I'm worried about my mind
I'm worried about my feelings
I'm worried about my weight
I'm worried about my face
I'm worried about not being good enough
Im not as hot as your friends
I'm not as pretty as the other girls
I'm self conciois
I'm worried that I annoy you
I'm worried im not good enough
I'm worried im not perfect
I'm worried you won't want me in the long run
I'm worried I'll lose you

You have a beautiful mind
You're able to use it all the time
You're good at keeping me on my toes
You're good at making me wonder
You're good at making me ponder
You're good at making me curious
You're a puzzle and you're mysterious

You make it hard to read you
You make it easy to want  you
You make it hard to guess what's on your mind

But that's what's beautiful about your mind
You're a puzzle and you keep me interested all of the time

I no longer feel alone
I finally feel at home
My amount of friends may be few
But at least I know their friendship is true
I no longer cry myself to sleep
I no longer have sad thoughts that are deep
I have family that I love
Thank god up above
I no longer hate my life
I no longer sense pain's knife

I'm thinking about you
I'm thinking about your smile
I'm thinking about your eyes
I'm thinking about your kisses
I'm thinking about your hugs
I'm thinking about your cuddles
I'm thinking about us laying on the rug
I'm thinking about your cockiness
I'm thinking about your hands
I'm thinking about you

Big green beautiful eyes
Looking into my big and blue
Looking past my eyes and peeking into my soul
Your green eyes speak to me
Especially when you're looking into me
They get brighter when you smile
They get dimmer when your on auto pilot
I'm obsessed with your eyes
They sparkle like emeralds
While mine are like diamonds
Your gaze gives me butterflies
I wonder if you even realize
I can fall in love with you
Just by looking into your green eyes
Because in your eyes
I can see the soul of yours inside
And that is where your true beauty lies
I can see your inner beauty
Just by looking into your green eyes

I put my head phones in
I turn the music on
I let the same tunes play everyday
I let them calm my mind
I let them calm my heart
I let them seprate me from the world

I  turn the volume up
I turn the world down
I let the music play loudly
I let the music speak soundly

Music lets me slip away
Music lets me live a brighter day
Music lets me Find peace

Music moves through every part of me
I let music run in my mind
I let music run in my heart
I let music touch my deepest thoughts
I let music reach my inner core
I let music reach the deepest darkest parts of my soul

Music brings me happiness and light
Music is my souls true delight

My heart is racing
My eyes are aching
My hands are shaking
My mind is breaking
My tears are stinging
My throat is choking
My heart is pounding
My hands are running wild
My eyes are aching mild
My mind is shattered
My tears are splattered
My throat is dry
I don't know why
I'm drowning in my jealousy
I'm drowing in my love for you
Maybe this karma attacking me too
I need you so bad
It's driving me mad
Baby don't leave me
Please choose me
Because I choose you

You came to my house last night to make me smile
You made me smile today
Your green-blue eyes looking into mine
Make my heart shine
Your smile is adorable
Your cheeks get red easily
You kiss me until it hurts
But it's a hurt that feels amazing
I'm falling for you and im falling hard
My heart is no longer in a million little shards

So you tell me you can't delete me
Yet you're already flirting
You told me you can't delete me
Yet your snapchat is off of my friends
I sit here and wonder
I let my mind ponder
Three days and you're already tagging girls
Three days and a girl is tagging you
Three days and your heart has already pulled through
You're the one deleting me
I guess its my turn to delete you

Don't assume you can pick a rose without being bit by the thorns
You picked me because of my beauty
You picked me because of my aoura
You picked me because of my kindness
You picked me because of who I am
But you assumed
You assumed id be okay with whatever you did
You assumed I wouldn't mind what you said
You assumed I didnt get jealous
You assumed I trusted you 100 percent
You assumed I wouldn't speak up
You assumed I wouldn't take a stand
Well I gave you plenty of warnings
I told you to stop talking about her
I told you not to compare me to her
I told you that I don't like  the topic of her
I tried opening up but you got offended
Now you scream at me because our relationship has ended
I saw her pictures on your phone
The kissy faces
The low shirt
The blonde hair on her head being held up by her arm
The bright red lipstick
The big eyes
I saw it all
I saw enough
Then you over reacted
Then you dropped my hand
Then you got mad at me
Then you left me with your friend
Then you made me cry
And now you dare ask why?
Well don't assume that im a fragil little flower
Because I'm a woman who has power
Dont assume you can pick a rose without being bit by the thorns

