to be hated
or to be let down from all the years I've waited
for a bond that'll never see the light of day
or the love I never had, you gave it away
but the one thing that hurts more
is seeing my younger siblings being loved more
by a father that cared for me
but I forgive you for never being there for me

We haven’t spoken for the past few weeks & I’ve lied to keep from telling the truth
saying i’m busy with work but I’m sure you can still see the proof
Somewhere along the road, I started seeing us from a different light
I started seeing a world without you as a lover & i started loving the sight
But then I’d ask myself, how can one get over someone who did so much
can’t just walk from all that happiness & leave a beautiful heart crushed
I know keeping the truth from you isn’t right but telling the truth, I may lose you
& I can’t just sit here to allow my broken heart use you
I still think the world of you, it’s just the feelings that used to be don’t exist anymore
but the heart that I’ve grown with, I’ll love unconditionally forevermore
What I’m trying to say is that I have to move on to keep from drowning in false hope
of keeping faith within something that may never be again
& it’s that drug you gave me that I can no longer allow my system to overdose
I’ve done a thousand laps in my head trying to go about this in the right way
but in order for us to be happy, one of us has to swallow the pride to walk away
So my silence wasn’t because I was busy, it’s because I’m trying to leave
& holding on is only going to prevent me from waking up from this long never ending dream

We were separated as kids & life was never the same
no more around my best friend but who's the blame
because you were disabled mentally
& left me alone with mama, that was killing me
growing up in a house without you
forcing me to get out of the house & come up without you
with you gone, we only allowed me & moms to get close
so as an apology, here's my heart in my note
I know I've done things to you that I can never undone
but it wasn't with ill intent but I guess that's when the hell begun
had a bike when you was 6, I ran it in the ditch
lied to say it was you only for mama to get the switch
dynamic duo, me & you but that slowly died out
saying goodbye to my twin cause I'm forced to stay down south
I've always wanted a brother just to have that connection
not realizing that with you, there was a blessing
although you shared more similarities with mama
I was always jealous of your connection with mama
being that you're the oldest with a 3 year lead ahead of me
making you feel like you were obligated to watch over me
my protector when we were little until we got older
then I became the big brother & my heart got colder
you can say I'm mean as hell but it was for the best
so my apologies for the miscommunication & the stress

It’s days like this;
where I love being laid up next to you
legs around my waist, arms around my stomach
no better feeling than being close to you

It’s the feeling I can’t explain;
when I’m staring into your eyes
kissing your forehead & lips
as I blush whenever your smile replies

Yea, it’s days like this;
when I fall deeper in love than I was before
enjoying every second spent with you
which makes me want you more & more

Rainy Days;
I wish they never go away
I wish for a sunny day delay
& for these Rainy Days to replay

When time finally runs out
& the world comes to a halt

When the sun ducks behind the moon
& darkness comes our new light

When the rain stops falling
& the lighting fades away

When there’s no more words to say
& all there’s left is silence

Right here is where I’ll be
with you for all eternity
for all i need in this world
is just you & me   - Pencasso

You tell me I’m missing but you fail to see my vision
on how i feel like everyone is against me
Either you’re tryna love me or you tryna take me out
drag me thru your hell & get mad if i make it out
Soft hearted & easily forgiving
Lost of interest & never holding anyone back from leaving
I won’t beg for you to understand me
I won’t beg for you to understand this feeling
I don’t expect you to relate to someone’s whose paranoid & contemplate self killing
Don’t tell me to chill, this is how i feel
I can’t be wit you if i can’t be real
I can’t find myself but I’m still on the search
I lost myself thru the lies & the hands laid on me from church
from a pastor telling me that I’m unique from my head to my feet
But the Devil is telling me i ain’t **** which is why i can’t avoid defeat
Maybe I’m sick or maybe I’m hopeless
Depression was hereditary, i never chose it
Feel my heartbeat, maybe you can follow its rhythm
& drown within my alcoholic sorrows that swims in my system
My tears created the rain & the breakage in my heart made it thunder
but the real me lies deep in my soul waiting for someone to discover
the true essence of what I’m really made of
& once they find out, their reaction is what I’m afraid of

