when you're done blaming me

crying over or hating me

begging or persuading me

stressed over dating me

tried ******* saving me

but the pettiness was killing me

for the moment I was fortunate

but in love, we're total opposites

no hate but vibes are moderate

my departure hurts but you'll get over it

a decision was made
a path was paved
the future delayed
my heart wasn't saved

a chapter ended
a heart befriended
your love's suspended
the reason argumented

I admitted I'm wrong
couldn't string you along
to make you think we strong
together, we don't belong

hurt, you ain't the only one
too petty too long, we're done
forced me out, you won
you'll find another one

you appeared different
overtime you got distant
had me blushing
my heart you kept crushing
in pursuit of something
my goodies had you lusting
your soul had me trusting
every word you ever spoke
killed me & left me broke
you're a king, that's a joke
gained my heart but you choked
you're a different man, that's indeed
in your lies I believed
after all I told you
& you still chose to leave

My existence wasn't demanded
yet I was left stranded

nothing to do between you two
but I suffered because of you

grew up without your guidance
I'm hurt but remained silent

you forced the divorce
but made me feel like the source

for years I've taken the blame
feeling ashamed to have your name

not sorry I'll no longer be
the reason you'll always hate me

Feelings were invested,
honesty highly requested

Loyalty was given,
mistakes were unforgiven

Affection was a bonus,
good deeds went unnoticed

Communication was nonexistent,
we became distantly inconsistent

Trust was never established,
a breakup beyond tragic

We don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel like I’m living a lie
my lifestyle, you don’t agree
but we both sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the same path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
but for the final say so,
we’re all adjacent

without you, life wouldn't be the same

without you, I wouldn't have changed

without you, there wouldn't be a me

without you, I would've gone crazy

the light in dark days, the music in silence

a blessing to most but for me, you're my guidance

I've caused hell & heartache, pain including stress

gave me the best love thru all of my mess

I can't thank you without thanking God he creating you

cause without you, there is no me

Happy Mother's Day