We were best friends
We loved the same bands
We loved the same foods
We loved the same shows
We disliked the same people
We both have scars on our wrist
We held eachother while we cried
But thanks to lies our friendship died
Even after we went to warped tour
Even after our hearts broke
Even after the monster and the taco pizza
Even after the long night discussions
Even after camping in your yard
Even after the batman marathon
We haven't been friends for months
But I miss you
I wish I didn't lose you
I love you even still
When I see you I cry and you just walk by
I don't know what happened
Please tell me why
Tell me why you hate me
Tell me why you replaced me
Tell me what I did wrong
Tell me how did we fall when our friendship was so strong
I miss you
I sound like blink 182
I miss you
I miss you
We loved the nightmare before Christmas
We were Jack and Zero
I miss you
Dx

I have something on my mind
But I'm leaving it behind
I need you to talk your problems out
So I'm leaving my thoughts behind
It doesn't bother me please I don't mind
You never get your thoughts out
Please let your thoughts sore
I'm proud of you for opening up
Please never shut up
I love you im happy that you're talking to me
I'm glad you're finally opening up to me
I love the sound of your voice
You're reading lyrics and my heart is melting
God *** you're so amazing
Kiss me everyday
Never ever send me away
Keep me inside your loves embrace
And save me with your never ending grace

Forever i will hold you
Forever i will love you
Forever i will kiss you
Forever I will need you
Forever I am yours
Forever you are mine
Forever and ever until after time
Forever locked inside our eternal bliss
Forever knowing true loves kiss

When I was young I was a christian,I was happy and cute
When I went to elementary I got bullied a lot in k1-2 grade I didnt care
Then I switched schools the bullies got worse
Then i switched schools again
And again
And again
Then I ended up in a middle school
The bullying stopped
Then I met a boy..
This boy changed me
He beat me, he taunted me, he said he loved me and he even ***** me...
I found self harm
I found booz
Then I met a man..
We didn't know it but we loved each other and still do
He's courageous
He's strong
He's moving he's kind
But we didn't date in all the years we've known each other
Then I switched schools again
****** harassment,being hit,being bullied , called ugly, getting played
I found a group of nerds that I get along with but it doesn't help
Then I found ***
Then i found miscarriage
Then I started dating the man I have loved and still do love
I finally found happiness
I also found a lesson
Nothing worth fighting for is easy
Nothing easy is worth fighting for
My relationship with the man is rocky
Its hard but it's worth fighting for
I've come far in life with my pain and sorrow
But with love I know that I will see tomorrow

I want the blood to flow like my tears
But I can't do it
I want to let all the pain out
But I promised I won't do it
I want to watch the blood seep out of me
But it would hurt him more
I want all the pain to come out from my core
But he would blame himself
I want to hit a vein and watch the red paint my skin
But breaking a promise to him is a sin
I want to watch the blood hit the floor
But if I do it him and I would be no more
I want to cut
But I won't

I won't because I love him
Even though he didn't tell me he loves me back tonight
I won't because I promised I wouldn't
Even though he forgot his promise last night
I won't because I don't want him out of my life
Even if at the moment he doesnt want to be in mine

No matter what happens
I can't cut tonight

The warm tears running down my face
Yet another day of my life gone to waste
What's the point in trying when I will always fail
I just want to be happy but my hearts so frail
I take everything personally I always will
Maybe its not peoples words but my emotions that ****
Maybe not seeing him drives me insane
No its my fears every fear leads to a stream of tears