I know you might feel like I love or love you not
the way I keep ending a loving thing without a plot
I come home to your heart for a few hours then I’m off again
giving my time & attention to someone else who’s not even a friend
It used to be your arms I ran to but now you spend your nights without me next to you
missing my touch rubbing your back or the feeling of my lips blessing you
In my mind, I’m thinking going missing is going to solve my issues
of missing you but I fail to see that it’s only causing me to lose you
Do I love you? I do but not in the same way that you love me
Love you more than I do myself but your time is always placed above me
But I understand you gotta future to think about, I’m just lonely waiting for 10 minutes
to be held by my angel & unfortunately, your time is something that I don’t fit in with
Do I love you not because I never tell you what’s wrong & I hide the truth
when eventually my frustration will let it all be known so you can see the proof
I’m pushing you away & eventually I know you’ll leave me
ignoring my reasons for what I’m doing, i don’t expect you to believe me
I love you but my patience came to an end with trying to be that man
who’s trying to love you the best way he can but more than a friend
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Today marks a milestone for me. I started writing poetry when I was 9 years old but never would I have ever imagined that I'd be able to write approximately 1,015 poems to date. It's crazy how I find inspiration from various places, able to write from many different perspectives, & able to speak for those who can't find their own voice. My poems don't just represent me, they represent the people who inspire me, the people who experience mental health issues, & those who've gone through the worst in life. Never thought I'd get to this point but I'm proud of myself. Such an accomplished to close 2018 out.

Look at me now dad, never thought I’d get to this point in life
Where I no longer hate you & now understand the lesson you taught me in life
See the thing was, I resented you because you were never there
sent $80 a week but that only made me think you didn’t care
Mama was strong enough to deal with the pain & raise me right
but inside I was lonely & sometimes I couldn’t sleep at night
You were that missing ingredient that I needed for a healthy life
& I believed that being my father came with a price
It’s funny how I hated you for so long just to see that I was like you
spreading this charm with women & being a rolling stone like you
but no disrespect, everybody gotta make mistakes when they grow up
stumble a few times in life before their maturity begins to show up
I don’t know the full story, I just know I lost my dad before knowing who he was
feeling like a lost cause because I was always looking for his love
I’m still your son, you’re still my father, that’s something we can’t change
but I forgive you for not being there even if this means things won’t change
I see you have other kids that you’re raising & I’m happy that you’re being that man
that they need, glad that you’re giving them a chance
to know the man that I never knew but I’m proud of you
& I pray that God keeps watching over you.
And with that being said, I’ve grown up tremendously & I no longer hate you

Poetic Venom

I don’t wanna hear that I’m amazing especially when you’re the same
telling me all these things to manipulate me when you’re just running game
You say I’m a great guy, funny of you to say such a thing
sounding no different from the last girl who said the same thing
I’m not like most guys? Please explain why you feel that way
Because I say all the right things that never fail to make your day?
You question why I don’t take compliments or why I don’t believe anything
but fail to realize that women always want a King but don’t appreciate Kingly things
I’ve been told the same things over & over again, never seeing any difference
but as soon as I try giving one a chance, things begin to get distant
It’s not to punish you for what you’re trying to do
but you’d be upset too if someone kept feeding the same lines but under appreciate you
So don’t tell me that I’m an amazing person if you’re not gonna show me
& don’t try giving me your heart if it isn’t holy
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

our love formed in the midst
of falling leaves
warm afternoons &
cold nights
it’s winter where my heart is
but paradise when in your
presence

the sun shined bright as a
diamond but it couldn’t
spring into a Summers June
love built for a cooling March
but still December’s freezing
falling in love
when we’re outta season

bonding beautifully but
more perfect apart
more dysfunctional than
Carolina weather
we’re unsure if we wanna rain
or shine
capture love in the heat or fall
apart like October’s leaves  -king pencasso

With Love, I haven't had the best luck
settled for hookups trying to get my count up
but that was before the phase
before the worst heartbreak

I was in love once, it was a dream to me
I thought this angel was what she seemed to me
talking over the phone getting close to me
but who knew she'd be a part of my dark history

The reason why I said "F Love", they're all the same
you could be a King but they won't change
so I changed myself, still ashamed of myself
she broke me like nobody else

