You spoke about leaving
So often and for so long
That I didn't believe
You'd ever be gone

You choose a partner to grow old,
prepare vows to keep them with you,
battle every day to raise offspring,
all, so you wouldn't have solitude.

And Love???

You love a person to see them happy,
to be understood and cared for,
do the same for them whatsoever,
even if there isn't a promise to stay.

Oh how I long for the impossible,
to see your name on my screen,
to pick up and just hear a melody,
your voice itself a soothing one.

Oh how I beg for the unfeasible,
to somehow spot your smile,
amongst a crowd of strangers,
and feel alive again with you near.

Oh how I kneel and pray for the unknown,
for your soul to be at bliss and peace,
oblivious of the hastles and pain,
just what you wished when earthly.

A slow transition, yet so quick,
from strangers to healers, we went.
You ripped your skin, I saw through,
and it felt a reflection of mine.

Found a soul pleading to feel loved,
searching to feel safe and adored.
Scars bleeding, pain un-ceasing,
you knew to give, not to take.

Saw a heart that deserves love,
so lost and tired to search or ask.
Didn't know just being there,
felt healing and freedom for you.

Kindness is all you asked of me,
love was everything I had in me.
You healed, only to bleed more,
when you had to make a choice.

Like squeezing hard for a last drop,
found reasons to stay a little longer,
didn't matter a second or a minute,
it was considered it the most precious.

Lived and laughed, in the moment,
loved, like there was no tomorrow,
stayed, until there was no option,
than to slip away for your good.

Yet, after the sun went down and,
darkness encumbered me in whole,
I wonder what could have been done,
to have had another minute with you.