Fear of him forgetting me someday
Fear he might drink his life away
Fear that I'll die alone
Always fearing the unknown

I love you please pick me up
Please don't let me drown
Please dont let me fall to the ground
Please understand how much I appreciate you
Please understand that I don't underestimate you
Please know that you are my rock,sword and shield
I'm begging you please never yield

Baby I love you
You make my life completed
Please know that you're not worthless but you're needed

I love him
I made him angry
I'm saying all the wrong things
I'm praying its a dream

I'm sorry I'm a **** up
I'm sorry i can't see you
I'm sorry if all my emotions annoy you

Baby i need you
I want you
I love you all of this is true

Right now i feel as if I'm losing you
You the person I love I'm scared you're gonna be gone
Im scared you're gonna leave me
Honey listen please

I know I'm not perfect
I know my flaws
I know I have problems
Im sitting here clenching my jaws

I feel the tension between us
I know you feel it too
******* it I'm a **** up
All I want is you

Honestly this poem isn't flowing smoothly at all
But I'm falling and falling fast along with falling hard

I need you Nelson Antone Hall
Without you my life means nothing at all

When I'm sobbing you're there
When I'm laughing you're the reason I am
When I'm smiling it's caused by you
When I'm having a day where I falling down you pick me up off the ground
When I feel like giving up you keep me going

Today was aweful for me but you made me realize something
You told me I was strong
You told me they won't matter when I grew up
You told me I'm going to make it
You told me you love me no matter what

Then it hit me...
You're right!
I am strong ive been through a lot and I'm still standing
They don't matter and they never will its highschool who cares
I am going to make it I'm smart and hardworking
I know you love me thats what keeps me going

I have something nobody else has
I have you

You lied to me i saw right through it
You lied to me I was even able to prove it
You think I'm stupid? That im ignorant and dont pick up the clues?
Well now take a look at who's the fool
I'm observant and I'm smart
Don't try to fool me *** don't even start

Oh you girls think you're smarter than me huh?
Go ahead call me stupid
Tell me I don't know what I'm doing
Tear me down in front of everyone
Make me cry and want to run
Well guess what
The teacher heard what you were saying
He held up my paper said "Kellie great job"
When he held up yours he yelled at you
He got mad because he couldn't even read it
And you're the star straight A student
So tell me im stupid rip me up and break me down
I don't care if you make me frown

I'm not stupid I'm intelligent in my own way
I know its true regardless what y'all say

Dear Lover,
I'm right here always and forever
There isn't anything we can't do as long as we're together
Open up your mind to me let me in
Allow me to make you whole again
If you're having problems let me help you solve them
I dont want you to go through the pain alone

Let me make you smile
Oh please let me in for the longest while
Im not going anywhere, not without you
I want to hold your hand and get you through
You won't stand in the rain or the storms alone
I'll let the water run down my face along with  yours&yours; alone

I'm not leaving your side we are in this together
And I know this to get her will last forever
I'm not letting you go I won't let you drown
Baby it breaks my heart to see you frown
Let me be your rock, your sword, and your shield
I'm your warrior and I refuse to yield

I know you're scared but let me in
Allow me to make you whole again......

Dear "stepdad",
You told me I'm nobody special
Well you're right
That's right I'm not denying it
I'm going to embrace this
You shocked?
I don't care and neither should you
Because I'm nobody special
so why would you care?
You've told me I'm worthless
That I am a piece of sh#t
Well I don't care as of today
I'm turning my back and walking away
You can try to bully me but you can't break me down
Its about time this frown turned upside down
You're nothing to me just the boyfriend of my mother
Also the father to my future brother
But to me you're just a bully and I don't care anymore
Hell I let your words get me to run out the door
But I'm back and I'm here to stay
Nothing you can say will take me away
I'm strong
I'm powerful
And I'm me
I may be nobody special
But at least I'm myself
And I'm okay with this
So now I will gladly say
Go **** yourself