Provided a heavenly vibe in the midst of my hell
& she loved a King, in her voice I can tell
got me doing things I don't normally do
singing songs to her, it was beautiful

But then the world got dark with her in the center
playing me for an ex love, I could never forgive her
in fact, it made me bitter
the beginning of my downfall & my choice of liquor

I try not to blame them all cause it was my fault
trusting someone I barely knew & took a loss
thinking she'd be down but she let me down
questioning if I was really a King or clown
showing me words carry no certification
help turn me into a rebel against a lifetime goal
& if I'll ever go back, I guess we'll never know

I write for that kid in school
abused at home & bullied in school
with thoughts of suicide or running away
with no friend in their corner feeling alone every day

I write for that man with a golden heart
dealing with ungrateful women tearing him apart
so used to losing that a win goes unappreciated
& a real man continues to this day to be hated
all because dogs have become loved with the hopes of change

I write for the pain within that I keep locked in
whether it's anger or depression that drives my pen
but it's my therapy & sometimes, my only friend
after spending my life defeating odds that I wouldn't win

I write for that woman feeling alone
heartbreak after heartbreak, crying at home
looking for the one thing she's never felt
when she already has it within herself
the lack of a father around so not sure who to love
but how to love, yearning for her white dove

I write for those dark days that only a few feel
diving in that liquor bottle & stuffed with pills
or a razor blade in hand drawing blood across the skin
wanting peace even if it means life will end

I write for the reader of this poem, you're just like me
a gifted troubled soul mixed in a dark world, just like me
blamed for everything & every loss, just like me
whether from family or yourself, you're guilty
but for the love of poetry & relief, you inspire me

How do I tell someone that I’m attracted to that I’m slowly catch feelings
Not knowing if she’s happy or if the relationship is built around happy dealings
Watching her smile every day brings joy to my heart especially when it’s because of me
but there’s something in the back of my mind telling that she’ll never leave him for me
I see the things that she goes through, sometimes being stranded at work
& I come to her rescue but I can’t deny that it makes my heart know
Wanting to say what’s on  my mind but hesitant to even say a word
that maybe I’m the guy she needs & I have the love she deserves
And if that wasn’t enough, there’s another roadblock keeping me from making a move
so beautiful but ******* on cancer sticks & I’m holding on to the interest I’m soon to lose
I hug her like no one else while another small of my heart breaks
always given the opportunity to speak up but too nervous & my voice shakes
I’m just that guy admiring something that I’d like to cherish for a lifetime
yet walking away from it realizing it can’t be mine
Is this even a love triangle or am I just overly attracted to someone that I can’t possess
Holding in a lot of feelings that’ll never be expressed but laid to rest
Whether I speak up or not, my biggest fear is the rejection
that I’ll have to face if I lose such a rare connection

I took the time to analyze the one I always pay no attention to
The one thing I’m sometimes forced to face but never willing to
Always being provided the obvious hints but they over my head
Always trying to make something work when I should fall back instead
Months ago, I met someone who was trying to avoid being loved
Being afraid to love again & I felt like I was suffering her grudge
She’s been thru a lot & I can understand where she’s coming from
Been hurt by men & loved ones so her heart became numb
Just like the ones before her, I asked what was her intentions
Like the ones in the past, it’s always something they forget to mention
I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page
Didn’t wanna look crazy if I asked for our time to be exchanged
She confirmed that we could talk but something still wasn’t clicking
Maybe she had other options besides me that she was picking
Deep down I was starting to feel like I was an option
So I thought about it for a second then proceeded with caution
Tried to be the opposite of what she was used to but still had my doubts
Mapping out the perfect path & wisely choosing my routes
As time began to progress, I started asking for more questions
But didn’t bring to her attention cause I couldn’t face the confession
I’m feeling like there’s someone else & she refuses to advise me
I had this feeling that at some point, something would surprise me
A few days later, I saw something that set me off
Another one bites the dust & another one suffers a lost
Just as I suspected, she’s attached to someone else
But luckily I let go so there’s heartbreak to felt
I guess she wanted the best thing & unfortunately, I wasn’t him
And deep down I still wish that it was me instead him

