It can hurt you, it can break you
Abandon & Forsake you
Feeling like a dream before you get departed
leaving you frustrated & cold hearted

Love is just a word that comes & goes
but who really knows
what it means to love truly
thru the madness & the beauty

It’ll make you laugh, it’ll make you cry
leave you always asking why
Why must I have to always kiss love goodbye
it only brings pain so why even try

It can make you or break you
make you feel whole or like you’re not good enough
That’s the Thing About Love
- Poetic Venxm

Self conscious
broken heart
waterfall tears
soul torn apart

Self esteem low
verge of quitting
tired of being tired
tears speak but all fail to listen

All claims sound the same
same clowns, same game
fake smiles, pretend to be okay
Too many Crying Queens
too many tears been washed away
- Poetic Venom

Dre, I understand that you’ve been thru a lot but you can’t blame yourself
for loving everyone else more than you’ve ever loved yourself
You’ve been told a lot that you’re amazing but you’ve been treated like trash
referred to as “weak” & “soft” by the same ones falling for those who only want ***
I understand the pain but you messed up by neglecting the one person who needs you the most
the one person who loves you & deserves your love the most
A heart made of pure gold but that treasure suffers from several cracks
trying to be a real man with the pressure of perfection weighing down on your back
Let me love you until you can love me the same way
cause you can’t understand what that love is with the self hate blocking your way

Baby girl, open your eyes & take a look at what’s right in front of you
the queen of amazingness, yea that’s all you
Let me ask you this, how can you love me more than you love yourself?
Why would you love me more than you’ve ever loved yourself?
I give you a lot of my love but doing so puts fear in me
all because you’ve never had it before which might make you leave me
You’ve placed this wall in front of me but every time I get to the top
you knock me down a few more feet because you see I refused to stop
Let my love bring you to life, revive the very soul that seems to have lost its life
& I’ll give it everything I have even if it means paying a price
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

As a man, I’m not ashamed to admit that I cry sometimes in the dark where I can’t be seen to anyone else who may not understand the concept behind my pains rainfall or the aftermath of the destruction from my damaged heart

Almost everyday, I question my stance as a man looking for any errors that may need correcting or any part of my spirit that maybe in need of improvements

Sometimes, I feel weak for being so emotional about what I feel or passionate about sharing love with another soul that needs me

Overall, I feel I am amazing but fall short on qualities needed to attract certain eyes that see through my false happiness & see the treasure that’s tucked away behind this pure heart of mine

This is the poem where I appear ecstatic
only to distract you from the truth
trying to keep my head clear but still there's static
trying to bring back my youth

This is the poem where I tell you I'm fine
but I'm lying, I'm down on my knees
begging please to the highest power above
that I'm relived from this hell & grant me love

This is the poem where I tell you I've won
the battle with my demons but I still hold the plug
in hand, just waiting for the moment to say F**k it,
take the head jack & unplug it

This is the poem where I tell you I'll be okay
when in fact, I won't be & I give my ending a delay
cause although I want it to end, the guilt kills me
of making my family bury me but I hope they forgive me

If you love me, then let it be beautiful
I don’t wanna be scared or paranoid
but filled with joy & happiness
like the feeling I get when I’m fast asleep
in a dream but I wanna never wake up
or when I’m flying & the clouds cover my feet
So if you really love me
let the joy bring us closer without fears departing us
Poetic Venom

Not everything can be discussed
but assure me that everything will be okay
I'll tend to push you out
but promise me that you'll stay

Although you can't relate or understand
just lend an ear whenever I need to vent
you provide comfortability & that's like home

If I do become distant
refrain from taking it personal
but space is required for me sometimes
especially when my demons are winning the battle

I am my biggest enemy
with my mind being my worst villain
& even the brightest days
everything will begin to go dark

