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242 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
*******
I never needed you anyways
A figment of my imagination
You didn't come to stay
You left when you wanted to
Leaving things behind
You left me standing there
Wet, damp eyes
The sobs reached your ears but you ignored it
You ignored me
You left me for dead
Wrapping the rope around my skin and kicking the chair
Was the sin I should've made.
236 · Oct 2015
her.
Kee Oct 2015
i'll never be as pretty as her
wear the clothes she wears
be her size? gosh, that's gonna take a while
i want to be with you
but i can't be what you want me to be
i can't act like her or be like her
if so,
what will happen to *me?
233 · Aug 2017
8.8.17
Kee Aug 2017
confined in my mind and looking for a way out
it's not so easy trying to get a hold of whats reality and hallucinations
im just wondering and looking for certain locations
places i don't remember but the scene speaks to my soul
and im afraid of whats going to happen with all these holes in my mind
and wondering who i've hurt
230 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Will my kind ever shine?
Will we get our justice?
We love in a world where it is stated that we are free.
That this is a free country.
It doesn't seem like it.
Trayvon Martin
Mike Brown
Brandon Jones
Does it ever stop?
Will we ever get our rights to freedom?
230 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Remember every excuse you've made and realize that you could have done it.
229 · Jun 2015
Repeat.
Kee Jun 2015
My pocket is my heart
I fill it until it cannot be filled
And then I empty my pocket
Repeat.
228 · May 2015
Me
Kee May 2015
Me
Touch me.
Make me feel loved.
Make me feel beautiful.
Whispers sweet nothings in my ear.
Kiss away my pain.
Love me unconditionally.
Wipe my tears.
Tell jokes that make me cry in laughter.
Just be there.
Hold me.
Caress me.
Tell me you love me.
Over and over.
Love
Me.
226 · May 2017
5.31.17
Kee May 2017
Don't preach at me.
Don't spit those words.
Shut up & keep it to yourself.
I didn't ask for your opinion anyways.
Not everyone needs or wants to hear what you have to say.
Shut up & keep it to yourself.
Not everything you say to do is the right way.
I want to live my life free, not constrained by your rules.
So shut the **** up & keep it to yourself.
225 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
I just wanted it to be simple.
Why can't life be easy?
Why do we contradict ourselves?
Why is it as teens adults think we don't know what we want in life?
I'm tired.
I dont want to go to college..
I don't want to be scared of being killed by the police.
I don't want to argue.
I don't I don't I don't.
I complain so much when I know I could be sleeping outside on winter nights.
But who can blame me for wanting happiness?
Who can blame me for crying away my pain?
For complaining about my pain.
I just want an answer and no ones giving it.
219 · May 2017
5.7.17
Kee May 2017
exempt from your hands,
from your cruel demeanor,
from your lies,
from everything that is you.
looking at you makes me sick,
and the thought that one day i will have to return to you,
to stand over your grave,
and stare at your pale face,
isn't enough to make me happy.
i need to know,
that you won't ever hurt another again,
like you did me.
i have to be certain.
and until then,
i won't rest.
exempt abuse pale happy hurt rest sick grave fright
218 · May 2017
5.15.17
Kee May 2017
I fought for you
like it was the only thing I knew how to do
I loved you
more than anyone else in this world
I held you
when no one else would
I taught you
how to be the man you are today
I cherished you
because I knew that one day
you would leave me
I was there
When no one else was
I was your rock
I was your savior
I was
I
205 · Jan 2018
1.5.18
Kee Jan 2018
They say that I’m better off dead
And that my mother should’ve swallowed
They say that I’m nothing but a *******
And that’s where I’ll remain
They say plenty of things
But none of those things are nice
I’m their bestfriend
But it never feels like it
Especially when they hand the blade to me
And help me slice my wrists
Or when they make it too loud in my head
And I feel like I’m going to explode
Especially when they tell me
To find a rope
They are my bestfriend
And I hate that I can’t get rid of the monsters in my head
They know me so well
Too well
So well that I can’t escape them
Clutching onto me with their claws
Sinking their sharp teeth into my soul
And holding me hostage
Because they can’t take being alone either
And maybe it’s why sometimes I stay
Because I know they’ll never leave
And although they’re terrible
They haven’t left me behind
Like some other bestfriends
200 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Crisp dollar bills fill your mind
Since when did greed consume you?
Why is it power is all that matters?
Why is love a non-factor?
When did you lose yourself?
Why did you let go?
Why did you stop believing?
I thought you were so much more.
198 · Aug 2016
wish.
