I am a wanter of fantasy
But I live for the true
Believer of magic
But wonder for reason
Swimming to imagination
Walking for definition
Pondering your love
Wishing it's real*


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

It's the lonely nights that pry..
It's the lonely nights that lurk..
In the corridors all around.
During these nights I have visions..
You and I soaring
You and I writing...
Two masterpieces combined
Into a story that has never been told
A story of two lonely hearts...
Connected at the mind




-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Today I kept myself busy
Today I took care of things
Because I didn't want to ponder on what tomorrow brings
My mind is and ocean
My skin is the beach
Thoughts caught in a maze
In a maze with no end
Dreaming of sweet release
Cowardly...
Perhaps
Put on my shoes
And forget about you
I mean take a walk on my road
And maybe then you will know
The thought of no pain
I just want to ride the waves
I  mean I want to give them my pain
So it can depliciate
Intertwined with the waves forever
To not feel
That's the real deal

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Missing
Everyone is missing something..a key, a sock, plastic ware..
Missing someone
Or they way someone used to stare
Unbearable it is mostly
But sometimes its not as hard
I guess that means that soon it wont be hard at all
Or it means I allowed us to fall
Either way I long for the day that I dont miss you at all

I shall only desire thou
When the presence of thine auora
Is candied, honeyed, and sweet
Sweet enough to deny my solitude
And desire thee*

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

You put on the best academy award winning performance.
You did the most glorious act.
You wore your most beautiful costume and matching mask.
I didn't watch but I know you have had to won.
The oscar every actor longs for.
Round of applause from me.
You made me believe.
Now I love the unreal.
I long for the untrue.
I was open for you.
Have you prepared a speech?
I want to..but you're out of my reach.
I set aside grammar for you.
Not something most writers will do.
I let you know what I wanted from you.
And you never told the truth.
You came to my door just to deceive me.
And planted your vile seed.
But i dug it out.
Had to get it out of me.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

You look at me like im the first thing you've ever seen
You stare at me like you can't believe
Thinking of you is like christmas morning
...Butterflies fluttering inside that im not ignoring
Lying down right next to you dont want no space between us
And I want to know what you're thinking
What are you feeling? I need to know it's a must
Then I glance in the sky and I swear there is fairy dust
Glittery speckles of you and I*
Beautiful emeralds with diamonds and I just know they are floating from us
But as hard as they may try they will never shine like us
Sometimes I can't believe that you think I'm gorgeous
Touching me so gentle
Hold me tight dont let me go
I want to listen to you breathing
I want to hear if you are thinking
Tell me what you're thinking
Am I in your head if you're thinking
And if I am did I do what I was supposed to
I wanna be the one your close to
Can I be the one you walk to
I want to be your everything
I want to give you, your every need
I want your heart
*Do u trust me?

Write after write
Scribble after Scribble
Stuck in my thoughts
My words are stuck
I just can write them down
Cramps in my hands
Callus on my finger
Words ran away
Left my thoughts to linger
I want to write a beautiful goodbye
But all i have to say is
I miss you
And why


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Write after write
Scribble after Scribble
Stuck in my thoughts
My words are stuck
I just can write them down
Cramps in my hands
Callus on my finger
Words ran away
Left my thoughts to linger
I want to write a beautiful goodbye
But all i have to say is
I miss you
And why


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Crumbled papers scattered on my floor
Writing two words and replacing them with three more
Calluses on my fingers from clutching my pen
Sayin to my self tell him how and when
Writing is my thing...whats going on here
The feeling is here but the words aren't near
I want to write you the most beautiful love poem
But the problem is I don't have the words
There are none
Not one word to describe how I feel
I love you.....



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2016

Heart racing
Feet pacing
Mind going a mile a minute
Trying to make sense of this thing I feel
Staring at my telephone
Everytime it goes off I want it to be you
So cold and so hot
I love you
Even though you love me not



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

It still lingers in my mind.
A day i will always remember...forget it? How about I forget trying....
It was a choice I made. And now i know the debt shall never be paid.
It has been ten plus years...yet this day still sends tears.
I tried to leave you between hither and yon.
But even if i did thou shall live on.
You are whats inside me...will you allow me to go on?
Or will you still linger. Who decides? Is it you or I?
Because if you will allow it. Then i swear i will try.
Im sorry that i left you in an unknown crowd.
For that i am never proud.
I haven't uttered you in years. Because you bring sullen tears.
I am sorry.
I am sorry.
Will this day forgive me?
Maybe i should still flee....
That day i didn't know what I did...I was still a kid.
I was a flower just blossoming.
Will this day forgive me? Will the day go away?
I'm sorry I can't fix it....
Not sure i would even if i knew i could.
Gloomy day you still linger in my mind.
Deeper darkness I will never find.
I am sorry.....i know its been a long time.



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I watch her while she is sleeping.
She smiles when she's dreaming.
I ponder what she's thinking.
She turns over..to feel if I'm still with her.
Beautiful, I won't leave you. I'm at your mercy forever.
She's got me wrapped arround her finger.
For her I will always linger.
It breaks my heart..she crys when I am leavin'.
Baby, I'll be right back..your the one who keeps me breathin'.
She always makes my day.
She's the reason I try in everyway.
I'm the luckiest mom in the world.
Because of my darling babygirl.*


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Ill always ask you..how are you. How was your day?
Ill always want you..i hope thats ok.
I really want to tell you what I want to say.
But sometimes you dont listen..because of your day.
Here I am
Promise Ill stay
As long as you hold me tight
When I have a bad day

What if                                                  My path
Led me                                            Into a circle
What if                                            My journey
Took me
                                          All arround
                  And arround           round and
                    And arround              round and

                                           And arround........