I am NOT Okay & this is the Only way I know to Say it

I came a long way to let the negativity stop me
I gotta keep pushing no matter how many may doubt me
I’ve been counted out since the day I was born
now here I am telling the story of a young man scorn
Never had a father figure, just me & my mom
& watched her struggled for us to eat with these dead end jobs
Been going strong for 14 years although I took it for granted
doubted myself & fell for the evil vibes I attracted
I’m saving lives with my words but the world ain’t heard of me
from Canada, the UK, China, Japan, & even Germany
You ain’t promised to be big when you come from my home
you either settle for fast food, construction, or wasting life at home
If I gave it all up, I give up on those that look up to me
the self harmed burdened angels who quit cutting because of me
To many I’m worthless, but to a few I’m referred to as a hero
the one they ran to when their tears needed a pillow
It’s a blessing to be a blessing & it’s amazing to see
how I’ve achieved my main dream without being famous, God’s just using me
- Poetic Venom

I had this dream where I met this woman whose smile told me a tale
of someone who’s out of my league & if I tried to pursue her soul then I was most likely to fail
It’s something about her that made me want to explore her inner essence
to understand the uprising of a Queen from the beginning of her adolescent

Now in my dream, she loves my poetry, in fact I’ve inspired her to smile sometimes
but still I’m desiring one dance to possibly commit the perfect crime.
What’s that crime, you ask? Well, she has a heart like no other that I’d like to discover
& even if I fail, I can move on with my day knowing that I did my best to love her

This Woman; she possesses this presence so strong. a demeanor of independence
a heart of pure gold, & a soul of many treasures whose quality of love is endless.
Who am I? I’m just a guy who never requires a reply from the confessions of my heart
that doesn’t mind expressing itself yet still confused on where to start.
I’m that smile on your face, trying to become the rhythm & blues within your soul
to share the sweet symphony of romance & I pray your collaborations won’t behold

It brings Sadness
leaves us confused
changing our approach
modifying our point of view

For most, it’s a fantasy
a feeling only present
when our eyes close
to grow old as one & raise a family

Go thru hell & craziness
wasting precious time
being broken
just to get to happiness

That’s what Love is
trails & tribulations
dead ends, lonely nights
live life alone holding grudges

rose from the country roots

deep within the woods

& fields that stretch over a mile long

from the early morning sounds of roosters

to the late night sounds of crickets

where poverty is expected to take over lives

there resides, a young poet with fire in his eyes

with the hopes of changing the world

or inspiring the spark that further changes it

I’ve been enjoying this single life for quite some time now
but I’m still lonely, yearning for one to hold me down
I admit that I’m not perfect, I’ve been creeping on the prowl
a few one night stands but it’s no fun to me now
It used to be fun wit me but my feelings have gotten a hold to me
got me wishing one was there to love & spoil me
Just a simple man wanting love without the games or mixed signals
just wanna be corny around the right one just to make her giggle
This ******* lifestyle was cool but there’s still something missing
the love of a woman that wants all of my love & attention
I tried living the life as other men but I found no excitement
but when a woman request the love of my heart, it’s all silence
Don’t know if I’ve been hurt too much or rather not waste my time
cause I keep meeting girls with different zodiac signs
So tell me what’s a man to do when he’s ready to settle down
tired of missing a Queen’s love & falling for the lust waiting to be found
You live & your learn, my old ways taught me that pleasure can’t fill the void
of real love that my heart is waiting to enjoy

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

I’ve written my whole life in words
over 1,900+ poems to date
but what’s a poet to do
when he’s run out of things to say  - Pencasso

Back at one from being over & done
under your moonlight with me as the sun
Watching the glow from far away
awaiting my time to make a play
to win your heart & marry your soul
with one shot to score my last goal

Back at one from where the chapter never ended
falling in love still, only from a respected distance
You smile not the same but we know why
when you smile now, it’s followed by a cry
in your heart where I once reside
around your spirit & forever by your side
- Poetic Venxm

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

To fall in love with a writer, you must be true
for everything written is because of you
whether good or bad, happy or sad
you’ll never perish

- Poetic Venxm

She has the Presence of an Angel;
personality of a devil
body of a goddess
but what lies within is everything but special

