I Am the rhythm behind your every heartbeat
the concept to the soundtrack that rocks your heart to sleep
I Am the rhythm in blues for your every stormy night
the stars you admire dancing in the midnight light
I Am that King you see whenever you begin to dream
the passion that makes your body shiver & soul scream
I Am your every thought & the tears flowing down your face
the smile that’s brightening the world, the heart you can’t replace
I Am the arms holding you whenever you’re sleepless
the love that has you in the clouds & speechless
I Am that King admiring a Queen’s world from the outside looking in
thinking of all the strategies I can steal her heart for the win
I Am the one you’re missing even when you don’t realize it
desiring your mind, body, & soul but hoping not to wrongly utilize it
I Am that love you can’t seem to get away from
looking for an escape but my heart is where you run
I Am your wildest dream, your dream come true, your everything altogether
I Am the best love you’ve never had but also the love that never fails to make you better

☆Poetic Venxm ☆

If you got it all back, what would you do?
If you have the best love you’ve ever wanted, how could you lose?
If my love was your treasure, would you keep it locked away?
If you knew all of my secrets, would it scare your love away?
You loved me but you never were a fool for me
just another broken heart loving me childishly
Sometimes  I don’t believe you miss me, probably just miss using me
I fell deep in love with someone whose love was abusing me
We never made love to each other’s mind, too busy making love instead
Never understood my intellect but more focused on getting in bed
I don’t know if we’re really meant to be but you can’t stay away from me
it’s like you know you have undeniable access to my heart without the key
I know you want those good times & memories back, can’t lie I do too
but it’s the worry of whether or not if I can still trust you
I can’t make you choose between him or me but you know who never hurt you
Who never broke your heart & who’d never desert you
My heart began turning red so I wonder if you’ll speed to get here before I let go
Probably won’t be long until I forever walk out that door
You want it all back & I do too but at what cost will I pay
when you decide to take it for granted before I say goodbye

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

I let you control my life for 6 months & for what?
Just because you were the only source of healing that I could trust?
The pain that life has caused me makes it hard for me to balance
& nobody knew about this, I kept everything private
They don’t know how you called my name at 2am, I came running
just for you to stop that pain that never stopped running
I crushed you up into powder before I poured you into my drink
******* me up so bad to where I couldn’t even think
You chose a weak soul to manipulate, I fell for your comfort
all because I couldn’t bare with the feeling within that made me suffer
You made me crazy, you made me lazy
had me feeling low like your feeling was all I ever needed
You were supposed to be a one night stand but I got attached to you
felt like nothing else mattered & all I needed was you
You can do no wrong to me, only supply the perfect cure for me
when I needed that love, it was you that was there for me
Anxiety, depression, anger, paranoia, you made me feel forget it all
had me flying above the clouds when life wouldn’t let me do anything but crawl
Why did you do this to me? Why is your loving too resist?
Why am I so attached to something that make me feel under like this?
You’re that demon I can’t shake away but you’re the source that takes my pain away
& ever since I accepted your love, I’ve watched everyone walk away
You said you loved me yet you’re taking my life away
killing my system as I keep swallowing your substance away
I had 2 ways of getting rid of you, either overdosing or flushing what remains
just to go back to facing my demons by punching walls til my fist gets blood stains
So here’s to you, my bad habit of pain killing pill popping drug addiction
may you rest in peace forever, here’s my benediction

I fell outta love with you but what was I supposed to do
trying to make it all work but I hit a dead end trying to love you
What’s a man to do when the love he wants walks away
& no matter how many attempts, it doesn’t wanna stay
You told me you loved me but I was a fool to believe it
gave me your heart just to force me to leave it
Hooked me up with someone else when you wanted me
just to prove you’re like the rest, you disappointed me
You told you didn’t wanna be loved but still wanted to get acquainted
that’s a difficult picture to look at & your heart couldn’t resist to paint it
Making me hate myself for being the man that I am
when in reality, you really didn’t give a ****
Putting me through all these emotions I hate most
sending my heart to find yours but yours became a ghost
How could I fall in & outta love with someone at the same time
trying to set me up for the worst just to fall off line
We were meant to be apart, away from each other & it’s sad
how I did so much to love someone that my heart never had

I resulted in doing things to cope with the pain
washing away the sorrow
watching my soul break down in the rain
living every day with a heart that’s hollow

I mixed all that anxiety powder with liquor to keep my leveled
listening to the voices within my head
stepping further away from God & closer to the devil
not caring if I live to see tomorrow or if I end up dead

Life took too many turns for the worst & I wasn’t ready
losing myself thru the feeling
looking death in the face & telling it I’m ready
pills & alcohol was my only source for the right healing
I’m only free from pain when I’m intoxicated
can’t cope with what’s killing me, life & emotions never fully cooperated
Never wanted to admit I was an addict until life was almost cut short
but I guess when you back is against the wall, death seems like the only resort

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

Within your love, I lost myself
Loving you more than I loved myself
You had your doubts but so did I
fearing our love would never be able to fly
I wasn’t fully recovered from a past love
you were still broken from a current love
Somehow our paths crossed & we fell in love
but who knew that we’d fall outta love

I lost myself trying to make it work but it caused more hurt
all the arguments, the fighting, & break ups
I was more focused on showing you what I saw & forgot about me
but you never failed to make me feel like you were better without me
But what hurts the most is not being myself anymore
can’t think straight or sleep anymore
Up at 2am, stuck in my thoughts, but I can’t shed a tear
so I play it off like I don’t even care
But my biggest issue was loving you too much & me not enough

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