Just Ty

Just Ty Apr 2018

Today is going to be a really hard day for me
The world is no longer a place I would like to be
I don’t know how much more of this feeling I can withstand
For the only time I feel at peace is when I am holding you hand
But I cannot hold it all the time, I cannot hold it every day
So what can I do to ease this pain during the times you are away
I swear I’ve tried it all, I’ve done everything I could
If I could stop with these thoughts you best believe me I would
But it’s getting tougher and tougher and louder and louder
Watching the light the fade away as the darkness overpowers
I want to give up for I can no longer see the light
But there is this small flame inside me that wants me to fight
Will it be enough, I guess we’ll see
All I know is I’m not myself and these thoughts are not me

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Just Ty Apr 2018

End of Days

This is the end and my time is near
I am not as put together as much as I may appear
They say don’t judge a book by its cover
Read one page of my book and you will see all that I suffer
Day in and day out I have to be everything everyone wants me to be
Being able to be my true self is something that I won’t ever see
For just like my days of happiness my life is shortly lived
This life will always take but not once have I seen it give
So is it giving up my life or is life taking once again
All I know is that I can’t take one more day in this life I've been condemned

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Just Ty Apr 2018

*******

1.  ******* for making me this way
2.  ******* for leaving when you promised you’d stay
3.  ******* for giving what we had to another
4.  ******* for making me believe you were different from others
5.  ******* for allowing me to believe in love
6.  ******* for saying it doesn’t matter when it does
7.  *******
8.  *******!
9.  *******!!
10.  *******!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Just Ty Apr 2018

Wishful Thinking

I wish I knew what was wrong with me
I wish that I could handle my emotions more responsibly
I wish you could understand what goes on in my head
I wish I could take back all that I said
I wish the world could see how much I try
I wish I knew how to be the good guy
I wish all this pain would just stop and go away
I wish I knew if I would make it another day
I wish that writing all this actually mattered
I wish I didn't relate so much to the mad hatter

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Just Ty Apr 2018

You’re not worth it

In that last moment was the first time I felt at peace.
I actually smiled before the crash knowing I would be underneath
This cold harsh world that never gave me all that I have given to it
But it didn’t end how I wanted to, for it ended deeper in a pit
Not only physically but mentally I am deeper in my head
And the flame that once guided me through the darkness is finally dead
Now I am driving uncontrollably down this scary road
So **** it why not since “you’re not worth saving” is what I am constantly told

Just Ty Apr 2018

My last.....

If I crashed this car right now who would miss me
Everyone says that they love me but then they diss me
I know i am not perfect I know I make mistakes
But I guess the voices in my head are the only ones whom can relate
Friends and family say “I’ll be there no matter what”
It’s only conditional they will always find a but
Because If they wanted to stay then they would see the good
Guess I really am ******* up and not just misunderstood
I do everything I can to lock my demons in
But some days I’m not strong enough so I give up and let them win
So to the next person who tries to comes into my life
Whether it’s family, a friend, or a impossible future wife
Don’t ever promise you’ll stay
because I know it’s just a lie
Because eventually you will leave and I’ll already know why.
Because Eventually I’ll mess it up for i always do wrong
that’s how I know you’ll never stay to dance to this song

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Just Ty Mar 2018

The Leo

We don’t belong in a zoo
We belong in a pride

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