Diamond Eyes;
voice of the heavens
smiles of the favorites
but what lies within threatens

Work of Art;
dig within the surface
discover what’s hidden
you’ll discover this beauty is worthless

we're bound to crash if love is ego driven

blinded by pride using tunnel vision

fast without being furious while in poor condition

soon to be halted due to a bad transmission

trying to repair what's broken without seeing the parts missing

speeding into danger waiting for a collision

who's to win if we're both playing to lose

speeding into love when love is better if we cruise

I got anger, anxiety, & depression sitting right next to me
reaching out to an old love but she refuses to text me
I could never let someone know exactly what I’m thinking
take a trip thru my mind just to see how it’s depressing
Loneliness, heartbreak, pain, & depression mixed with alcohol
fading in & out of anxiety just waiting until the day I fall
It’s been almost a lifetime since I remember being happy
always full of tears, can’t recall a moment of me truly smiling
Can’t let a woman into my heart without pushing her away
cause I’m afraid that if I love her for real then she won’t bother to stay
Flying thru my thoughts & can’t seem to find a place to land
but there’s no need for you love me cause my mind you won’t understand
Family telling me to cool out before I lose my mind & go insane
feeling like it won’t be long before I take a gun to blow my brains
Side note, I think I found someone who really wants to see my smile
& I’m too afraid to let her love me cause that real love hasn’t been felt in a while

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Why do we argue?
Why do we scream?
Why do we go back & forth?
I want you to go but don't want you to leave
I don't like to beg but I'm on my knees
You say it hurts you but it hurts me even more
give you love although I'm not in love anymore
we grew apart & the fighting tore us apart

Why do we argue?
Why do we fight?
I love you & you changed my life
but this love didn't feel fight
despite circumstances, the future was bright
but I don't think this love is the love of my life

I used to think it was my biggest loss in the world
to lose the one person that brought me into this world
but going back to think about it, you're the loser here
for walking away from a blessing with the pain being severe
never mind the issues with you & my mom, I'm not apart of that
you owe me enough to guide me thru life but avoided that
I can't understand the idea of not raising my seed
grooming him perfectly to be fit respectfully as a king
with some lessons being better taught by men
"I gave birth to you so it's my job to help you win"
not a single birthday card or phone call to be sent
just that $80 a week on child support spent
you loss out on a miracle, a blessing to be exact
making him grow to disliking you, you gotta live with that
used to be sorry for being your son but it's not me
to tell a dad about his responsibilities
you created a monster that turned into a gem
that soon a monster & slowly becoming HIM
hope you're proud of me dad cause I made it
I now love the creation that spent my life hating

when the sun goes to sleep
& day turns to night
you lay back to kick up your feet
once more, I make you feel high

all the right vibes
intimacy & romance
the excitement in your eyes
as we slow dance

make this last forever
everlasting pleasure
one dance meant for you & me
perfect symmetry when love collides
Love & Poetry

Changes in your ways;

    we don’t chill like we used to
    talk like we used to
    already have a bond established
    & you allowed him to pursue you

Who do you love?
    is it me or someone that you just met
    why the sudden desire
    to create a remix to the perfect duet

Him or Me?
    I can’t bother to give you a decision
    at the end of the day
    I see that the love for me is already missing
    So I’d rather leave it alone & let him have you
    I couldn’t fix this love even if I bothered to try to

- Poetic Venom

“Us”was over when it became three
“Us” was over when you chose another love over me
“Us” was supposed to be my Dream turned Reality
“Us” was meant to be the better half of me
“Us” is no more, nothing more of a memory
“Us” is what I believed in, silly me
Poetic Venom

