Hey dad I can’t sleep
At three am I feel weak
Hey dad I can’t sleep
I started getting nightmares again
My head feels light and I can’t think
Hey dad I can’t sleep
Everyone thinks I’m happy
Everyone including you
The monsters roam my head again
Hey dad I can’t sleep

Caramel milkshake everyday I would sit here with her
Her eyes showed happiness
Her laughed breathed it
She with everything she was defined it
Not once when she got sick did she stop smiling in fact she shone brighter
Just a little bit brighter Then she started fading like a candle in the night
She was swallowed by darkness yet she smiled the doctor said she’s fading
She just laughed and said she’s not going yet
Even though I knew what she said was a lie
I believed it because she sat the old and pale with eyes that once showed happiness
And everything she was defined it
I finish my drink Grabbing my cane I realise
A Carmel milkshake
Brought her back every Sunday

she always had a smile never showing how much it hurt
hiding her pain away from the world
building walls so high she couldnt see over them
a broken girl with a heart of a child
all she ever wanted was to be fixed
but she always says sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me
so why does she cry herself to sleep because of the lines etched on her skin and the demons repeating ever word that made her feel worthless

I once loved my best friend
More than a best friend should
Her smile made me happy
And i was sad on my own
I started falling for this girl id known
But i realised that this love was unrequited
And it should never of happened
So i pushed it away pretending that i loved another
And she already had someone she loved
So i ignored the pain in my heart and the voice that  said
Its ok to fall in love
Its been a few years and i still see her like that
But i've found someone who makes me happy
Someone whom i adore
Beside i pushed her away
I gave up this love
And allowed my cousin to make her smile
In things i could not

She was perfect in every way
Yet she still managed to find flaws
I told her how amazing she is
She smile and said im not
But i know how hard she tries
When she got disowned
She still had her smile
Her father doesnt care
He pretends she's not there
Her mother loves her dearly
Its her stepfather whos made her hurt
I could write forever
Typing everything she's gone though
But its not my place to say
I might not be in her life when im older
I might be far away
We might not be  best friends
But i want her to know
I notice i care i owe her my life
Id be dead if she wasnt here
So that girl who puts her effort into everything
Rely on me
Because i know your hurt
And you say its ok but
I've felt like you
I've been hurt in a way that
Made me forget what to say
and taught  me how to pretend its ok
So don't look at me with eyes of pain
And pretend to smile it all away