The universe
is cruel
but
we don't
have to be

I was afraid
that I'd find you
and your dark hazelnut eyes
would unwind
me for the first
time
and I'll smile
again uncontrollably
showing my teeth
for the first
time

Once
I was afraid
that I'll fall in love
with you for the first time
that no one can stop
me hoping this
time

I guess
it's always
caring
about
other people
hurting
even if
you're feeling
hurt yourself

are the
best liars
I know
when
we say
"I'm okay"

I always
remember
that there's
tomorrow
when
I'm with you
and I'd
look forward
to tomorrow
cause I
remember
that there's
you

You used to
sit on that
side of the sofa
stand on that
side of the room
drink from that
small white plastic mug
smell of that
fragrant perfume

You used to
write on
my blue notebook
sing everywhere
about any tune
go to the museum
to have look
talk to me
in the afternoon

You used to
sleep on this
side of my shoulder
rest your hands
next to mine
think about
when we'd get older
speak without
minding the time

You used to
do all these things
when you and I were
sadly, all that's left
is a blur

At first
I thought
you were
a constellation
I drew
a map
of your stars
and then
a revelation
You are
as beautiful,
as endless
as the universe
I'm helpless in