Just Ty

Just Ty Mar 2018

It amazes me how little time has passed
For already I am wishing for this to be something that last
I can still remember the first time that our eyes met
It’s the day you walked into my life so how could I forget
You said “I like your jacket” so I turned around thinking you were speaking to me
Not knowing I would be turning around to greet such beauty
You can tell that god took his time when he created you
And placed you right in front of me so I could do all the things that others couldn’t do.
I can’t wait for the day that I am able to call you mine
For I know that our love would be something some would call Devine
Just say the word and I will be your grand finale
Just say the word and my heart is yours Ali

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Rabbit Hole

Would anyone like to join me and sit in this pain
No I didn't think so I don't even know why I came
I just wanted a place I could be loved and accepted.
Instead of the place where I was ignored and neglected.
Nobody ever cared until I became this way
Now it's "Ty you are heartless" is what they continue say
Nobody ever says **** to the person who created this monster
Just point the blame on the creature who's feelings were conquered.
See I got this beast inside me who tries to fight his way out
He also tends to be too much and cause me
to rage and lash out
I try to explain that its not my fault and that it wasn't intentional
But I get told accept fault and the way that I act isn't conventional.
But why when acting right wasn't something That I was privy to.
Runaway and leave now because I know that you want to
I told you about my pain and the demons inside and what it took just to be standing here alive.
You promised that you would stay and walk with my demon
If that wasn't a lie then why the **** are you leaving?
Nobody ever hates the creator Dr. Frankenstein
Only the monster he created but they won't cross that line
It's easier to believe this was how I was born
Than it is to believe this me after I was reborn.
You think I wanna be who I am?
Do you think my reflection is something I can stand?
Everyday I wanna shoot myself or cut my own throat
Or maybe jump off a building and believe that I can float.
Everyday is a struggle you don't know what I go through
But I'm not one of these dude that would shoot up a school.
For I don't want anybody to hurt I don't want them to feel how I feel
Because they may not be strong enough to know how to deal how I deal
I use pills, alcohol, and woman to keep my mind from spiraling out of control
Without these things I would probably be six feet under in a hole

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Foreign language

Happiness is an unknown language to me
It is depression that spews from my tongue
For depressed isn’t what I am expected to be
So I can’t fail your expectation and cause you to run.
You see I use to be happy and I thought that it was neat.
I fell so deeply in love literally I was floating and no longer on my feet
Hoping that maybe this would be the one who would finally catch me
But as quickly as it started it ended just as drastically
Why must I fall for those whom can never love me back?
You think I would stop because I just don’t have the knack
For being able to see the common traits & similarities
I just really want to know what is really wrong with me

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Vacancy

What was it that caused you to move into this residential
It’s as if you seen this old broken down place and saw so much potential
Where as others feared and laughed at the thought of it being a beautiful space
You walked right in as if you owned the place
Tell me what it is seen that made you want to make such a risky purchase?
Not knowing what’s in this dark place not knowing what lurches.
A lot of people have ran out this place screaming
So how long do you have before you too are leaving?

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Prisoner of the Mind

I am a prisoner of war caught between my heart and my mind
I am at the point of giving up just please show me a sign
I need the sign to let me know all will be alright
I swear if you show me that I’ll put up a fight.
I hate being in this place. I just want to go home
But even once I’m free I will still be alone
Maybe this isn’t so bad at least I have some company
I can hear a voice in the shadows so at least there is somebody
It’s a voice so familiar I just can’t figure out who it is
it reminds me of happier times where I once use to live
**** I can’t believe that I remember a feeling of once being happy
Can’t really make out the the memory of why due to the quality being so ******
Why can’t I close my eyes and picture a happy place
Whenever I close my eyes it’s this dark and scary place.
Maybe one day I will escape maybe one day I’ll make it
Or maybe… this thing called life I’ll probably just take it

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Same Pain

If only there was a day Just only one day where instead of the sky being grey it would be blue.
Just a day when I know what to do.
If instead of confusion and hate, there was order and love.
Everyone thinks that they're different but we are just the same,
but the only real difference is how we handle the pain.
We can keep it inside and build in the dark,
or show it some light and release in the park.
Our pain is all different but still it's just the same, for pain is just pain it doesn't care for your name.
It's collects its victims from both the weak and the strong. It whispers in your ears like the deadliest song.

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Just Ty Mar 2018

Mad

You see we all go a little mad sometimes
But are we mad at the now or is it our pastimes?
We were taught as children what to do when we're mad,
But why weren't we taught how to deal with our sad?
There are a lot of life tools that I wish I had.
Maybe I wouldn't be the way I am and all my relationships wouldn't end so bad.
I deal with my anger by keeping it all bottled in
Until it's time to finish that Jameson bottle yet again.
They say that there is a message in the bottle
I haven't seen one at the end, but here I wattle.
I used to date a girl name roxy who took all my pain away,
Until it was three days later and in bed I lay.
Sick from her love but I wanted her more.
But getting sick every hour and body so sore.
Why is it that I have forgotten what it is to happy?
Constantly on edge quickly become scrappy
You will never be able to tell from this face I poker,
That I am just as ****** in the head as heath playing the joker.

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