A whole year just passed by,
didn't notice the 365 days gone.
Stepping into a new set of days,
nothing feels the same, and yet, it is.

It's just another day for me,
fighting hard with reality.
All darkness and emptiness,
nothing else can I feel around.

Another year lies ahead, and I hope,
I won't make it to the end of it.
Waking up to know I'll never see you,
is a pain that can not be put in words.

Bidding goodbye to the last year,
which took all hopes from life.
Continued into 25, without a choice,
to live with the memories and your soul.

Delved deep into myself to see,
to understand what you saw in me.
Couldn't find something unique,
that you couldn't find elsewhere.

But I did find childishness and smiles,
which came out when around you.
You saw what others failed to,
because you were the reason behind.

You had your purest honest version,
around me, and I got it easy as ABC.
We loved the version of ourselves,
that only we could bring out in us.

Could never figure out why,
but, all I know is my love for you,
would never change whatsoever,
unconditional it remains for all times

Such a fleeting time of bliss,
hundreds of memories,
of smiles, laughter, fights, and tears,
and moments of peaceful love.

All of which are now,
to be cherished for a lifetime.

We always spent time near the waters,
gazing at the reflection of lights,
the ripples forming and spreading,
every moment at peace with nature.

Sitting alone by the waters now,
looking at the birds flying over head,
listening to the splash against rocks,
you occupy all of my mind and heart.

They ask me to let your soul be,
but the heart isn't ready to let go.
I never disrupted your peace on earth,
and I'm sure, I'm not doing it now.

So many thoughts to put into words,
a lot of stories meant to be shared,
and hundreds of questions to ask,
but your voice just silenced my mind.

All the running chaos in my mind,
they froze, my voice wouldn't come out.
You were in a rush to keep the call,
and I couldn't believe you had picked up.

Hopelessly, I had dialled your number,
many a times thinking, maybe this time.
You picked when I was nearing my time,
not aware of what's going on in my mind.

I'm glad I have enough time for 5 words,
for you to remember your entire life.
"I love you so much," I said,
my last words for you, you never knew.

You would have wanted me there,
to peck a kiss softly on your cheek,
to bid you farewell as you depart,
to see you finally so peaceful and free.

My heart was in love with your pranks,
silly fights were our favourite times,
endless conversations was effortless.
How then could I see you lie still?

Forgive me, for not being there,
there wasn't another way,
your near ones would have sent me away,
for we loved each other that way.