The buzzing of the flies
The trees moving with the endless wind
Tend to stick by my side
With a precious memory on my mind
This is summer to me most of the time.

Love is tragic until someone comes and changes it; until then you're stuck in a tragic place.

I wish I could text you about all the **** that's happening to me.
You're still my home
I know if i felt that then i shouldnt have left you but I did cause you are toxic and I am toxic to you
We were both in a relationship that was highly toxic for both.
So I took my turn to leave.
And now my heart yearns for you
My heart hates it but it's ok because it's better to love you when you're far away from me.

With an unsettling pain I write this
Thinking of you knowing I wont be able to see you again
Please let me glance at you one last time
Lets have one last dance
Let's have one last chat
Let's have one last day together
Let me have one last happy moment with you
Let me return to the moment where I could say I love you one last time.

I fell in love with a girl and then she told me she likes this boy.
And my heart shattered into tiny pieces but i just smiled and thought to myself i did this already with my ex i can do this with you.
it shouldnt have hurt as much but my heart knew the truth that i loved her more than him.
so when my hurt shattered with her i didnt pick up pieces because i didnt want to love again if they were all going to leave like her.

Everyday the ocean gives back
Something different,  something new
People think it is out of gratitude
But I know its not
Because every time we talk she gives me a silent plea for help.
Yall are drowning me the ocean says, so evryday I go and take what she gave back.

I'm just tired
I'm giving up
I want to go to bed
I wanna sleep forever
I'm just tired
I don't care anymore
But I'm not tired enough
I still act like I'm fine
And if people knew I would win an oscar
For acting so **** good
I mean it's ok
I celebrate in my head thinking everything will be fine but I just keep lying to my face
And I look in ther mirror and see this misery in my eyes.
Only you knew about my dreadful tears that I would shed and my awful thoughts that would come pouring in at night.
Im tired but not enough
I wanna sleep but I won't let myself
I wanna eat but I'll starve myself
You see that's me
I'll try to fix myself but find a way to break me.
As I said im a great actress.
Im so great that I forget that I am hurting myself every **** day just because I wanna win the oscar.
I will continuously try my very hardest to win the oscar.  I will always try my hardest to keep my mask as clean and prefer as possibly.
Im just tired but I'm not tired enough.