Jodey Ross

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

I wish I
could tell
them the
things I
see.

I wish
they could
feel my
pain.

I wish
they'd accept
me for who
I am.

Not having
new traits
to gain.

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

Falling

F
   A
       L
           L
             I
               N
                    G

D
    R
       O
           W
               N
                   I
                      N
                          G

I don't know
how to

S W I M

I only know
how to

S I N K

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

Trapped

Trapped inside stone white walls.
No windows.
No doors.
Alone in my thoughts.
Going insane.
I have no escape.
Leaving is not an option.

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

If they did.

They don't understand.
They say they do but I can see the lie.
I know they don't.
If they did it would be okay when I scream at the voices in my head.
If they did they would understand why I don't want to see family.
If they did they wouldn't punish me because I stick to myself.
If they did they wouldn't scream at me for doing things I don't remember doing.
If they did I wouldn't be alone.

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

Which path do I choose?

Walking alone I come
to a fork in the road.
Which path do I choose?

The left road is a dangerous
path. My demons call to me.
Beg me to play.

                                                      The right road is full
                                               of light. Life.  My family
                                              wants me to come home.

They fight over me. I
don't know what to
do. I love my family.
I want to choose them,
but I can't... I choose
the left path.

I
             spiral
                      down.
                         What
                            have
              I
        become?
I'm
a.
monster...
At.
    least
       I
              won't
    have
to
worry
for
l
o
n
g.

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

The voices say...

The voices call to me...
They want me to follow them.
I know I shouldn't but I feel as if I should.
It is my destiny.
They tell me I will be safe if I follow.
They say they can take me away from the                  hurt,
                                                                                     pain,
                                                                                     sorrow,
                                                                                     tears.
No more crying myself to sleep.
No more wondering how I will make it through the day.
No more wondering if anyone cares about me.
No more wondering if I should just permanently leave...

They say they will save me from everything, but to where?

Where will they take me?
Where will I go?
Will I be missed?
Will anyone really care?

Jodey Ross Sep 2014

Darkness

Standing alone,
all I see is Darkness.
Surrounding me.
Holding me in his grasp.
Not allowing any light of hope.
No escape.
I tried running,
climbing,
nothing works.
No matter where you go
the Darkness follows...
You may try to dream him away,
cut him away,
burn him away.
Know that no matter what you do
the Darkness follows.