Kee Aug 2016
rough draft:
i dreamed the same dream as you,
i wished upon stars,
dropped pennies into wishing wells,
blew out the candle and repeated it non-stop,
i didn't get mines, so i looked at you,
but then i saw you with another,
and realized that,
was your wish.

revised version:
i dreamed the same dream as you,
i wished upon stars,
dropped pennies into wishing wells,
prayed to the lord,
"please let him be my knight in shining armor"
blew out the candle,
"please please please, let him be the one"
the one day,
i saw you with a girl
giving her the look i give you,
the dreamy look i gave you,
when you smiled at me,
your arms wrapped around her shoulder,
foreheads together in an embrace,
lips sealed in a kiss,
just like ours.
it was then i realized,
my wish didn't come true,
that my dreams were never meant to be,
and that you wanted something new.
something that didn't involve me,
but the girl you wished for,
the girl of your dreams.
197 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Goodbye.
196 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Okay.
I admit.
I still like you.
I wanted you to be my first kiss.
Love.
Everything.
Wasn't meant to be I'm not gonna trip.
Just know that I felt like I loved you.
Why are you so hard to dismiss?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why isn't **** simple?
Loves not hard its the people you try to love.
The people you want to accept.
I know I'm whiny
Irritating
And very insecure
But why don't you love me?
Even if we're a thousand miles away from each other..
I'd wait
I'd wait for you.
Plain and simple.
194 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Broken pieces align my heart,
Waiting to be filled.
Butterflies fly in my stomach
Hands clammy from your touch
Mind crazy from your voice
Its what I call love
Its what I call admiration
The beauty of it all
But you never understand it all
Until you fall
Until its been ripped out of you
And made you believe,
You were nothing after all
Until it made you stop and think,
"Did I really fall in love?"
Until you scream,
"****, I hate you all!"
Until you understand that you are no longer-
No longer who you are
No longer who you are suppose to be.
But only the outcome of a epic fail at love.
194 · Aug 2016
Toy
Kee Aug 2016
Toy
kicking the walls,
screaming, "SET ME FREE"
i've been stuck in this imaginary box for so long
i'm beginning to think it's real,
at first it was fun, you stayed with me for a while
but then you left.
i wondered where you went, and why you hadn't come back
then i knew, that this was a trap.
you're way of keeping me
and keeping her too.
you said you'd let her go,
you lied just to have me,
and have her too.
so, while i'm stuck in this box
you're loving her
but when you will come back for me?
do i get love too?
or am i just the puppet you love to manipulate
for your use
for when you're bored?
am i just your toy?
190 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Who's to say we're not equal?
What makes you think you're better than me?
We all have a past and nightmares that haunt us
So what makes you better than me?
So what if I don't have the newest Jordan's?
How does that make you better than me?
If I don't understand everything like you do
Does it make you better than me?
No.
I am my own person, I am.
I am a raging fire that is going to succeed.
Not on your terms.
Mine.
I shall not do for you
But for me.
For who I love.
For what I see.
So,
Who's to say you're better than me?
190 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
I'd love to say hi once more.
To see you again
To begin a netter relationship
I didn't know you well
And now that you're gon I regret.
I miss your face now, because I know I won't see it again.
I won't hear your laugh
Or laugh at you sleeping sitting up.
I won't be able to watch you pat my dads back
Or stare off into your own world.
I'll miss you.
Forever and always.
But i know I'll see you again
And I'll smile your way.
Rest in Paradise,
Cause I know
You're finally happy again.
187 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
I want to travel to the deepest part of your soul.
I want to know your darkest secrets and nightmares.
I want to inflict pain on you.
But I cant.
It'll just hurt me too.
179 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
Crush my heart and pretend you didn't do it.
Pretend you didn't hurt me.
Pretend you didn't lead me on.
Pretend that this was a silly game,
Even though-
Even though you made it seem real
Made it seem like you really fell
That you really felt.
That you could be the one I call my sweet.
My love.
My only.
The one to fill me with joy.
Only to make me cry at the thought of your name.
It was all just a lie, right?
It was a lie.
You manipulated.
You made me feel.
Only to be emotionless.
I want closure.
I want a lot of things that I can't get from you.
I just wanted love.
But I looked in the wrong places.
You.
160 · May 2015
Untitled
Kee May 2015
If I said I was a hero,
Would you believe?
Or do you only believe what you see?
Do you not believe in blessings from god?
Or do you only believe in what you see?
We breath oxygen,
But can you see it?
But you believe in it, right?
Exactly.

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