I hear Voices in my Head

during the Edge of Destruction

when I’m feeling like a Monster

& maybe it’s the Way I Am

for showing No Love

to those who’ve made me
Heartless  -Pencasso

There’s a woman hidden within;
a woman who exist full of happiness & joy
she learned to loved even after being destroyed
she’s been hurt a few times but it never stopped her
although the ones she loved only seemed to mock her

There’s a woman hidden within;
a woman living within your heart who’s locked inside
a woman behind the smile that you always hide
a woman who’s waiting to show her presence
a woman that’s awaiting your acceptance

The woman you’re afraid to be;
she’s happy without any fear
she’s proud of the woman she’s become
through all the pain, she’s grown stronger
no longer living within the essence of her horror
she smiles brighter than ever before
& for the 1st time, she loves herself forevermore

Poetic Venom

I remember the comfort of your kiss
the warmness of your hugs
a magical presence filled with such bliss
& the anticipation of overdosing on this new drug

I remember that first vibe, watching the sunset
holding you in my arms while you fell asleep
from the kisses I blessed with after being so upset
with life & everything else making you feel so weak

I remember the sound of your voice & the feeling of your touch
thinking I was in heaven only to realize it was you holding me
oh how I miss that so much
falling in love with the King I am that your love always showed me
And as time flies by, I reminisce on the view of your eyes
reminding me of the clear blue sea or even the art of a southern evening sky
with or without you, the memories will forever be amazing
-Poetic Venom

No longer can i love you
No longer can i offer you the world
No longer can you have my heart
No longer can i remain attached
My heart grew cold but my soul remains intact
I walk alone while knives hang from my back
Desiring a presence to make me happy
for too long I’ve ignored the one that really mattered
& pain has a way of reminding you what’s lost
Something has become of me, something vicious
sometimes my heart sends messages but I’m too stubborn to listen
wrongfully lead by pride & let down by my ego
safe to say I’m my worst enemy but it’s hard to let go
So making you happy isn’t an option for me anymore
but I’ll still love you forevermore
My Happily Ever After does exist, it just doesn’t reside with you
& i never wanna say goodbye but I’d rather walk away than to further hurt you
I feel my heart shattering whenever i see you cry
knowing I’m full of it & i can never make things right
I failed to be the perfect lover, hell i was barely a friend
no matter how much you want things to play out, the one thing we love most always comes to an end

I'm a Mess, I'm a Wreck
I'm Broken but what do you expect
I push you away due to fear
of you being close to me to only disappear

I'm Shattered, I'm Torn
just a product of pain & a Prince Scorn
I've been lifted up to the highest level, only to fall
but with no arms to catch me & no one to answer the call

I've loved harder than most loved back
gave away love but never received it back
Been stabbed in the back by the same ones who had it
I was once a beautiful fairytale & slowly became a hideous tragedy

I’m a woman of many flaws & imperfections
often silent but never short of verbal or physical expressions
Some may tell me that I ignore my self worth
but they don’t understand how hard it is when you’ve been so hurt
To give your heart to so many, only to feel like a piece of meat
wanting to be loved, to feel secured, yet all I’ve felt was defeat
I smile to hide the pain that I’m battling inside
always left beside the road for those that I offer a ride
The Woman I am, many wouldn’t understand the storm overhead
that causes me to lose sleep when I’m tossing & turning in bed
I lose faith within myself, blaming the pain on myself
feeling unworthy & not good enough to love anyone including myself
Many say my heart is a treasure, many say my heart is gold
but I take it with a grain of salt cause that’s been the greatest lie I’ve been told
I’m a Woman of great pain, a woman who’s cry dances with the rain
a woman whose been left heart broken & played but somehow still sane
I’m a Woman of a thousand tears & each tear has its own story to tell
with a heart that’s brutally shattered from all the destruction of mans hell
-Poetic Venom

you appeared different
overtime you got distant
had me blushing
my heart you kept crushing
in pursuit of something
my goodies had you lusting
your soul had me trusting
every word you ever spoke
killed me & left me broke
you're a king, that's a joke
gained my heart but you choked
you're a different man, that's indeed
in your lies I believed
after all I told you
& you still chose to leave

