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Jenni Littzi May 2019
I remember those feelings
That you would always give me
Didn’t realize then, how much
I would be longing for your touch

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight

Come back and I’ll show you
That it was the smart thing to do
We can do it right this time
Don’t make me beg and cry

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight

One more chance, one last dance
One more show, I know it’d be forever

When we were together
Everything just felt right
Now I want it for a lifetime
I’m waiting on you to decide
You have the ultimate power
To go ahead and change my life
I do not want to sit and play shy
Pretty please, please do it tonight
Jenni Littzi Feb 2019
When I was young at least I could dream
Now it all seems to be past tense to me
Because it all never ended up fading
And now I’m more than ever going crazy

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

Now that I have become older
It seems to be more torture
I am still losing without answers
Tired of this waltz, I’m no dancer

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

I admit it’s more than I can bare
Start from A went to Z
That’s all I can take from me

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share
Jenni Littzi Sep 2018
You know you drive me crazy
Know I love being your lady
You have me daydreaming
You give me a lot of meaning

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in

I want you and only just you
You don’t know what you do
You are the one to blame
Yeah, you drive me insane

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in

You gave it all of you to me
I’ll never take for granted thee

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in
Jenni Littzi May 2019
I want to look down from above
Just watch out for those I love
Watch the world from outside
Sit back and not have to have the fight

Enjoying the beauty and skylights around
While floating above the restrictive ground
I want to simply take care of others
One less to add to anyone’s troubles

Erase the anger and confusion I have inside
Only keep the parts of me I know are Devine
Perfection on this earth, is for me to take flight
That’s what is left for me here, to see the light

Let them all move on and forget about me
Become who I know I’m meant to be
A parallel caregiver for the world
My cost is no more pain for this girl

Just a heavenly creature who let go
No more reasons for the tears to flow
Finally find the real happiness I crave
I’m ready to become an Angel today
Jenni Littzi Jul 2019
Karma is a belief
That we get what we need
That we deserve it
And should learn from it

Life is nothing bet an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon

When pushed, you get resist
But you just keep giving it
Until you can’t take no more
Seems life is keeping score

Life is nothing but an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon

I know you can’t help everyone
But everyone can help someone
Then it would keep going around
Just like an echoed sound

Life is nothing but an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon
Jenni Littzi Oct 2019
Everything was gold and diamonds
It was like we created something from heaven
From the beginning it felt so perfect
I didn’t know something was lurking

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time

You were my precious stone
In a cruel world, I wasn’t alone
It was such a great match
Couldn’t imagine it wouldn’t last

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time

peace has deceased, we leave a catastrophe
The sadness takes over, it’s over

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time
Jenni Littzi Aug 2018
Met him one afternoon
And he changed my views
Felt like I didn’t know what to do

Can’t take my eyes off him
Every time he comes around them
But I’m betrothed to another man
Ask myself, do I wanna miss this chance?
However my hands taken by one
I must stick to my guns, oh he has nice guns

He’s so rugged and cool
I feel like I am such a fool
I’m stuck with this other dude

Can’t take my eyes off him
Every time he comes around them
But I’m betrothed to another man
Ask myself, do I wanna miss this chance?
However my hands taken by one
I must stick to my guns, oh he has nice guns

I’m so stuck on two, what to do?
I guess now it’s far too late
As I have myself a set date

Can’t take my eyes off him
Every time he comes around them
But I’m betrothed to another man
Ask myself, do I wanna miss this chance?
However my hands taken by one
I must stick to my guns, oh he has nice guns
A friend asked me to write about an engaged woman wanting someone else. Not my fav, but did it.
Jenni Littzi Jul 2018
No private shows here
Better look elsewhere
Stop asking for that
Need to take a step back
Stop acting like a rat

I already know what you want
But you’re just another chump
I will tell you now I’m done
Thanks for playing along
But it is time to move on

I understand it way too much
But I think you’ve gotten enough
You don’t need all this stuff
I’m sorry you think it’s rough
You just gotta toughen up

No private shows here
Better look elsewhere
You had a sneak peak
And you took it too deep
Go and be another sheep
Jenni Littzi Jul 2018
You couldn’t wait and stay
Now I feel we’re worlds away
How can I change our fate?
It shouldn’t have gone this way
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

