Armani

Armani Mar 2022

We ******* did it kiddo.
After all the tears and breakdowns we ******* did it.

Sure we don't have everything we dreamed of.
We're not rich
We're not famous
We're not married
We're not a gallery artist
But we're the best thing that's ever happened to so many people.
And the best we've ever felt about ourself.

But, i'm sorry.
I'm sorry i don't remember how you feel.
I'm sorry can't feel that pain anymore.
I'm sorry that if we met i couldn't empathize with your pain.
I'm sorry that when i look in the mirror i see........him.

We didn't really "beat" that demon, we assimilated him.
We still see those lovely eyes in the mirror.
We still hear Baphy whispering to us.
We still fall away from reality into that dreamworld
We still can't bear the thought of being forgotten.

But we've come so far....
We didn't give up.
We didn't wait for someone to save us.
We gave up on the world and save ourself

We were destined for pain.
And destined to overcome.
We were destined for possession.
And destined to flip it on him.
We were destined to be destroyed.
And destined to be reborn a destroyer.

I haven't wrote a poem in 5 years. I just wanted to tell my past self that the pain isn't permanent.

Armani Mar 2018

Braille

I always do this. Every. *******. Time.
Guess this is what i get for living.
I can read you. I know you know somethings wrong.
Too bad i don't know either.
Add that to the 300 page-list of **** i don't know.

I don't know why
I don't know how you can help
I don't even know if there is help.
I don't know why i always end up like this.
I don't know what's wrong with me,
I don't even know if there is something wrong with me.

But i do know you're not the first.
But maybe you're the last.

i don't know if you'll stay.
maybe you will.

I don't know what i'll do, how i'll change, or even if i can change for you.
maybe i'll find out, if i keep reading you.

Armani Mar 2018

Closer

I feel closer to you when i make you cry, I don't know why.
I think it's because it lets me know you care, that i'm not alone.
I love the smile on your face when i calm you down.
Later on, we act like we didn't fight
that those silent moments and skewed glances weren't meant to ****.
I guess it's cuz we love each other.

>>But are we?

Duh.
I mean, look at me.
I made it out of that place i was in,
all thanks to you,
and your smile
and your body
and your me.

yeah, i'm yours now.
All cuz i wanted to be closer.

#love #imtryingagain

Armani Dec 2017

2

A pandimensional murderer invaded my mind,
and there's nothing I can do about it
to be completely honest I don't think I mind
cuz at least now there's two of us.

Armani Dec 2017

We (Haiku)

You and I, Loners
Euphoria as Stoners
Love, Never Sober

My first attempt at a Haiku, constructive criticism is welcome

#we #love

Armani Dec 2017

Message for the Deaf Ones

I wish I could say I love you
or that I cared
or that I'd even give a **** if you heard my cries for help
but you don't
so *******.
Drop dead

I'm not everything that you wanted so you're scared.
I'm still your son you *******.
you should still care.
Disappointment or not, I'm not a demon
I just have one.
and you do too.
And now you're trying to give me yours
I don't want them.

I wish I could say I'm sorry
for what I said
or that I had any kind of love left for you two
but I don't
so *******
drop dead.

And for everything that it's worth I hope you don't burn in hell
just on earth.

EST 19XX

#parents

Armani Dec 2017

Personal Realities

I never understood science.
How can you have objective theories,
of a subjective reality?

What exists in my world might never be true in yours.
I believe in angels, demons, God, etc.
But they mightn't exist to you.

And that's why reality is individual.
Because we believe in our beliefs
and we make our realities accommodate them.
And I believe that you exist.
If not, I'm about to make reality my *****

Optimistic Nerd Thoughts