What if everything                          That ever
Happend                                      Was to show
                                      Me
                         How it's supposed
                                    To be.
So I
                                          
Could continue

Onward

To where I was going

It took me back

So I could get on the right track

My journey has taught me

How to love

How to love me

And I will love you again

My journey showed me how

How to sew your wounds

And turn your pain

Into a sunset of dimpled beauty

Into a clear blue sea of  extraordinary magic

From feeling forgotten to awareness of true

You're goning to feel my love

With all of me

You will feel my love

Its time for me to fix what has been broken
For far too long

I will kiss your wonds that I blindfully caused

I will make love to your flaws

You know that warm fuzzy feeling you get when your falling in love?
Thats all your common sense..leaving you.

Taking no sides in this race war.
We need to ask ourselves what are
We fighting for?
Can't you see it divides us more?
Don't you know this is the devil's lure?

My family is black.
My family is white.
My family is blue.

We all can not suffer for the racism that is very much alive.
Many many innocent people have died.
But please do not let this cause us to divide.

You can't fight fire with fire.
You can't give fire air.

Fire dies when it's smothered.
Fire dies when it's too wet.
This we shall not forget.

Let's smother this fire with love and unite.
Together we all must fight.
With all of our might.

Let's drown the fire with love, peace and positivity.
Because frankly what it can cause frightens me.

Together we must come.
Together is the only way to overcome.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Dark blue was her dress,
Deep brown was her hair.
Her long flowy locks blew in the wind,
The sun shined on her luminous copper
skin. She walked through the valley. She strutted across on the tress.
Walking tall, she never put down her chin.


She had watched her all along......she just had to stop and stare.
She asked her for a smoke, she asked her for a light. She gave it quickly thinking I've never seen a madien oh so fair.


Bright red was her dress. Sun kissed blonde was her hair
Her short curly locks pulled off her face. She perferred the shade to protect her ivory skin. She went through the valley, she walked on the tress.
And thats when she saw her she had to stop and stare.


Suddenly she saw her with that red dress.
Thinking to herself "I'm happy I decided to take this awful tress." I've never seen a madien oh so fair. I'll ask her for a smoke, I'll borrow a light.


Then they became inseparable
They both felt wonderful.

They both wore a white dress, they both adored their hair.
They sailed across the ocean, they went across the sea.
They danced barefoot in the sand, they danced on the beach.
And now the world knows fate put them hand in hand.




-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Everything I said to you
Everything I did to you*
Everything I have done for you
                        

                            *....­it was all for us


And I don't regret it
If I could I'd do it one hundred times more


             I will always love you


No matter what



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I saw my city today through a birds eye.
I was tall...wayyy up high.
Precipitation didn't bother me.
My view was filled with mother nature's beauty.
The clouds drizzled wet stuff.
As I admired the skyline it seemed fair enough.
And in the far beyond where the buildings met with the sky.
They intertwined with grace. As they entertained my doting eye.
I watched people with there comes and goes.
I noticed many places I've been but still had I don't knows.
I saw my city through a birds eye.
There is plenty green and hardly smoke.
I saw a glimpse of heaven in that far beyond.
Perhaps you were there looking right at me and that is why the far beyond was magical to me.
RIP



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Hasn't anyone ever told you that you can write?
Has no one ever said write me a new write?
Sad princess of emotion.
I was in your boat too.
I was an iceberg.
I was cold.
I was grey.
And I overcame.
You will too.
I promise you.
All that you have to do is look deep inside you.
I promise it didn't leave.
Don't beg..don't plead.
I know all there is to know about hot and cold.
It's inside my soul.
Follow me I will guide you.

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

I lost my soul in a poker bet.
I lost my soul to someone I just met.
I walked through summer...right into the snow.
Strolling beside someone I barely know.
He talked of heaven, but dished out hell.
He picked me up every time I fell.
He hit me high and he hit me low.
I was the star in his show.
He said I'll make you love me.
And I wanted to scream.
Beggin no on my knees.
So I played it like a poker game.
Never knew he was in the poker hall of fame.



-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Kiss me like the way you stare at me
Then touch me like the way you kissed me
Tell me like you wont be able to say it again
Sometimes when you love and let it go...
It comes back and then you know

Are some days lonely?
Or is it just me?
Most nights I am lonely..
Its just my thoughts and me.
Do you like it when i ask you how was your day?
Do you want me to notice if you had a bad day?
Sometimes we are different..
Others we are the same.
Friends can be scary
Or is it just me?
I've seen how tight we could be
When its only you and me..

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017

Throughout the day and late at night you lurk inside my home
Today you knocked and I said ill be right there
Unknown souls living in the cold
You asked me if Id make a sacrifice
You asked me to share my mind
I said that I would follow the tide
Now I ponder if Ive..have I lost my mind
You are the devil
I cant make that sacrifice
Bittetsweet embrace of death
But i still got more left
There is still more time
You are the devil
I gotta find a better way to spend my time

Walked in the shadows.
Couldn't find the light.
Fell into an abyss.
Couldn't fight gravity.
Went through an erie tunnel.
Couldn't find the end.
I weeped. I cried. I sobbed.
Couldn't find my smile.
Got stuck in quick sand.
Kicked and screamed and I sank.
I was burried.
Thought I was gone.
Thought I was under.
But I was not.
I had just been planted.
I didn't have to crawl out.
I just grew.


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Hi friends sorry i haven't posted anything lately. I've veen busy with my studies. I need to catch up on all of your writes as well. Thanks for your patience! Xoxo

I built a wall of ice arround my heart.
So solid, so strong i was sure it wouldn't crumble.
Then sun king came along
Melting the ice with his warmth
Slowly but rapid
The fire breaks the ice
It couldn't even fight
The warm feels nice


-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyright 2017