I just wanted it to be simple.
Why can't life be easy?
Why do we contradict ourselves?
Why is it as teens adults think we don't know what we want in life?
I'm tired.
I dont want to go to college..
I don't want to be scared of being killed by the police.
I don't want to argue.
I don't I don't I don't.
I complain so much when I know I could be sleeping outside on winter nights.
But who can blame me for wanting happiness?
Who can blame me for crying away my pain?
For complaining about my pain.
I just want an answer and no ones giving it.

Okay.
I admit.
I still like you.
I wanted you to be my first kiss.
Love.
Everything.
Wasn't meant to be I'm not gonna trip.
Just know that I felt like I loved you.
Why are you so hard to dismiss?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why isn't **** simple?
Loves not hard its the people you try to love.
The people you want to accept.
I know I'm whiny
Irritating
And very insecure
But why don't you love me?
Even if we're a thousand miles away from each other..
I'd wait
I'd wait for you.
Plain and simple.

I'd love to say hi once more.
To see you again
To begin a netter relationship
I didn't know you well
And now that you're gon I regret.
I miss your face now, because I know I won't see it again.
I won't hear your laugh
Or laugh at you sleeping sitting up.
I won't be able to watch you pat my dads back
Or stare off into your own world.
I'll miss you.
Forever and always.
But i know I'll see you again
And I'll smile your way.
Rest in Paradise,
Cause I know
You're finally happy again.

If I said I was a hero,
Would you believe?
Or do you only believe what you see?
Do you not believe in blessings from god?
Or do you only believe in what you see?
We breath oxygen,
But can you see it?
But you believe in it, right?
Exactly.

Crush my heart and pretend you didn't do it.
Pretend you didn't hurt me.
Pretend you didn't lead me on.
Pretend that this was a silly game,
Even though-
Even though you made it seem real
Made it seem like you really fell
That you really felt.
That you could be the one I call my sweet.
My love.
My only.
The one to fill me with joy.
Only to make me cry at the thought of your name.
It was all just a lie, right?
It was a lie.
You manipulated.
You made me feel.
Only to be emotionless.
I want closure.
I want a lot of things that I can't get from you.
I just wanted love.
But I looked in the wrong places.
You.

Broken pieces align my heart,
Waiting to be filled.
Butterflies fly in my stomach
Hands clammy from your touch
Mind crazy from your voice
Its what I call love
Its what I call admiration
The beauty of it all
But you never understand it all
Until you fall
Until its been ripped out of you
And made you believe,
You were nothing after all
Until it made you stop and think,
"Did I really fall in love?"
Until you scream,
"****, I hate you all!"
Until you understand that you are no longer-
No longer who you are
No longer who you are suppose to be.
But only the outcome of a epic fail at love.

Who's to say we're not equal?
What makes you think you're better than me?
We all have a past and nightmares that haunt us
So what makes you better than me?
So what if I don't have the newest Jordan's?
How does that make you better than me?
If I don't understand everything like you do
Does it make you better than me?
No.
I am my own person, I am.
I am a raging fire that is going to succeed.
Not on your terms.
Mine.
I shall not do for you
But for me.
For who I love.
For what I see.
So,
Who's to say you're better than me?