I’m having one hell of a week before I made that drastic decision
to send a text to that one person I regret missing
Our pride won’t let us communication, at least that’s what I thought
& the ego of a man is the toughest battle a man had ever fought
Somewhere deep down, I knew the signs weren’t lying to me
but I was hoping it wasn’t what I thought it would be
It took a turn for the worst when she said she had something tell me
I knew she was leaving since it couldn’t be a pregnancy
So how do you cope with the person you love most falling for someone else
& them being too “afraid” to tell you so they keep it to themselves
It was like the Titanic hitting that iceberg & my heart was the bottom of the ship
punctured & wounded causing my soul to sink
She didn’t wanna go back to the past but you can’t go back to what never existed
so let’s be realistic, you didn’t want me but couldn’t tell me so you fed me the bullsh*t
The last woman I had faith in, the last woman I fell in love with
the only woman I made love to & the only woman I could see a future with
You met me when I was broken, fixed me up, just to leave when he came along
then to have me thinking we were going to build the home that our hearts belong
You fooled me once but I forgave you, you fooled me twice & that’s all my fault
but knowing someone could easily replace me, that’s your biggest loss
-Poetic Venom

I have a message for you but it’s really nothing new
just trying to paint a picture from my view
of a picture perfect canvas & what i see is true
Not intended for who you call pretty but for girls like you
who question why any man would pursue
their world when there’s others better than you
but fail to see that they don’t have the same qualities of you
To make a long story short, the term ugly is all you
but the true meaning is Under Greatness Lies You

- Poetic Venom

It’s been a while since I’ve had that feeling
It’s been a while since we’ve given each other ****** healing
I haven’t seen that smile in a long time
been too long since you’ve shared your time with mine
We’ve known each other for this long & I still think you deserve better
simply because I’m not perfect on that attractive scale but we’ve manage to stay together
Style like no other, smile like no other
but thru it all, you still continue to treat me as if I’m your lover
I’ve been flying in this sky alone for way too long
to not have the queen eagle up here to fly along
I’m struggling to fight temptation cause I can’t let go of you
bugging out at the sound of your name when deep down, I still love you
I’m hard headed & stubborn, refusing to take no for answer
to hell with all these distractions, you’re my only dancer
No Rose Royce but here I am, wishing on a star
hoping to grasp your glow no matter how far
I thought I was lonely when you were around but your absence makes it clear
that I’m far from complete without you being here
One last memory together could be the key we need to fly again
to see our love light up the sky like the 4th of July, forever my friend
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

My existence wasn't demanded
yet I was left stranded

nothing to do between you two
but I suffered because of you

grew up without your guidance
I'm hurt but remained silent

you forced the divorce
but made me feel like the source

for years I've taken the blame
feeling ashamed to have your name

not sorry I'll no longer be
the reason you'll always hate me

I’ve tried taking this away cause it was too much
been at war with myself since my world was crushed
Tell me why a man with a good heart has to be so dark
& only feel safe when he’s talking through his art
it’s like I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m confused
trying to find a way to the light & follow the tunes
of happiness but each time, I come to a dead end
looking for my peace in these temporary non friends
who claim the same thing as the last person before them
& I’m stupid for given a chance or to even believe them
I wanted to throw life away cause it didn’t mean anything
do me a favor & let me join my family if anything
I know I’m selfish for taking away what you created
but the gift of words or being a loner couldn’t save it
a good heart turned cold being mixed in with the wrong world
picture perfect in your eyes but it’s my vision that’s blurred
So forgive me for not appreciating what you took the time to make
flawless in a way & it’s honestly my mistake
threw my life in the trash, the only thing besides my dad I hate
but I understand now that the greatest stories ever told
have the worst nightmares before the beauty unfolds
attached with a few storms from tornados & hurricanes
with the rainbow shining right behind the depressing rains
of life when the sun decides to fade away
& everything aligned becomes a disaster before we see the replay
of the carnage left behind when happiness no longer exists
with pain being the only way to end a story like this
Forgive me, for not appreciating life for what it’s worth
being blind by the lies, deceit, & the hurt
the disappointments led by false expectations
of those who cause harm without hesitation
using our fear of letting go to bring more misery
further making our self worth feel like an unsolved mystery
I stand here in tears as I plead for another chance to get this right
to embrace the lessons that come with life
never again shall I question your reasons
even if I’m overwhelmed when fighting demons
All faith placed in you through hell or water, my friend
as you guide me to peace & further protect me, Amen

