reasons to live and one to die
these are the thoughts
from a widower's mind
darkness prevails and most often wins
drowning in sorrow, self-pity and sin
for each mortal step brings me closer to her
and God's mighty wrath i most likely incur
yet over my shoulder they're screaming at me
it's not what she wants and why can't you see
but if i choose life am i walking away
from the love of my life by prolonging the day
that we are together forever as one
this thought at face value is morally wrong
yet as humans we strive to avoid any pain
by whatever means and without any restraints
the decision does lie in the palm of my hands
to live with this pain and all it's demands
or slowly with malice drink till i am gone
thoughts of nothing but me, forsake every one
the choice is so simple so easy to choose
Lord give me the strength for it's my life to lose
reasons to live and one to die
these are the thoughts
from a widower's mind

like a stone thrown to the silent pond
forever gone it seems
but in it's wake it then creates
a rippled memory

This mortal life on earth is short
we're born we live we die
we are the shooting star that
briefly crossed the nighttime sky

and with each life impressions leave
on every path thus crossed
they loved and warmly hugged our hearts
they're gone and now we're lost

but like the mossy stone arest
the bottom of the pond
although to us our eyes not see
their memory ripples on

if it shall be that i ne'er see
my lovely bride i miss
then i dare say i wish the day
hence i do not exist

for she be reason for my breath
and reason for to live
for with her present absence
Lord i've nothing else to give

oh married we at winter's start
so many years have passed
we fell in love scant months afore
blessed with a love would last

and on that day the twain be one
forever one we vowed
no man could put asunder what
Our Lord had thus bestowed

and though we've separated paths
in spirit we are whole
for Love shall conquer death's black veil
God's word has told me so

i know there's a tomorrow
where she'll be in my arms
when i'll thank God this time has come
and i've survived the storms

i know that there's a moment
when she will say my name
and i will fold in on myself
i'm finally free from pain

i know that she will kiss me
and brush away my tears
and without a word between us
we'll melt away those years

i know that from that moment
i'm no longer on my own
we're back beside each other
we're back where we belong

for once these moments happen
for once is all there'll be
forever in eternal bliss
I know it's you and me

do you cry in heaven, love
because you miss me so
or are you filled with happiness
because of what you know

for on earth i suffer, love
i've tears that kiss my face
i come home to an empty room
and loneliness' embrace

do you come to visit me
and kiss me as i sleep
and place your arms around me, love
to comfort as i weep

will i know the answers to
these questions i have posed
yes, only when we meet again
my love, my life, my rose

we were
once
dueling banjos

i am
now
a lonely cello

my heart is sorely broken
and it cannot e're be mended
there is a missing piece and
it has gone with Her to heaven

it has gone with Her to heaven
and it will for e're remain
till my time on earth has ended
and She's in my arms again

and when She's in my arms in heaven
both Our hearts will be as new
see her heart was sorely broken  
I held Her missing pieces too