It didn’t end the way I wanted it to
Now I feel like I have been a fool
Seems life threw us a curve
And sent you and me on a swerve
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

I want to be where you lay
I can’t stand things this way

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard
Jenni Littzi Jun 2018
I would give it up real quick
Even more, all of the riches
If I could only, please, get
My body to just benefit
Even if just a little bit

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I see all the things I’m missing
Through others is how I’m living
I stay locked away in my cave
Both night and day, I do not play
In bed is usually where I stay

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

There are many things I miss
I need to pull through this

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl
Jenni Littzi May 2018
Can you feel it like I can?
My heart is beating fast
Things don’t always last
I honestly accept that
And I am no longer sad

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything
There’s no reason to put up a fight
And I apologize, but it’s in my sight

My heart refuses to be closed
Before me, it already knows
My brain won’t stop running
Thinking about what I could do
To manipulate what is fading

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything
There’s no reason to put up a fight
And I apologize, but it’s in my sight

I won’t forget the good times
But all I feel are the bad vibes
No goodbyes, just little lies
(As out loud we keep quiet…)

It’s that time, I do apologize
But it eventually comes in life
One really doesn’t call it an end
Just a new cycle that’s beginning
As change happens to everything

…I see it again, it’s starting
I’ll play too, knowing the truth
Distance, trying hard to fight
Lies, but all I can do is apologize
Jenni Littzi Apr 2019
Oxymorons, because I’m not that easy, so don’t stereotype me
I hate what I love and love creating what I hate
I even hate love itself, but need it more than anything else

Complicated is what makes us, individuality is what teaches us
Ignorance and what’s not know, drives us to stupidity and hatefulness
Communication and acceptance could build more bridges

Yin and yang, sun to moon, black and white, rain or shine
Destiny and choice, high to low, hot or cold, I am sold
I believes in them all, like a prism, from one side to the finish
Jenni Littzi May 2019
I have a dream
A secret
That’s all I need
Don’t want to share
Just keep it in my care
Where I know it’ll stay
Lit in a bright flame
For me to cherish
And no one to damage
I like knowing it’s mine
To leave inside
Until due time
It’s what I want
But it’s okay
If it never comes to front
It’s all mine to love
Keeping it inside is enough
Because with a secret
It’s the only place I trust
Jenni Littzi May 2018
I’ll be the *** symbol but nobody’s lady
I’ll be the eye candy but nobody’s baby
I’ll tease ya, making you miss me
I won’t chase you either or please ya
I’ll just show off and leave you hanging

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust

You can look all you want
But you cannot ever touch
You can play the game with me
Just realize who is forever now in command
You will have a great time and then be alone again

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust

I refuse to be a victim anymore
So I’ve decided to take control
Admiration and lust
But never intimacy or love
Over and out, I’m all done

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust
Jenni Littzi May 2019
You speak “the truth” like a politician
Engaged with others in a conversation
You steal the show at another’s event
So, do you care what’s even meant?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?

You know how to twist a truth into a lie
Just as if it were you trying to save a life
You’d have someone fall for a laugh
So, would you leave me in a draft?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?

It’s all about you, you, you
Forgetting how to act
Not knowing what to do

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know how to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy?
Jenni Littzi May 2019
Chase me like I’m your mission
Need you to grab my attention
Make me laugh, it is a cinch
Take things slow, don’t blow it

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy

Gotta handle all of my emotions
There’s good and there’s commotion
I need your undying devotion
Don’t fool around, I’m not joking

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy

I hope to strike right one day
Find a guy like me who will stay

I’ve tried everyone from A to Z
But I can’t find my compatibility
Maybe there’s no Mr. Right for me
Guess I’ll try a little less and see
Out there, it is really not so easy
Jenni Littzi Dec 2018
Why’d Babygirl have to die
I can’t believe it was her time
Her love was far too strong
She was needed back home

News was too hard to believe
I really did not want to see it
Had so much left to do in life
And it hurt like a sharp knife

Don’t find angels here on earth
But back then I was already sure
One of the best here was Babygirl
And I will hold to that for forever

Wondering what could have been
If this angel would have just lived
But now we will never, ever know
Because off she has already flown

