Jay Dee: Poems

249 · Aug 2016

Sweet&Sour

Jay Dee Aug 2016

She dreamt that he came to her
She dreamt of peaceful meadow waters*
filled with lotus flowers
She had imagined that there they made love for hours
for forever his eyes only  for her
pretty pretty dreams of lotus flowers, meadows, cool waters and florescent sun beams
   then her eyes open
she remembers how severely her heart
is broken
she trys to be balanced but all she does
is cry
    her pain bursts from inside..she's loosing her mind
  because hes her one and only so
shes
going to meet him on the other side
she's decided not to stay
can't live without him anyway
   *so to the peaceful lotus meadow
she goes
he was there waiting for her where
they danced under the sunbeams

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Dedicated to a widow who absolutely refused to live without her husband of 40 years.

249 · Sep 2023

Self

Jay Dee Sep 2023

Self

Drunken and sunken was I
Drowning in pity and sadness
And time didn't fly
Everything was madness
Stuck in pitch blackness
I couldn't see
Until I chose me
Baby steps I'm taking
It's me I'm facing

240 · Mar 2017

Untitled

Jay Dee Mar 2017

Untitled

Sometimes..
The most BEAUTIFUL people
Are NOT usually the ones who catch your eye
They are the ones who keep you awake
Not on purpose
Hours of conversation
STILL having questions
CONNECTING to their psyche
Yearning for the stars to ALIGN
Ohh the things I could show you..
If you were MINES

236 · Jan 2022

Black sea

Jay Dee Jan 2022

Black sea

Where's my lantern?
The sun is gone and I can't see
Where's home from here?
No coordinates when everything's black
Lost in the black sea
Lost in the black deep
When I can't see
It hurts
It hurts so bad
And nobody seems to understand
So ill hurt
And hurt some more
And ill quietly wail
And inside ill weep
When I feel weak
Lost in the black deep
Where's my lantern?
So I can see..

No light inside of me
It flickers...it flickers
Running on fumes
Livin on fumes
Heart beats on fumes
I've lost my tune
The floor isn't under my feet
Falling in the black deep
Lost in the black deep
Silently I will weep
And I quietly scream
Coz nobody cares or understands
Always comparing their pain to mine
Its not so bad they say
As the floor disappears from under my feet
And I slowly fall
As I quietly weep
And Silently scream
Stuck in the black deep

233 · Jul 2016

True Colors

Jay Dee Jul 2016

True Colors

I thought I loved you
But it was only the picture you portrayed
I thought I loved you
Even after being betrayed
I thought I loved you
But I was color blind
I thought I loved you
Until your true colors I was able to find*

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Open your eyes

204 · Jun 2016

Love III

Jay Dee Jun 2016

Love III

Is she getting the best of you?
Have you gave her all of you?
The world is spinning but, I'm not moving.
I'm still burried here where you left me.
Your legs are walking but, your feet are lagging.
Still the shovel dragging.

You and I, beautiful in the night like fireflies.
She is there but, you're still lonely because
You can't give her all of you.
I can see it in your eyes.

He's just here so I can pretend that I moved on.
But probably not for long.
In my sleep your name he hears me cry.
We are not dead, but we are not alive.
With no me
You are empty.
With us apart.
I have no heart.

No. I dont think we ever really moved on.
No. I don't think we can love from a far.

How's that even possible when you are empty?
How can I do that?
With no heart.

-Jennifer DeAngelo
Copyrighted 2016

Love
Sometimes its deeper than we know.

161 · Aug 2016

Untitled

Jay Dee Aug 2016

Untitled

Tell me.
How do you escape from.
Whats in your mind?

— The End —