Im falling in love
I'm falling in hate
I'm falling in joy
I'm falling in pain
I'm falling toward the ground
But I don't know if I'm falling up
Or if I'm falling down
Some days I feel as if I'm flying up
Where the smile on my face is real and not made up
But other days I know I'm falling down
The only real question is when will I hit the ground?
With every painful word I hear I fall further
Every time I get hurt I fall further
With every "I love you" I fly up a little more
I'm guessing the "I love you" s are the reason I haven't hit the floor
However tonight is a night where I am falling down
But I will be able to sleep easy knowing tonight
Is not the night that I will hit
The ground

You don't care about what you say to me
You don't care about how you make me feel
You don't care that I cry because your words cut deeper than any knife
You don't care if you offend
You womt care until my end
You tell me you love me
You don't care what you say to me
You don't notice how I feel
You don't see me crying right by your side
You assume I'm a ****
You assume I'm not careful
You assume that I'll act nasty in front of people
You're my mother how could you say this?
I know that you love me you have raised me and cared for me
But you really don't care about what you say to me
I sacrifice a lot for you
You don't realise it but it's true
I asked to go bowling
You said I'll get arrested
What the hell mom? Assuming I'll make out in public?
That **** is offensive and you know it too
You just don't care about how I feel even though I care a lot about you

Everyday is the same
Same  people
Same fake laughs
Same fake smiles
Same conversations
Every single day
The stories never change
The thoughts never go away
I hate it here!
This place makes me want to die
I'm so frustrated and irritated that I'm going to break down and cry
Same arguments
Same clothes
Same faces
Same words
All the repetitiveness is getting to me
Is today yesterday?
Is today today?
Is today tomorrow?
I don't know and if I did it doesn't matter
Because today is the same as it was yesterday
Today is the same as it will be tomorrow
I need something new
I need to be happy
I need a new conversation
I need exciting.....

If home is where your heart is then i'm out of place
My home is with the ones who love me
My home is with him
My home is causing his smile
My home is in his arms
My home is looking into his deep brown eyes
My home is hearing his laugh
My home is kissing his lips
My home is tickling his sides
My home is being with him when he cries
Our home is smiling together
Our home is holding each other in our arms
Our home is looking into each others eyes
Our home is laughing together
Our home is Kissing each others lips
Our home is tickling our sides
Our home is being together when we cry
This is home because this is where our hearts collide

when i'm mad, I swear and let it all out
when i'm sad,i say i'm going to die and that I've had enough
when i'm happy, I say nothing will bring me down because i'm tough
when i'm in love, I say I love you and that I will give you my all
All these words pour out in a free fall
When i'm mad, I scream and shout
When i'm sad, I cry in silence all alone
When i'm happy, I laugh to tears as if I haven't laughed in years
When i'm in love,which I am, I smile while my heart flies
The funny thing about all of this is that I can feel all of this in a day
As a matter of fact I feel this way at the same time almost all the time
At school I feel sad and alone
At home I feel joy, sorrow, and anger
When i'm with friends, I smile and laugh
When i'm with him, my heart sours, as if it were a bird..
These are my emotions
this is me

I make mistakes yes I know
However I'm still young and not fully grown
I'm sorry I messed up
I'm sorry I fail
When you scream at me it makes me feel frail
I didn't mean to mess up
I'm sorry stop screaming!!!!
Stop threatening me because I'm not perfect
I'm human please just get over it
Alright cuss at my mom because that makes you look like such a man
You think you're so perfect? Well try it **** face step up to the plate
Take a stand without acting like a little *****
You think you can call me a worthless ******* and that I'll get over it?
You think it's okay to yell at my mom in front of me
You think I'm supposed to not make mistakes
***** PLEASE!
I'm a ******* human being
Get over it you wuss
After all you're nothing but a swearing angry ****!