I got that Dream Love, the love that you never heard of
That fairy tale type of love that you’ve always & forever dreamed of
Let me pursue your wildest dreams & motivate your ambitions
Put me in this maze for your heart & I’ll show you what you never thought was missing
This is that different type of love, that love of you never thought you’d meet
The type of love that you can’t wait to wake up next to from the night previously
The type of love that you’ll go to the moon for
The type of love that only a certain type of queen would be a fool for
This is that Dream Love. The type of love that’ll sweep you off your feet
Please all the right areas right before I love you back to sleep
The type of love that awakens you from that dream
That you were living in but you never fell asleep
You just got lost in my heart & fell in love with my peace
This is that Dream Love. The love that will have you walking down the alter
The love that will have me on my knees begging permission from the father
To have, to hold, to cherish, & to forever be attached to the daughter
Love so good that it’ll make a man walk on water
This is that Dream Love. The love that will make me swim in your tears
The love that will have me forever thanking the man upstairs
The love you never had so good that no other one can compare
This is that Dream Love. The love that you kiss goodnight to
The love that rolls over in the middle of the night & cuddles next to you
The love that will rub your foot while you express the stress of your day
The love that will realize what a blessing you are as he prays
The love that will stare you within the eyes right before he begins to cry
Cause you’ve been in love before but never with a guy like I
This is that Dream Love

Within your love, I lost myself
Loving you more than I loved myself
You had your doubts but so did I
fearing our love would never be able to fly
I wasn’t fully recovered from a past love
you were still broken from a current love
Somehow our paths crossed & we fell in love
but who knew that we’d fall outta love

I lost myself trying to make it work but it caused more hurt
all the arguments, the fighting, & break ups
I was more focused on showing you what I saw & forgot about me
but you never failed to make me feel like you were better without me
But what hurts the most is not being myself anymore
can’t think straight or sleep anymore
Up at 2am, stuck in my thoughts, but I can’t shed a tear
so I play it off like I don’t even care
But my biggest issue was loving you too much & me not enough

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I Am that kid feeling alone in a world where I’m surrounded
Trying to fly away but reality keeps me grounded
Exist in the thoughts that never get spoken in conversation
Zoned out & writing within the mind but often losing concentration
Head down, hoodie on, & trying not to exist
Lifelong battle with depression but trying not to quit

I Am that kid trying to create happiness in others
Giving them an outlet to vent just so they won’t have to suffer
Make it clear that they’re not living in this world alone
Showing that someone understands them & they don’t have to fight alone
Reaching to be that hero to which they’ve always wanted
Saving them from a torn world that forever seems haunted

I Am that kid who portrays the hero but wants to be saved
Although I may seem strong, I also desire to shortened my days
I hide my invisible scars to keep from being judged
Scarred from those who’ve previously dragged my name in the mud
I Am that kid who believes he’s the Legend struggling to be heard
Make his impact legendary before it’s his time to become that fly away bird

Often I’m asked how come why other guys aren’t like me
how come they’re not sweet or charming like me
why they’re not caring or passionate about ones heart like me
why they don’t care for the broken hearts like me
why their vibes aren’t as romantic & chill like me

Once in a Lifetime
who else will do the most just for a second to see you smile
One in a Million
who else will write a million poems just to say I love you
Rare Breed
who else will stand by you thru every storm that you may face
Rare King
who’s other heart will you come across that you can’t replace

Once in a Lifetime
not to be cocky but where can you find a heart that’s full of gold
that will shed a tear once it reaches the essence of your soul
never again will you find, a love quite like mine

- Poetic Venom

I Am the rhythm behind your every heartbeat
the concept to the soundtrack that rocks your heart to sleep
I Am the rhythm in blues for your every stormy night
the stars you admire dancing in the midnight light
I Am that King you see whenever you begin to dream
the passion that makes your body shiver & soul scream
I Am your every thought & the tears flowing down your face
the smile that’s brightening the world, the heart you can’t replace
I Am the arms holding you whenever you’re sleepless
the love that has you in the clouds & speechless
I Am that King admiring a Queen’s world from the outside looking in
thinking of all the strategies I can steal her heart for the win
I Am the one you’re missing even when you don’t realize it
desiring your mind, body, & soul but hoping not to wrongly utilize it
I Am that love you can’t seem to get away from
looking for an escape but my heart is where you run
I Am your wildest dream, your dream come true, your everything altogether
I Am the best love you’ve never had but also the love that never fails to make you better