Rest In Peace doesn’t sound like enough
Hope you know how great you were loved
And how it will continue you with you above
Until we meet again, Babygirl, the way it was
Beg
Jenni Littzi May 2019
Beg
...To make things right
...To give me closure
So I can sleep at night

...To give me hope
...To end this war
That I fought for

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on  

...To resurrect me
...To direct me
Where I belong

...To be done
...Just for my ego
That needs love

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on

Get down on your arms and knees
Beg for me, screaming please

I just want you to beg for my forgiveness
That is the only way I can be uplifted
From this depression that you’re missing
I want to be happy for you after so long
But I cannot forget the **** you did wrong
So could you just beg in a letter or call?
That way, I could finally move on
Jenni Littzi May 2019
It’s okay, call me naive
Because I choose to believe
In dreams coming true
Mermaids swim in the blue
That there is life after death
And their are ghosts among us

See, I want to believe
Angels are watching over me
With animals around for guiding
While stars are there to wish upon
Same for coins, thrown in a pond
And the Magic’s inside the wand

Yes, I need to believe
That there must be
Those lost pots of gold
At the ending of each rainbow
And in the woods, playful fairies
Are hiding amongst the trees

So, call me naive
But I’m inclined to be
The adoring princess
That wins her awakening kiss
Forever in charming bliss
Together in a castle so big

Dream like a child
Don’t forget to smile
Watch the flowers flourish
And the butterflies adorn them
Relax and enjoy the beauty
Stop and see the simplicity
... when you believe
Jenni Littzi Mar 2021
Be like the butterfly
Let go of the past,
Free yourself from your cocoon
And embrace change,
Because it can be beautiful
My writings are short lately.  I need brain surgery, in two weeks. I hope that helps my focus.
Jenni Littzi May 2018
The sun may not always shine
As it’s no surprise that I’ve seen
Many clouds lingering my whole life
But as the storms begin rolling in
The difference there now days is
I know you’re there by my side

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

Life hits me hard and sometimes
I fall down, but I get up to fight
At times it’s hard to always continue
But now I know someone else patiently
Wants to also see me get through
And that person is wonderful you

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

I never knew love could be so strong
A bond that keeps me going, going on
The power of being in love with someone
Like you can make a woman here feel
Incredible; I only need your love forever

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

All I ever need to continue to persist
So in love, never before; my best gift
Jenni Littzi Jun 2019
I don’t even know what to say,
And it’s you that made me this way
I can’t even form a proper thought
On how things got messed up and lost

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met

You just popped me like a glock nine
Left me dead in my tracks, like a stop sign
I keep fighting these demons all the time
And I feel like I am losing my mind

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met

The subject on it is still really sore
I can’t even cry about it anymore

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met
Jenni Littzi Apr 2019
Lies
Straight to my face
Can strike like a knife
To my weakest point

Cheat
Hurts my soul
It cuts real deep
To my heart too

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes

Sneak
Around on me
It goes notices
Hurts my ego

Anger
Scares my being
Bruises me whole
Gets out of control

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes

All the tears I cried
They end tonight

Then I realize I’m better
Off without you, babe
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more time for fakes
Jenni Littzi Jun 2018
Red dirt roads, blue grass
Floating bubbles pass
Underneath a purple sky
Green lilies arise, for miles

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Floating on a cloud
At the end of a rainbow
Peaceful, clear water flows
Down the yellow rocks

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Butterflies stop by
Unicorns are always near
Pink stars at night
I’m happy away here
Jenni Littzi Sep 2020
If you only knew,
What I put up with for you
If you could only see,
What it all meant to me

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only,  I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

The world is so crazy today
Maybe I shouldn’t be shocked
I just promise this is the last straw
I’m wiser with age, again I will never fall

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

Now I promise you I’m number one
When it comes to whom matters
I’ll fight until I’ve finally won
A right to be just me and happy

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all
I’m honestly letting go. This is goodbye.
Jenni Littzi Mar 2021
My biggest mistake, was not seeing how you’re fake  
Believing blindly to every word, looking back it’s absurd
I poured everything into you, thinking it was the right thing to do
You can’t treat people the way you choose to
Like actions have no consequences to you
Using others for a season, until a better reason
Comes to you’re liking, so I’m done fighting
This time it is really goodbye and I’m too angry too cry
I’ll walk away relieved and “let it go” like my Queen
I know what I’ve seen, my eyes are open to you now, I’m keen
Jenni Littzi May 2021
How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less

Another year goes by
I guess it’s true that time flies
But I still feel like I’m stuck
Inside four walls, in a rut

How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less

Don’t feel that I have survived
Instead I feel over and over-victimized
Birthdays mean nothing more
They just cause me to be more insecure
And unsure...

