obsessed with the feeling

tried hard to overcome it

running from fate

regret fills my face

saw a trap & took the bait

the right one wasn't worth the wait

rolling stone in the night

the man I've become

I prove my worth

show you my soul

put my flaws on the table

we're both insecure, you & I


But what if I become true

to my every word

& show you dreams come alive

would it be enough to help you fly again

everything is okay

never knew what this would feel like

for once, my world isn't dark

the sun shining bright over me

flowers bloom in the spring

birds chirp the morning away

laughter in the midst

feels like I've waited my whole life for this

I hear the music playing
matching the rain on the window
with thunder adding suspense
depression in the making

The feeling in my soul
when I'm in the dark
feeling for an escape
but I'm empty & lose control

Silence becomes a melody
as I listen to the sorrows
of me suffering
a familiar symphony

It brings Sadness
leaves us confused
changing our approach
modifying our point of view

For most, it’s a fantasy
a feeling only present
when our eyes close
to grow old as one & raise a family

Go thru hell & craziness
wasting precious time
being broken
just to get to happiness

That’s what Love is
trails & tribulations
dead ends, lonely nights
live life alone holding grudges

every kiss I cherish

every hug I embrace

dwell every time we vibe

feeling butterflies all over

cause any second it'll be over

thoughts of you in every song

you're mine, that's where you belong

love for the moment cause forever ain't that long

I remember it so vividly me
the rage inside killing me
going to school every day
& at the end of each day, I would pray
ask God for the guidance
don’t have patience but I tried it
let everything go, enough is enough
everybody must die or ima give up
got home in the pm right around 3
before I hit the back door, found my uncles key
walked into his room looked in the closet
there goes the gun hiding in the darkness
I took it to my room & loaded it up
put it under my bed used my shoes to cover it up
next morning I wake up, wash up & head out
with the gun in my bag & the bus enroute
but 10mins before it pull up, I stopped & think
ima take my future then throw it down the sink
all I wanna do is ****, my fist hurts from the wall
punching it nonstop, guess I'm angry by default
on second thought I threw the gun in the ditch
before word gets out & my mom gets the switch
got ****** on my mind but couldn't fulfill it
blood painting the walls when I spill it
4 main targets that won't live to see 18
living out grand theft auto outside of my dreams
got to school but remained quiet while screaming
inside my head with the demon side scheming
on making a move to make them regret
messing with me with I dump led in their chest
waiting for a moment so I black out
destroy everything in sight, ima show you what this pain bout
alive or dead at the time it was worth the risk
but before either one, they'll remember me for this