☆Poetic Venxm ☆

While I’m alive & well, I don’t feel the appreciation that one should feel
when he places everyone before him, it’s only a heart being killed
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep asking if life is worth living anymore
cause I look around & don’t see fit to be around anymore
So many tears I’ve cried but my scream for help has yet to be heard
pleading for peace but my world feels too disturbed
So much love will be shared that I’ll never hear
but it’s sad how my homegoing will be the only time they’ll ever feel sincere
I know that once my time has come & it’s time for me to leave
you’ll then see so many fall to their knees
crying those everlasting tears as they realize what’s to come
a world without yours truly & the guilt of what they’ve done
& when the rain comes down on the day I’m sent home
it won’t be from the crying skies but from my sorrowed eyes
while the doves of heaven take my soul through the stormy sky
- Poetic Venom

everything is okay

never knew what this would feel like

for once, my world isn't dark

the sun shining bright over me

flowers bloom in the spring

birds chirp the morning away

laughter in the midst

feels like I've waited my whole life for this

Never interested in commitment
Ran from loyalty & faithfulness
Tempted by false advertisements
Shot down by disappointments

A man running around like a boy
taking hearts & using them like a toy
Requirements of a dog to be met
down to the lowest level, lack of self respect

My Forever was only temporary
I played the fool yet again
so in return, I took a turn for the worst
feeling as tho Love was nothing short of a curse

Now here I arm, in the presence of a Queen
something I only saw in my dreams
This feeling of electricity that’s flowing thru my soul
even when feeling incomplete, she makes me whole
- Poetic Venom

I would love you
but you push me away every time I get too close

I would love you
but when I look for your heart, it’s like looking for a ghost

I would love you
you never take my words serious

I would love you
but for a love like mine, you’re inexperienced

I would love you
but for what I’m bringing to the table, it scares you

I would love you
but my heart doesn’t understand you

I would love you
but my past mistakes made it hard to love again

I would love you
but in this game we call “love”, I’ll never win

I would love you
but I’m not sure I know how to

Cause you can’t love me
when my heart won’t allow you to

- Poetic Venom

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I cry when I hear certain songs
that remind me of you, the times I’ll never have again
the home where my heart used to belong
& the love that I may never win again

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I go to bed feeling for your presence when it’s missing
hoping to kiss you good night to tell you I love you
instead there’s the music playing with these mental thoughts spinning
feeling lonely knowing that it’s empty on your side of my heart

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I smile this way whenever we’re together
thanking God every time I set my eyes on you
falling deeper in love because you make me better
not worried about falling when I can always depend on you to catch my fall & knowing
any other woman can’t make me feel like I don’t need anyone else
or to make me love someone 10x more than I love myself

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why are my nights so sleepless with thoughts of you
thinking of new ways to give you my everything
becoming a new man all because of you
loving the sweet melody that when my heart sings

- Poetic Venom

Am I wrong for thinking we could be legit, happy at peace building a foundation that lasts for eternity. Best friends in every aspect & feeding off each others energy

Is it unnecessary to stay safe although I doubt you’ll cause me harm with your heart not being able to handle tearing me apart or looking to you for light when my world becomes dark

Am I crazy for thinking you’re IT for me & everybody else is only a distraction to keep me from loving this source of life that’s the answer for my prayers

And am I fool for falling in love with you when you hold the missing key to this heart of mine & although it’s damaged goods, you still admire it for its true worth that’s intact from the aftermath of loves nature disaster

I don’t believe in luck but I believe in faith, being that it’s the only thing that brought us together when we needed each other the most & taught us that real love deserves to be fought for

It took everything in me to walk away
It took everything outta me to stay
It took everything in my pride to say
that i love you with everything & that you’re the light to my every day

It took everything in me to fight
It took everything in my pride to make things right
It took everything in my power to set it aside
& it took every single crack in my cold heart to even decide
that this isn’t what it needs to be, my forever that means you & me

