Fill one with tears and let them float
Away in the ocean with the Earth
Fill one with love and keep it close
For that day you feel you just
Can’t make it through the worst
Fill a third with laughter
And never forget It exists
Lastly, leave one open for
That “just in case” wish

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

Poured your feelings all into a jar
Trapped until they’re overflowing
And you can’t make it stop
It all catches up, but let it go now
Harmony may still come
Learn to walk away that
Which is not your part
Nurture the soul
And kiss the heart

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

Don’t lose yourself in their selfishness
Don’t run from what’s already done
They do, start anew, just for you
Accept what is gone
But turn around and gain what is now
Pull the cord and sail on your own
Into the rain clouds unknown

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

One wants to start over slow,
And hide me from the show
Another often disappears
From me right in thin air
I attract and get infatuated
With the ones acting like babies
They haven’t grown up to settle
I always get stuck in the battle
I always find the immature ones
Afraid, having commitment issues
They all have excuses they give you
But can’t man up and share what’s inside
Leaving me crazy and feeling deprived
Only I can stop this game they play
Throw in the towel, finally call it a day

I didn’t know how to deal
With the changes I endured
It all was eventually fulfilled
I swear it happened over night
Can’t believe it wasn’t in my sights
I feel like I was robbed of my life

It seems so inconceivable
That this is me now
It seems so unbelievable
I let this occur, how?

I look in the mirror
I don’t know what it is I stare
Who is that standing there?
Imposter, get out of here
Call me conceited but I’m gone
This is not how I belong

It seems so inconceivable
That this is me now
It seems so unbelievable
I let this occur, how?

Now that I’m aware where I’m at
How do I get my body back

It seems so inconceivable
That this is me now
It seems so unbelievable
I let this occur, how?

Make up your mind, I don’t have the time
My energy is limited and so is my patience
So stop keeping me waiting, it’s degrading
I need you to take control, put on a show

I want everything or nothing, no middle
I need you to give it all, not just a little
Somebody’s still gotta have the *****
To come to me and give it their all

If it is you, then please let me know soon
I keep my distance, but I’ll keep my wishes
Be there for me, all the way, start to finish
I am elevated. So do not keep me waiting

They left and I wondered and cried
Confusion, had to open my eyes
Whether they were ever true or not
Their time with me did come to a stop
Learned the void I filled was no longer in need
So they tossed me out, so selfishly
It’s left me with more confusion, though
Now wondering who will come just to go
I’m a convenience, a stepping stone
I know this, because I was informed so
Now I go about my way, cynical as hell
I guess, the confusion taught me well

You speak the truth like a politician
Engaged with others in a conversation
You steal the show at another’s event
So do you care what’s even meant?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy

You know how to twist the truth into a lie
Just as if it were you trying to save a life
You’d have someone fall for the laugh
So would you leave me in a draft?

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy

It’s all about you, you, you
Forgetting how to act
Not knowing what to do

I must ask, how backwards can you be?
Do you know to get from point A to B?
Could you cause anymore controversy

Forever came very freaking fast
After you promised that we’d last
Couldn’t even make it a year
Once she came and appeared

Now here I am, where I stand
Broken promises, broken brain
Because you must be insane
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because I never see you smile

Had big plans together soon
Lucky they never went through
Still your timing was impeccable
And your lies were unacceptable

Now here I am, where I stand
Wasted my time, what a ploy
I must have been your toy
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because I know you’re unhappy

You can’t help me because you sent
Me on this endless ride to resentment

Now here I am, where I stand
There you are, where you fall
Now the shows over, that’s all
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because you’re dead to me

I never knew I wanted someone like you
Until out of the blue, you came along
And pursued me just long enough
I feel you did it all the right way
Wish for myself, I could say the same
Now I’m judging others based on your qualities

Since now you’re all I can manage to concentrate
I feel you’ve been the one for me that got away
And because you left we would fade
Now I wait for the glorious day
That you make your way back to me
Please let it be just eventually, I’m here

We seemed to be from two different worlds
One reason I held out on getting to know you
I couldn’t imagine you enjoying my company
And I was just too fragile to be used so soon
I didn’t see much need in having time misused
For either of us, assuming we’d be doomed

When I gave it a chance, you had to go
Would you have stayed for me, I don’t know
If we only began earlier on though
And now you always go “ghost”
I have no way to know if it’s personal
But I’m still here waiting to go further

The reasons I can’t forget are a cinch
You are smart and also ambitious
Rare to find anyone goal oriented
Even harder to find common sense
But you surely have plenty of all this
You gone is the only flaw I don’t get