It’s unfair for me to need your love but I want something else
& I believe it’s mainly because I’m still trying to love myself
Stuck with the childish mind but I’m running outta time
trying to heal a broken heart before it’s no longer mine
but how can I keep her from crying
when she’s gonna leave in a matter of time
It’s unfair for me to love you when I’m only loyal to me
& I’m trying to love the man you love but that man I don’t see
I don’t want us to fight no more, don’t want us to cry no more
but I don’t want this although it’s the main thing I was dying for
I need this love forever, I can’t do this if we don’t make a change
I want us complete but you gotta want the same thing
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Call me crazy. Call me stupid.
Call me foolish. Hell you can call me clueless
To be willing to take someone back who had my heart & bruised it
But can you explain the feeling you get
when someone is stuck in the memories that you can’t forget
Every song that comes on, plays a reminder of them in your head
thinking of em constantly causing you to toss & turn in your bed
I admit I miss what we shared, you made me a happy man
the one I ran to who saw thru my flaws & the main one who never failed to understand
that I’m hurt but still trying to love the best way I can
we destroyed each other & thru it all, I’d still give us a final chance
to see just how strong we could be if we get out of our way
to see the sunset in each others eyes instead of the tears that remains the soundtrack of our day
I ask myself why would I let you back in after you broke my heart
but I tell myself that I’m not so innocent & the guilt also tore me apart
knowing that I’ve made my mistakes with letting my head make the wrong decisions
blinding my tunnel vision of love causing me to overlook what was missing
So am I really crazy for wanting that past love back all because I miss the feeling
or am I just stupid for removing the patch on my heart that took me forever to stop the bleeding
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

When the sunsets;
I lock you up in my arms & start to pray
for one day
when we say hello to tomorrow & goodbye to yesterday

Sunsets with you;
give me this feeling that I’ve never felt before
a feeling that I can’t ignore
a feeling that I cherish forevermore

When the sunsets;
I shed tears when I realize
what God’s blessed me with
as your presence brings me more alive

The Sunset of You;
brings my dreams to life
& for those short minutes of the day
you make me feel like I can actually fly

- Poetic Venom

Today I was struck with devastating news
saying good bye to someone I never thought I'd lose
Under the impression that everything was okay
but everything came crashing down in the worst way
Losing contact for almost a month, I knew something was wrong
& I can either fight my pride to see what's wrong
going back to a place where my heart doesn't belong
How do you accept the fact that someone you love no longer wants your love?
Trying to grasp my brain around letting her go
Hearing her tell me goodbye but my heart won't let go
Already dealing with my own hell, she hits me with the saddest news
Something I thought I'd never hear her say again
Once again, giving my heart the inspiration for the blues
& now I'm forced to watch someone else love my best friend

It amazes me when those who’re guilty are quick to play victim
& it’s hard to walk away when they’re so lost in your system
We were supposed to be an item but all we do is argue
I’m trying to have patience with someone who’s broken but it’s a virtue
All the assumptions being thrown at me makes me question your stability
like you’re trying to make me out to be this monster so you can get rid of me
I get it you’ve been tarnished but why punish me for even trying
here I am working for your happiness but you insist on crying
I guess it’s always my fault, put the blame on me as always
although I’m the one pointing out the facts of your selfish ways
When I’m too busy to text you back, you assume I’m ignoring you
then you cry as if I’m the reason for the issues that I’m showing you
This could’ve been perfect, it would’ve been well worth it
but you took something amazing & treated it like a circus
I tried to help us fly but you wanted to crawl
I was there waiting for you but you refused my trust in catching your fall
You’re the one to blame for our separation, yet you can never accept your faults
I was willing to take that love but my heart deserve that cost
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