It took everything in me to not break down
It took everything in me to not make a sound
It took everything in me to forgive myself for the damage unknowingly caused
& everything inside of me to cope with this devastating loss
-Poetic Venom

Not happy or sad
Not enraged or mad
Not confused or lost
More so incomplete & empty
& today I cried feeling like no one can feel me

Frustrated or irritated
i can’t seem to tell which one
but i broke down hard, it was one of those days
& even thru the silence, not a soul asked if i was okay

I accept that I’ll never understand the pain, sacrifice, & patience
the sadness, the drive, or the strength to keep going
whether it’s the gift of life or the damage of a toxic love
without the fathers’ help but she manages to be all she can be
I feel it’s my duty to appreciate the magic in her presence
the endless crying tears, the endless sleepless nights
the feeling of being let down yet she still hangs on to her crown
I pray to the powers above that her heart is one day admired
her wounded existence & her will to never give up
is such a beautiful thing to witness
the pain or the beautiful madness of this Woman’s Work

You’re precious but even my words leave you unconvinced
you’ve been destroyed by love & haven’t been the same since
a solid one that’s for sure but you’re often unappreciated
feeling like a source of lust cause most love these days are undedicated
it’s sad that the only love you’ve ever known was abuse
verbally & physically with unprovoked rage used as an excuse
you cook, you clean, then deal with all the toxicity from the outside world
doing wifely things for a man when you’re not even his girl
hurts my heart to watch a masterpiece often sit silently while she suffers
cause she knows is broken promises, blocked calls, & broken rubbers
rain on me, put your pain on me, you feel lost & lonely
wanted love in the highest quality to only become another body
You’re way too **** precious to let men treat you so ugly
delivered love on time, every time in the highest quality
a diamond in the rough that’s been ignored a little too much
a treasure for a king that should be treated as such
so forgive me on behalf of all those who disregarded your value
an high quality object but most have only degraded its volume

You feel lost & confused
been hurt & abused
cheated on & misused
built to win but only seem to lose
You’ve been left & replaced
lack of confidence & drowning in self hate
cried too many tears
still living in fear

You wish to be someone else
you can’t stand to look at yourself
too many times you’ve placed on the shelf
feeling incomplete & always questioning yourself
You’ve never been loved the right way but trust
you were made the way you are for a reason
& you’re unique, you just need to believe it
but all in all, there’s one thing you should know
You Are Enough
- Poetic Venom

there is no voice

there is no expression

a world & heart that’s empty

I’d flatline

without it, i don’t exist

but most of all, I’d be no more   - Pencasso

When I didn’t believe in myself
you made me believe
What I thought was a joke
your support made it feel like a dream

If not for you, I would’ve given up long ago
It’s because of you, I still have faith to go
Turned a hobby into a passion, now look at me
touching & impacting lives just like me

I used to write to free me from myself
& you made me believe in myself
The cure for depression, I may never find
but I thank you to keep me inspired in writing

Thank you for the love & the support,
for you’re the reason I’m still here

With Love;
Not Poetic Venxm, just Dre

It’s something about her presence, better yet her in general that gets me every time
Making me do laps in my head, thinking of ways to make her smile all the time
The way she kisses me makes me feel like I’m flying within a dream that doesn’t exist
Cause there’s no way anything so unique could make me feel so **** good like this
I’m usually not thinking of one person 24/7 but here I am thinking of her non stop
Hoping I don’t **** up what I really want & I see that perfect picture but it’s me cropped
Out thanks to the paranoia thoughts that never seem to go away
And she’s never met a man like me before but I pray she won’t go away
It was supposed to be friends with benefits but some way somehow, my charm got in the way
That made her smile way too much because of me & it became the highlight of her day
I tend to have my fantasy thoughts of her ever since she ****** the soul out of me
Not ready for her level of kinkiness, her experience is way ahead of me
Then one day I shed a tear when I realized things were changing
Felt like I was losing her grip but this was something worth saving
It wasn’t the *** on my mind but the vibe we shared that kept my mind racing
And although she’s a busy woman, it’s her time I keep chasing
Just for another day to hold her in my arms & stare her in the eyes
Without saying a word but my heart never hesitates to reply
Jessica’s Tear was one of the most beautiful melodies I ever heard
As it detailed the presence of someone to which I feel like I don’t deserve
But in the end, she’s a best friend that I hope I can gain over time
So I can happily say that I was a smooth criminal of the most romantic crime