How easy, they can forget me
Like a flower, caught in the breeze
Just there wailing away and flaking
Unsteady, like the ground shaking
It is water boiling over the edge
And me standing on a ledge
Birthdays always have me a mess
Sad days make me feel less
I wrote this on my birthday in 2019, it must have been depressing! lol
Jenni Littzi May 2019
All the things that I should have said
And all the plans I should have kept
I’d do anything for that time back
But things change and you went away

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet

I promise you that you’ll go on
You will never leave my thoughts
But because you left too soon
I am distraught and I am blue

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet

One day bittersweet won’t be bitter
Until that day, your legacy will continue

Forever is only a moment in time
You can get lost in the blink of an eye
I wish you a bittersweet goodbye
You seem lost now, but eventually
We’ll be back together happily
Cheers to a goodbye so bittersweet
Jenni Littzi May 2019
And all that’s left are black butterflies
Fluttering all about, surrounding me
All that’s left is deadness in my eyes
Dust to dust, everything falls apart
It has been so long, I can’t even cry
Lost spinning in a full room all alone
I contemplate if I should still fight
As black butterflies fly in my mind

The darkness takes over and lasts
I keep having to mend the pieces back
As falling apart seems to be my knack
Ashes to ashes, everything falls apart
It seems like there are no new starts
Black butterflies have taken their flight
I ask to the dear heavens above, “why”
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies

Because all that’s left are black butterflies
Those black butterflies fly in my mind
The black butterflies have taken their flight
I’m seeing the world with black butterflies
Jenni Littzi Aug 2018
She’s ready, she’s going to come harder
She’s gonna be brave and reach farther
Just sit back, I dare you to watch her
More than ever, she’s now stronger
  
She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss

She can put up a fight all night
Let you win, she just might
Or she can push on the brakes
And then take it all back away

She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss

She’s a champion, see her
She’s coming, feel her

She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss
Jenni Littzi May 2019
Not long ago I was lost
Others, past lovers
They came with a cost
Leaving me distraught
And then came you
Straight out of the blue

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly

I do thank God I found you
‘Cause what we have is true
Nothing can come between us
I’m just all about this here love
Because you came into my life
And now I believe that I ...

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly

In the after life, I’ll still be by your side
They call it “ride and die,” that’s no lie

I found proof that heaven exists
In your arms is a calming bliss
And I don’t want to miss a second
Of your love, you’re sent from above
Forever can’t wait, you’re my saint
Eternity is fine with me, bliss endlessly
Jenni Littzi Aug 2018
I’m well aware of all my faults
From my looks, attitude, to talk
You pointing them out isn’t a thing
I’m my own worse critic in that game
You can stand, judge, and cringe
But it’s none of your business

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest

They don’t think about me
What I can’t do or even eat
They don’t understand the pain
It’s not them, so why care
The truth is such a shame
Maybe my life is kind of lame, but

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest

I will fully blossom in time
Don’t believe me, that’s fine
Your opinion, wrong, is your right

I don’t live for anyone else
And I still blossom by myself
Yes, I may be kind of a mess
But you’re not the one, so rest
I will fully blossom in distress
Jenni Littzi May 2019
I seem to have a knack for bad situations
I mistakenly give them warm salutations
No matter how good I really do try and be
Trouble is always around the corner for me

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

Not being able to control is hard for me
I can’t manipulate things, driving me crazy
They tell me what to do to start the race
But they aren’t comprehending my pace