Most of all, besides physical attraction
Your smile and eyes are holding me tight
You could always make me laugh and smile
I hope you know your own wonderful qualities
And can’t forget, loved that you didn’t care less
About any going one with sporting events

I miss your stubbornness and sarcasm
Even though you drove me up the wall
I will also miss yours and my tickle fights
Even though you’d win all the time
Good luck to you, even if not mutual
Whatever I did, I can assure, I won’t forgive

I won’t mean to do this but I know I may
Hold out for my “hello” acknowledgement
Only for now, goodbye “Prince Phillip”
I wish I could sleep another century
Your messed up Sleeping Beauty
Country boy, let me be your cutie

Always dream of being someone I’m not
I get stuck in there, in all of my thoughts
I just want to be my true self, not asking a lot
But to achieve this, it must be fought
The truth I seek inside cannot be taught

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

It can be so hard, leaving who you are
But who you can be is not very far
You may be slightly out of touch
However, you are never out of reach
Soon there will be no stopping me

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I just had to see I can do the same
I just had to know I can be the change

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

It’s easy to lose your mind
When there’s issues all the time
I’m not as blind as you think
Because below I’ll sure sink

Sometimes I get crazy
I can’t even say maybe
You treat me like a fool
And then I lose my cool
And do things I shouldn’t do

May be a little jaded
Since your love faded
Acting unusual to me
Lying through your teeth

Sometimes I get crazy
I can’t even say maybe
You treat me like a fool
And then I lose my cool
And do things I shouldn’t do

I will get back at you
If it’s the last thing I do
This continues

Sometimes I get crazy
I can’t even say maybe
You treat me like a fool
And then I lose my cool
And do things I shouldn’t do

I’m addicted to the way you keep me
At arms length, but I keep on reaching
Got me addicted to you, what do I do?
When you go ghost, I want you the most

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

I know it’s not smart to play the game
But I can’t help it, I’m not even ashamed
You got me playing by all new rules
And I have been acting out like a fool

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

Just give me your attention, now and then
I promise not doing so would be a miss
Bring my sanity back, stop acting whack

I have gone just a little crazy
With the way you cause me waiting
With how you’ve treated me lately
I know that I am wrong for staying  
Your actions have consequences
And now you are going to get them
A good girl placed into your world
It’s a fact, turns bad, that is for sure
It’s your charm and it is your lure
But you’re oblivious, making me crazier
So crazy, crazy, crazy, I have a lot to stir

I’m not so gone that
I can’t see what’s wrong
All the picture perfect
It was all not worth it

Again, I cried myself to sleep
The tears gave me some relief
Until I drifted off not so peacefully
I’ve let my pain take the lead
But stronger than I is we
Thank you for believing in me

Not everyone stayed around
To watch what went down
Had their own lives to lead
But then there was we

Again, I cried myself to sleep
The tears gave me some relief
Until I drifted off not so peacefully
I’ve let my pain take the lead
But stronger than I is we
Thank you for believing in me

Can’t rely on just anyone
But I’ve got the best one

Again, I cried myself to sleep
The tears gave me some relief
Until I drifted off not so peacefully
I’ve let my pain take the lead
But stronger than I is we
Thank you for believing in me

There’s always been a side
One that’s not so pretty
She’s not in the mirror or here
This is not your definition case
She’s deep in the eyes, hiding idle
You won’t see her, unless you truly look in
Underneath the facade she wants you to believe in

It’s unexplainable, cold, dark, lonely, and shattered heart
Lost broke with an image that’s distort
More than a drug of natural pain killers
It’s past her mind and into her soul
She sees her blood to feel and know she’s more
The control is there is else, nowhere
The pain is a rush, like a bad relationship

Crimson red brings satisfaction to light
She deserves it, it was worth it, all the disguise
Her best friend is now a shiny, sharp object
It’s too difficult to explain to outsiders
Please, secretly want it and know nothing different
Break any addiction or bad habit combined
Along with feeling closed in at desperate times

Dissipating, aggravated
Feel I can no longer take it
Far from an emancipation  

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

Intangible, invisible
That is this girl
In this big, lonely world

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

So delicate, yet strong
So imaginative, yet lost

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

I get lost inside my mind
Thinking of the past times
I think of all my mistakes
And what I could have made
If only different paths I stayed

I’m just worn out, being me
Stuck inside this horrible body
I find it hard to keep my sanity
Getting by doesn’t come easy
I’m better off just daydreaming

I imagine what could be
If I were just someone else
A better version of myself
I stay daydreaming about it
My mind racing, never quits

I’m just worn out, being me
Stuck inside this horrible body
I find it hard to keep my sanity
Getting by doesn’t come easy
I’m better off just daydreaming

Hopes and dreams, of the girl that I used to be
I hardly remember, will she come back to me?
In bittersweet September, need change like the falling leaves
Instead I just feel my tears running down my cheek
Is there anything left, have I become too weak?
Answer me please, do I still have a destiny that’s waiting?

