I spent my whole life putting other people before me
Doing whatever it took to prove my love for the same ones to ignore me
Battled with depression more than often, losing myself thru their back stabbing
Carrying this smile on my face but not one ever really noticed I was faking
I doubted myself & questioned if I was the one who was worthless
Trying to change myself just for these people to see me as “perfect”
My biggest regret was trying to change who I was for their acceptance
They didn’t want my real love or my heart, it was always neglected
But then I made a change & placed myself before everyone else, I saw a change
People walking outta my life due to my selfishness but I’m on a new page
Got tired of reading old chapters, getting used to the way things badly ended
Making enemies outta the same ones whose vibe I befriended
I was being dragged thru hell for too long but now I’m losing people as I find my true identity
No longer letting those who don’t love me destroy & break me down mentally
I had more than 20 friends I cared for, now I can barely name 5 who stuck around
I guess when you focus more on you then them, you start to see who’s really down
I lost myself trying to please everyone & doing the most to be that perfect being
I’m more happy than I’ve ever been, Lord knows it’s the most beautiful feeling
Gaining little pieces of my life back, gathering pieces of my heart back
And I have yet to lose a friend that I would want back

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

The mind of a poet is an interesting place
where emotions & words run wild
Some words tell a story, some emotions sing a melody
the inspiration shares the glory & often used as the source of therapeutic remedy

If you travel thru a poetic mind long enough, you’ll begin to see
a new universe that the normal eye won’t see

You can easily get attached but it’s hard to walk away
from a world full of imagination & creativity

Words aren’t just words anymore, it’s a written emotion
from a heart experience various feelings but remains unspoken

The mind of a poet, that’s a world like no other
either a beautiful disaster or the soundtrack of many untold stories

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I woke this morning feeling good & ready to start my day
Washed up, got dressed, then got on my knees to pray
Asked God to look after everyone I love, to keep em safe
And to make today a great beautiful day
As I proceed with my daily activities, I start getting this bad feeling
Like something was about to occur, either a tragedy or another senseless killing
But as soon as I’m enjoying myself as always, something tells me to check my phone
I open Instagram only to see the saddest news, another King knocked from the throne
Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy has been pronounced dead, gunned down in his car
As soon as I’m healed from depression, here comes another unexpected scar
A guidance to many, hated by many, but his message recognized by a large few
And the same ones who hated were now the ones showing love, what’s new?
Trapped in this cold world, you were the light that overshadowed the darkness
This world needed a new direction of guidance & you were the one to spark it
Lost your life in a senseless way but your music & message will live eternally
Only thing is that your bright side will now shine over the madness
Still an empty place in the hearts of the family that your music was the answer to their sadness
Long live a King on a mission to save himself as well as those who’ve followed his lead
Rest in Paradise & thank you for giving those such as myself the faith to believe

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

They say time heals all wounds, I beg to differ
Especially when you once had a love for someone with a lifetime of memories to remember
And how do you let someone else come around & love you better than the last one
When your heart still hasn't repaired from the last love, still very much in love with your last love
Traumatized from what transpired, not allowing anyone else to love you even if it is true
You just want the one person you gave your all to be the one that truly loves you
Sometimes willing to settle for loneliness, loving someone else will only break their heart
For trying to love you but loving you is going to tear you both apart
Heart is still the same condition from the past but you’re too afraid to love again
Fearing that a new love will never replace the love of a former love interest & best friend

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

That whole night was amazing, spending time with a female friend before sexing her crazy
Pulled up for a night out, went to the movies, & grab food I was feeling her maybe
Stopped at this lake to end the night out as we cuddled in my backseat
Watching the stars dance across the sky while listening to some 90’s R&B
Right before I realized it, our lips would touch
I pulled her on top of me then I felt this sudden rush
I haven’t been in action for a long time & my hormones are raging
I’m taking her clothes off as my heartbreak keeps racing
My heart’s telling me to stop while I’m ahead but my head & body say keep going
And how could I resist the lust from the emotions to which she’s showing
So there I am on top of her kissing her from the lips all the down to her thighs
Putting my tongue to good use while the excitement lights up her eyes
I climb back on top of her, slowly work my way in as she gasps her air
Telling me I’m the biggest she’s had & the previous love interest doesn’t compare
The windows begin to fog up, we begin to sweat, & I’m just cruising my way inside her body
Doing all the moves I’ve seen in explicit movies as I get a little cocky
An hour & a half of ****** acts go by then we conclude the experience
We get dressed but judging by the look in her eye, I can tell she was delirious
I dropped her off, kissed her lips, then she tells me she loves me & was rather serious
Fast forward almost a year later after conversations died down
I’m still texting her to make sure she’s ok due to personal issues at home
She’s getting ready to move away from the nest to be out all on her own
Then something tells me to check her Facebook page & there I see
A beautiful baby girl but I’m questioning if it really looks like me
Biracial with beautiful eyes & a beautiful smile, I can’t believe it
Is this bundle of joy mine? When did she even conceive it?
I’m blowing up her phone with a million questions but she’s not telling me no
Beating around the bush with speculations about that night we shared
Got me pacing me back & forth out of excitement but a little scared
Loving her wasn’t a mistake but the fear of the kid growing up like me
In 2 different households by 2 parents who barely know each other, this isn’t like me
I’m not sure if she’s been with someone else after me but she strongly denies it
Told her if it’s proven to be my daughter then I’ll definitely provide care for it
So I asked one last time if the baby’s mine then she says it’s her little cousin
Birthed by her guardian aunt then my heart stops rushing
Telling me if I was the father then she would’ve told me if she was pregnant
Saying she loves me too much to throw that on me unexpected
And that she loves me too much not to allow me to be the father I’m meant to be
I deserve the most beautiful family I can create that’s a reflection of me
Hopefully when that times does come, I’ll be a married man & financially stable
Not afraid to raise em better than me or to raise them in a world that can be cold & fatal

✰ Poetic Venom ✰

I had this dream where I met this woman whose smile told me a tale
of someone who’s out of my league & if I tried to pursue her soul then I was most likely to fail
It’s something about her that made me want to explore her inner essence
to understand the uprising of a Queen from the beginning of her adolescent

Now in my dream, she loves my poetry, in fact I’ve inspired her to smile sometimes
but still I’m desiring one dance to possibly commit the perfect crime.
What’s that crime, you ask? Well, she has a heart like no other that I’d like to discover
& even if I fail, I can move on with my day knowing that I did my best to love her

This Woman; she possesses this presence so strong. a demeanor of independence
a heart of pure gold, & a soul of many treasures whose quality of love is endless.
Who am I? I’m just a guy who never requires a reply from the confessions of my heart
that doesn’t mind expressing itself yet still confused on where to start.
I’m that smile on your face, trying to become the rhythm & blues within your soul
to share the sweet symphony of romance & I pray your collaborations won’t behold

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