No affection
No hugs no kisses
No eyes no smile
Yes I'll listen but I'm not the one she wants to talk to
We're friends but I see nothing
I'm here where she needs me she's there and else where
I know she don't hate me but she certainly don't like me
Okay she "likes" me but I fell in love
Nothing I can write that hasn't been before
This level of lonely is the bottom
Grinding and gnashing of teeth
Hair pulling and breath held not to scream

That's where you learn to feel
Where you learn to accept
Learn to let go
Learn loss and gain
To fight and die quietly
To hold yourself
To carry your burden
To learn you don't have to
To forgive yourself
Where you learn yourself
Learn solitude and to cherish
To find hope in the dark
To learn love is not always beautiful
That sometimes its ugly and hurts
But it's there
Waiting for you
When you need it most
Like when you're alone.

Here.
Now.
You are not.
I am still