How can you love me when I can mean?
How can you love me when I can cruel?
How can you love me whenI can be heartless?
How can you love me when I can be offensive?
How can you love me when I don't go outside a lot and you do?
How can you love me when I'm anti social?
How can you love me when I'm not good at talking to people?
So how is it you can love me?
How can you love somebody like me?
How is it possible you don't ask me to change?
How is it you don't ask me to be better?
It's unusual
How is it myself is good enough for you?
How is it you can see a good in me that I can't see myself?
You see a me that I've never met before
How is this so?
You look in my eyes and tell me I'm beautiful
How did this come to be?
How is it I feel that you deserve so much better and you believe there is none better than me?
How is it you came to save me?
I'm so thankful for you
I'm in love with you
For every flaw and every perfection
Thank you for loving me even when I couldn't love myself

With every heavy wave I crash
Every wave contains pain
The high tides of my life drown me and drag me down to the fathoms below
A father who betrayed my mother and left
An ex who took things too far
Being beaten by people I had faith in
Being backstabbed by people I trusted
I'm fifteen and this is my life so far
Pain,loss,depression and sin
But somehow my beauty lies within
The waves get bigger but I still tread water
I'm still able to keep my head above
The taste of the salt water in my mouth makes me thirsty for something clean
I don't want this pain and sorrow anymore
I want to be set free
I want to be able to stand on the dry sand and look at the beauty of the sea
For beauty grows from pain
And pain my beauty may be
The suffering waves from my past
Have created this beautiful me
I am like the pearl that stays in the darkness
Until she is beautiful enough to Be set free and see the light
And thanks to the the darkness the future seems bright
I'm no longer drowning
I'm no longer holding my breath
I no longer need to tread the water
And I no longer wish for my death

Costumes,money,power, fake identitys, and fame
These are the traits of the heros we know better by name
Batman,Thor, Iron man and more
Are here to save the day
But that's where it's wrong
For they are written and drawn
What about the heros who's names actually do belong?
The heros who leave their homes and family's
To fight for us so we can be free?
They don't know our names
Nor do they feel they need to
They go through suffering just to save you
They die and don't come back because they are not fiction they are real
The pain they feel from a bullet is truly real
They go through sleepless nights and endless days
Because that's the price our freedom pays
They volunteer and sign up for this
No mater the pain they don't give in
Not knowing their names should be a sin
Their spouses and children are home alone
Not knowing if their loved ones will return dead or alive
But the soldiers do this so we can survive
They are the real heros both men and women.
Our soldiers who have faught and died for us
Are the real heros who deserve us
They deserve our recognition and our love
So thank you soldiers for everything you have done for us.

The heavy girls are too heavy
The skinny girls are too thin
The **** is perfect
The nerd is a try hard
The fangirl is a freak
The fanboy is gay
The goth girl is a *****
The goth boy is insane
The person who asked for help today just needed a person to talk with
But in today's society we only follow hate and gossip
That skinny girl can't gain wait
That fat girl doesn't know what to do
That **** maybe varsity but he's got problems too
The nerd is poor and wants to go to college and the only way to do that is through a scholarship
The fangirl lives in a fictional world because of the judgmental people in her own
The fanboy does the same and it doesn't matter wheather or not he is straight or gay
The goth girl isn't a ***** she just listens to her music and wears black
The goth boy isn't insane he just wants his happy life back
The person who asked for help today really did need it
But now it's too late for her and now her death has been completed
All of these people could be good or bad but you will never know that
Because in today's society we only follow hate a gossip
So the next time you see a strangers face
Go on say hi and see what they say
Some might stick their noses up and walk away
But for others a stranger being friendly just might make their day.

Nelson

In school I'm a shadow on the wall
Noticed by few and almost hated by all
As I walk through the halls there is almost never a second glance
And the people who glance never give my heart or personality a chance
Yes I have scars where my wrist have bled
But those are emotional marks for the lovers who fled
But all of this pain has disappeared
For a person's heart has appeared
He's been there for me for years
Helping me wipe away all my tears
He's helped me chase away my fears
I've given him my heart and I pray for the better
With him I feel like we'll last forever
I know he won't hit me or break me like the rest
Because the man who has my heart is by far the best