Is there no turning back, learning you’re on the wrong path?
Tell me it’s not, “that’s that” and there’s more than the bad
I survived some harsh attacks, so out came my rathe
Maybe I cracked, but my heart always knows where it’s at
I’m learning I don’t have to take it sitting back, I can relax
My destiny to follow through with is what I have

Hopes and dreams, of the girl that I used to be
I hardly remember, will she come back to me?
In bittersweet September, need change like the falling leaves
Instead I just feel my tears running down my cheek
Is there anything left, have I become too weak?
Answer me please, do I still have a destiny that’s waiting?

Reputation like Marilyn Monroe
I’m known as the girl next door
I’ve been the classic blonde bombshell
Even the most innocent angel

I’ve caused my share of trouble
Leaving damage along the way
I’ve been too naive and easy
Desperate for one love for me

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
My crime is trying too hard to win
Something that I needed from within
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Beauty can’t change it; the forsaken

Spent a life at fighting in my head
So many tears behind the curtains
Smile and pretend to have it all
By reflection, who is the girl I saw?

Be the best at everything; a queen
Manners, appearance are everything
But they all want me now, my baby
I can dress up and make it *****

I didn’t mean to do it, at all
Learned the hard way with her
Miss Monroe, you had to fall
They won’t let you win in society
You can’t be the ***** and lady
No way to tease and be classy
I didn’t mean to do it; to do either

Legacy and memory will support
No matter the judgements; distorts
There are love, truths, and non-users
Only too late, for some lost females

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
Beauty had forsaken and taken me
What I wanted, was my crime spree
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Us girls, Miss Monroe, didn’t mean it

Fascination grows, history repeats it

I feel I did all that I could
But none of it was good
Not enough at all for you
Just couldn’t get through

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

I think that I tried hard
To keep you by my side
Not enough at all for you
Just couldn’t get through

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

You blew it up
Our love fell apart

I tried to be all you need
Didn’t work, what a ****
I needed to be all you want
That sure was something

I’ve thought you are the best
But I’m going to put that to rest
Because it’s obvious you’re not
For me and so it’s gotta stop

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

For being so certain, I’m confused
On why I can’t get back through to you
Maybe that’s really how it’s meant to be
Now I’m thinking you’re not meant for me

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

I will let you go, but know
I would have been wonderful
To you...

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

I am so sick of living life as a lie
And being broken on the inside
Not knowing how quite to survive
Asking over again why me, oh why

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying

Lost everything in a blink of an eye
Couldn’t hang on no matter how I tried
Maybe if I held on a little bit more tight
I could have salvaged something of my fight

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying

I just want to give up on what’s left
After spending so much time in a web

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying

Reputation like Marilyn Monroe
I’m known as the girl next door
I’ve been the classic blonde bombshell
And even the most innocent angel

I’ve cause my share of trouble
Leaving damage along the way
I’ve been too naive and easy
Desperate for one love for me

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
My crime is trying too hard to win
Something that I needed from within
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Beauty can’t change it - the forsaken

Spent a life fighting in my head
So many tears behind the curtains
Smile and pretend to have it all
By reflection, who is the girl I saw?

Be the best at everything, a Queen
Manners, appearance are everything
But they all want me now, my baby
I can dress it up and play *****

I didn’t mean to do it at all
Learned the hard way with her
Miss Monroe, you had to fall
They won’t let you win in society
You can’t be the ***** and lady
No way to tease and be classy
I didn’t mean to do it, to do either

Legacy and memory will support
No matter the judgements - distort
There are loves, truths, and non-users
It’s only too late, for some lost females

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
Beauty had forsaken and taken me
What I wanted was my crime spree
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Us girls, Miss Monroe, didn’t mean it

Fascination grows, history repeats it

I just wanted to leave
My footprints in the sand
But everything I try, it ends
I can’t find my place on this land