True story of this love interest that I fell for from a distance
catching her attention with my verbal charm but we couldn’t even kick it
Married to a man who barely gives her attention
then I came along with everything except the one thing that’s missing
What did I get myself into? I told her I love her but this love ain’t that simple
I got plans for you although my heart can’t be with you
Got you texting me from 7am to 9pm until you lay next to him
with this huge smile on your face but no thanks to him
He tells you he’s working late sometimes & doesn’t come home until midnight
or he lies about his whereabouts after y’all fall out from a verbal fight
You keep telling me you wanna leave him for me but I beg you not to
simply because I’m not the man of your dreams or the perfect one to love you
cause when I think about it, we talk *** more than we talk love
which makes me ask if you truly desire lust or just want me cause you don’t feel loved
Been riding this wave for 3 months & i think things are getting serious between us
both falling foolishly in love with this wall standing between us
You’re confused not knowing who you wanna be with the most
& I advise you to stay where you are being that his heart is your host
I’m just a guest creeping in the house exciting your walls
breaking em down with every visit & the effects of it makes you crawl
Legs weak, hormones raging, thoughts racing, & the bed squeaking
lips making love endlessly while I keep your rivers leaking
But if at any minute you feel like making love is wrong, we can call it quits
cause I’d hate to be the reason you begin to feel like this
tears flowing down your eyes, confused on what to do
& this all started because the King you wanted didn’t wanna love you
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

You question me as to why I care so much
for someone who’s broken & afraid
someone who’s lost too many wars
someone that I can’t save
or a heart that others tend to ignore

You search for the person I see but
you always point out something to inspire a dislike
something that’ll turn me away from you
telling it’s impossible to impact your life
fearing that sooner or later, I’m gonna turn my back on you

The You That You Fail to Love
within her eyes, I see someone who’s more than amazing
someone who’s heart is everything you could ever ask for
someone who’s never really been loved properly
& someone that only a fool would be crazy not to adore

- Poetic Venom

We never dated yet I fell in love
I played the fool, why do fools fall in love
I was stuck in stupid, your vibe was the glue
& sadly enough, I never knew you
Addicted to your smile & hooked on your presence
didn’t pray for your approach but you became that blessing
I waited years to be your everything, just to walk away
crying & broken is how I spent these past few days
You broke my heart in the worst way but forever I wish you greatness
I fell in love with a stranger who was so faithless
- Poetic Venom

Whatever happened to us?
We went from love to lust to lost of trust
now my heart's crushed

Whatever happened to our love?
Hurting each other by holding on to pride
& me loving you with a grudge

We changed & I miss the old us
But no one told us that this storm would end us
now I'm lost within the shadows seeking your touch

I miss your kiss, I miss your soul
I lost it all before I could enjoy it
the stubbornness of two lovers destroyed us

I juggle with the thoughts of retirement then watch people look at me crazy
then I listen to em when they ask “Dre, are you crazy?”
It’s your words & stories that get me thru the pain daily
& I get it but these stories aren’t exactly the key that I need to save me
I’m able to save y’all from your pain but I’m a pro at neglecting myself
plus I never imagined being here, poetry was therapy for myself
I did what I never thought I could do & what I thought I never would do
& although y’all mean the world to me, maybe this is what I should do
I take many breaks thru the year just to live life not only to learn from experiences
but to study myself from different characteristics
I prayed about saving a few lives with my words, I’ve saved many
prayed about guiding a few to a new light, I’ve guided plenty
so even if I do reach the highest level of this gift, what’s left for me to enjoy?
Especially when I’m barely happy & self destruction is the main thing I can’t avoid
I always ask myself, what would y’all do if you never discovered my passion for this
What would you do if you never met me or if you never saw talent in this
guy who’s just like you that you look so highly up to
salute like he’s a God when he’s nowhere close to being above you
A part of me doesn’t wanna quit but a part of me wants to throw in the towel
just to see the admirers give me a standing ovation & take a bow
I’m just a King still on the search for his crown
as I unknowingly lead others to better days while I’m slowly breaking down
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

This rose from a battered root that struggled to grow
drenched in its sorrowful rain of depression
with the ambition to sprout & evolve into Life

Misguided by the influences of adversity
designed to hinder the progression
to become great within itself

The water flowing from these clipped pedals
aren’t tears of regret
but a relief from being able to be Free
without the fear of being held down
by self-doubt or the misery of outside bystanders

Mental Health is the wind that I often soar against
with my tears of rain creating great turbulence
desiring shelter in the comfort of friendly arms
only to frequently land on dense structures, being attacked upon arrival
finding refuge in dark spaces where I feel at peace
waiting for the sunshine to arise, where my journey to freedom awaits