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside

I’m so sick of living a lie
I’m tired of the constant fight

I try to joke and smile by putting on a show
I’ve endured more than they could ever know
They wouldn’t even ever fit into my shoes
To begin a glimpse of what I go through
I know most won’t understand, so my plan
Is all alone at night, I will sit and I will cry
I breakdown temporarily from the inside
Jenni Littzi May 2018
I can’t stop the tears falling down
I can’t turn upside down this frown
How does one stay grounded?
Within this mess of a world

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token

To say it’s complicated; understatement
It’s more than just a depressed day
It’s my life, it’s always, it’s the way
And I try everyday to break away

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token

I’ll break free eventually
Just believe in me

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token
Jenni Littzi Feb 2019
Things did not go as planned
I believe I need a helping hand
To guide me though the mistakes
To help overcome the heartbreaks

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

I hope there are second chances
And new beginnings to enhance
Just like a caterpillar and butterfly
I too one day will again fly high

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

Change is inevitable, go with the flow
You never know so I must just let go  

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name
Jenni Littzi May 2019
Everything seemed perfect, yes, seemed
It was an illusion that you would beam
Took me for granted, I ask “why me?”

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give

I guess this is what it comes down to
You think you’ve won, one day you’ll lose
It will be in the stars, the biggest news

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give

I’ll cut you out of the memories in time
“Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind”

All of your lies that you conceal to hide
Always thinking that I wouldn’t grow wise
So hard I tried to hide the tears I cried
But starting now, I’m so done with it  
Because I realized my pride was missing
Broken promises were all you would give
Jenni Littzi Aug 2018
You haven’t swam in my current
Taking me underneath further
Or prospered in a tornado storm
Like I’ve had to many times before

I have weathered the worst
But many think my life’s perfect
When some days it’s not worth it
I’m broken here, but hope is near
The storms must eventually pass

A hurricane has come
I have no where to run
Lightening strikes
But I will be all right

I have weathered the worst
But many think my life’s perfect
When some days it’s not worth it
I’m broken here, but hope is near
The storms must eventually pass

The quicksand pulls
But I keep ahold

I have weathered the worst
But many think my life’s perfect
When some days it’s not worth it
I’m broken here, but hope is near
The storms must eventually pass
Jenni Littzi May 2018
I’m choking on your lies
Flying at me like bullets
And your mouths the gun
It’s time for goodbyes
I can not control it

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I guess this round you won
You kept pulling the trigger
Now you regret it, it figures
But get the hell out now
Because I’m done feeling down

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

Bang, bang I’m gone
It’s time to say so long

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?
Jenni Littzi May 2019
I’m choking on your lies
Flying at me like bullets
And your mouth is the gun
It’s time for goodbyes
I can not control it

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I guess this round you won
You kept pulling the trigger
Now you regret it, it figures
But get the hell out now
Because I’m done feeling down

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

Bang, bang, I’m gone
It’s time to say “so long”

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?
Jenni Littzi Jul 2018
I know nothing worthwhile
Comes without sorrow in life
As I try to do what’s right
I know the line is blurred, so I fight
My feeling dissipate to black and white

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died

Easily slipping to that dangerous place
I know I can’t quickly or easily escape
Feeling weak, but I know it’s all me
Being stubborn got me there to begin
I respect that, but getting out is difficult

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died

I won’t let go of the good to the bad again
But if it’s been too long, please come searching

You heard the lies and said your goodbyes
You often cry, others your numb at times
But deep down inside you know
The butterflies just died
Jenni Littzi Jul 2018
It may seem all like beauty
Through all the scrutiny
There is more to see
Take the hurt and pain
And watch what you paint
Make my sorrow worthy

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams

Even without sunshine
She bloomed like a rose
Starved from the water
Up and open she grew
Thorns from the others
Protecting her, she knew

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams

The battles are done, the war is over
Thought I’d lost, but it was an eye opener
I am still here, dodged a bullet there
Can’t fight too long, when you’re in the wrong
I know it is time to move along

Behind those eyes, the tears that cry
From having my butterfly dreams
And rainbow means, even if the glitter stings
I won’t let go of all my dreams
Jenni Littzi Oct 2018
Maybe I have missed my chance
I could have messed up my plans
Might have taken away my stance
Everything that I tried to do, I can’t

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning

Chances, I was about to take
But I just needed a break
So it turns out, didn't work out
I was only bound to stay down