- Poetic Venom

Nor them or you could understand the Love
I gave to an angel sent to me from above
I blame myself for getting Attached so easily so quickly
figured if I did such a thing then you wouldn’t Leave me
Never have we had the chance to see this love take off
but I didn’t think something so Precious would come with a Cost

So my last Dying Wish is to see you for once, one Last time
to hold you as we go our separate ways
saying Goodbye as we reminisce on our past days
to hear your Voice right before you hang up the phone
leaving me in existence all alone
But nevertheless, you’re Forever in my Heart even from afar
as I wish for our final visit with that once in a lifetime shooting star

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

Don’t let me fall from grace or the high clouds that I’ve worked so hard to get to & don’t let me parish before I know how much I mean to you for this life of ours isn’t guaranteed to see the sunny rays of tomorrow or forget the cloudy days of yesterday

Don’t let me cry if life gets hard & I see no further reason to live anymore cause I’m tired of the pain inside that I can’t seem to let go of or the happiness that I’m too in fear to reach because of the potential end that may come on the backend as a result to happiness not being forever

Don’t let me go to sleep existing in a nightmare that’s never ending when I’m looking for my dream that may seem to be lost within my fantasy world & when I look around, it’s only me alone looking up to the clouds waiting to wake up again

The next chapter won’t begin until I find the source of joy that I’ve been waiting to see but my own insecurities have blinded me from right in front of me & that’s the love of someone who truly wants to love me although she’s seen that diamond with the cracks but still appreciates the value

Am I a poet or am I crazy? For trying to bring change to his world
My poems beg those to help me from myself that’s caught up in this dark world
Am I a poet or am I dreaming? Guiding those like me to the light
Inside is where we’re heard screaming as we struggle to keep the fight
against ourselves when we battle with my demons
while telling ourselves that we’re Light & breaking down when our hearts end up leaving
Am I a poet or just crazy for trying to do what my heart feels within
one foot on the bright side & the other in the darkness where I make most of my friends
cause I see myself inside of them when I see that depression ripping them into
a million pieces & they only see the person society shows them when they look in the mirrors view
So am I a poet or am I just another writer on a mission
without throwing a penny into the well, I’m here wishing
for a brighter future for those just like me
guiding a line of overlooked angels who inspire to be great just like me
- Poetic Venom

I often wake up in tears but can never explain it
I hate myself in every form & I hate it
sometimes I see myself on this mountain looking back
at everything that’s happened prior getting here
then ask myself, “Why am I still here?” when I feel incomplete
& the only time I vent is in my sleep causing me to cry endlessly
I feel like I’m by myself although I’m surrounded by love
but in the end, would they love me more if I wasn’t here
I bring joy to those I love to hide that I’m not okay
but they have enough on their plate so I remain silent
then at night when I close my eyes & drown in the waterfalls of my sorrows
I wanna be happy but happiness doesn’t come without sadness
& unfortunately, I’m trapped in a world that’s full of evil & madness
I could share my tears with one of my close friends
but who cares enough to keep me from putting this life to an end
I’ve been at war with my own mind since I was a kid
I keep looking for an escape but every turn is a dead end
& I’m tired of calling on alcohol & sleep aid as a friend
If only you knew how many times I’ve driven my fist into a wall
or how many times I’ve tried to consume more than 150 mgs of sleeping pills
still wishing for an overdose cause I don’t wanna wake up again
to face that demon in the mirror that I’ve called my friend
with the only thing stopping me is the pain it’ll cause my mother
can’t bring it to myself to hurt her way worse than the others