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning

I guess I’ll try that chance again
I ask what I have to lose then

All my life is spent daydreaming
You’d think that I keep believing
But it’s all just lost it’s meaning
Jenni Littzi Mar 2021
Change, how it is so bittersweet
It can be as beautiful as the fall leaves
Bringing you calm and inner peace
Or it can be as cruel as lies and deceit  
Bringing you to your knees in defeat
I might add to this, too, I feel I’m just being lazy - it’s a phase.
Jenni Littzi Jun 2018
There is a rain cloud, just above
Fogging up all my judgement
I need an umbrella until the sun
Breaks through this weather
And the colors are more bright
Than my dark side is tonight

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Rain falls unexpected and you hide away
Or get wet starting anew life this way
With or without, closed or open eyes
You can not escape the sight
Change hurt you and yet it’s true
It’s what you need to do to continue

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Grew out of the dirt and into the light
She blossomed so heavenly and scented so nice
Nothing could stop her, or so she thought
She withered and wilted away one day
Petal by petal blew in to the wind
Her strongest part wasn’t her beauty
But it was her roots and stem

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur
Jenni Littzi Mar 2019
Just wanted a goodbye kiss, acknowledgment
Wanted to know what was legit
Just needed to get pass all of the *******
But you just would not quit it

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

I actually want to see you more happy in some way
To know leaving me was the right way
And that even for me it wasn’t a mistake
But I am not sure I’ll find that day

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

Now it’s time to say so long to all the memories
Maybe the good ones I’ll still keep...

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door
Jenni Littzi May 2021
I both cleanse myself from
Selfishness and resentment
To find peace, contentment
And I cleanse myself from
Jealousy and begrudging
Because no one has a right
To really be the one judging
I cleanse myself completely
Of what matters to me
Misrepresentation of all
Some of my life experiences
Where I happened to fall
I let go of what others think
I can’t control their views of me
So I bathe myself within
My own self-acceptance
And the enlightenment
Full of understanding
Thank you for guiding me
Universe, and your blessings
I know you choose the best path
I trust your timing, love, and craft
Affirmation Prayer.
Jenni Littzi Aug 2018
Lips so red, like cherry blossoms
Won’t be able to get enough of them
Blue eyes that are as clear as the sky

Personality like a snake charmer
But no harm comes from her
You just can’t come at her harder

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure

Hair golden like the morning sun
Yeah, I think I have found the one
My search around is finally done

Skin as soft and perfect as porcelain
To feel her is when it really ends
As that is when you ascend to heaven

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure

Long legs sway with cute little feet
She’s not perfection, but she’s petite
Promise, you will never want to leave

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure
Jenni Littzi Sep 2018
Hello there, dear
I want you near
Forever and a day
I want you to stay
There must be a way

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come

Do not forget about me
Because you’re all I see
And you’re all I need
To live most happily
And to feel most free

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come

It has just begun
Just dream away  
Don’t worry, ***

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come
Jenni Littzi Nov 2019
Broken-hearted, perfectly is started
I tripped and fell and got lost in a spell
Went down hard and I’m in so deep
That is why I scraped up my knee

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me

I still crave your kiss, your touch, your love
But I’m trying to accept you had enough
While walking around, living like I’m tough
Now I must see that it’s over and done

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me

This is my simple request
After you made me a mess

I’ll give you my best, if you’d just let
Me have my sincere apology already
Because it doesn’t take psychology
To know that I need closure here
So far, you left me so insecure
And fighting off old and new fears
So won’t you give me what I need
Hand over my closure to me
Jenni Littzi May 2018
I hope you don’t mind
I put down in words
How wonderful life is
Now that you’re in my world
I didn’t know it’d be this joyous
It is a blessing for us
I love having you around
And I want to tell the town

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all

Always there when I need it
Always make sure I’m treated
Count on you through thick and thin
My lover but became my best friend
Now that you’re here with me
I just feel totally completed
You are the best that there is
And I will tell the whole city this

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all

Times get tough, but we get rough
Life goes by, but you’re by my side
Communication is key for you and me

I don’t want to be another girl
Just another girl, in your world
I want it all and I will not stop
I’ll still be on cloud nine after it all
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