Dreams are hard to catch
But you’ll never know
Until you throw that ball

I’m just trying to make you proud
But you lost faith in me long ago
I just want to leave my mark
Please, no more scars

Dreams are hard to catch
But you’ll never know
Until you throw that ball

Everyone fails, falls and loses
Just keep on creating

Dreams are hard to catch
But you’ll never know
Until you throw that ball

He thinks I’m beautiful
Like a Hollywood girl
Like in the pin up world
Says I’m his favorite star
His need for me is dire

I wear my red lip stick
With my favorite outfit
The one with the slits
Know how to work it
Strap up my best heels
Having five inch feels
Got the bling on show
Almost ready to go
Do up the hair just right
Then ready for the night
Because I’m dressed
Dressed to impress

I can put on a show
I know how it goes
Have everything
Down to a tee
Ain’t ready for me

I wear my red lip stick
With my favorite outfit
The one with the slits
Know how to work it
Strap up my best heels
Having five inch feels
Got the bling on show
Almost ready to go
Do up the hair just right
Then ready for the night
Because I’m dressed
Dressed to impress

Any time it’s time to impress
I am ready to accomplish it

I wear my red lip stick
With my favorite outfit
The one with the slits
Know how to work it
Strap up my best heels
Having five inch feels
Got the bling on show
Almost ready to go
Do up the hair just right
Then ready for the night
Because I’m dressed
Dressed to impress

Treated me bad because it was easy
Never imagine you were so ******
Had me fooled with all the love talk
Now completely dead you can drop

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

I truly felt like such a fool
For always believing in you
Because it turned out to be
You could sell me out easily

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

Die, goodbye
I’m done this time
Die, goodbye
My love you won’t find

If he dropped dead now I’d be happy
There would be no reason to be sappy
Because things went way beyond ******
And even though it’s been a long time
I’ll never forget how it made me feel inside
So he can just go right ahead now and die

I just want to be magical
Have the power to change it all
Something sensational
That no one could imagine so

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

You can’t put me back together
On my own, I have to weather
How to make my own self better
Surely the pain can’t last forever

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

One day timing will be on our side
Things will finally line up just right

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

I have waited so very long
For a moment to visualize
After I have always realized
It’s all about you, the way you do  

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

Longing each day, longing each night
Really hope you don’t put up a fight
Need you so bad with all my might
It’s just what has always felt right

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

Merely, eagerly reaching out
And eagerly singing aloud

If I say I love you, if I eagerly reach for you
What would you say, what would you do?
Could I get to you, could I phone through?
Would it be a catastrophe or could I get to?
How could I get an answer, how to be sure?
If I eagerly come to you, what would you do?

Amethyst on my wrist
Assists me to coexist
In this world, so that I  
May feel contentment
My intuition, so strong
Pendulum in chakras  
Have my Rubies in my pocket
To make sure that I sock it
Passionately deep, like its pink
I will overcome challenges
And correct imbalances
I rather make a ripple
Than stay still, crippled
And I will be alright
As I got that liquid light
From my wand of Selenite
Daily, clean away the negativity
No longer phased by others’ activities
It took a long time, but I’m good
And I see things as I should
My new ways, I embrace
I thank the Universe, always

Just a sweet and fragile girl
Trying to figure out the world
Riddled with fear and anxiety
Learning who one should be

How did life become such a mess?
I disgress, now I  feel emotional less
I usually care way too much, too fast
But something changed since the past
I am robotic, so not the norm for me
I live on, now become, less emotionally

I have cried a trillion times in life
But it seems I have finally run dry
I have given away so much of me
That there’s nothing left to see

How did life become such a mess?
I disgress, now I  feel emotional less
I usually care way too much, too fast
But something changed since the past
I am robotic, so not the norm for me
I live on, now become, less emotionally

They say that life is karmic
But I haven’t been so charmin’

How did life become such a mess?
I disgress, now I  feel emotional less
I usually care way too much, too fast
But something changed since the past
I am robotic, so not the norm for me
I live on, now become, less emotionally

Friendships don’t always last forever
I should have been prepared for never
Because there is and end to eternity
Cheers to the end of you and me

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

Obviously, we’re no longer meant to be
I wish earlier I could have foreseen
I can do better without your fake ness
Now all I see in you, is shameless

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

Sometimes I miss our memories
But also feel saved in reality

I’ve known you a quarter a century
Said you’d always be there for me
But you traded me off so simply
Told me “that’s that” so easily
I had to accept the bad or walk away
Was hard but dignity told me don’t stay
So now you turned us into enemies

I can easily say, it started out so perfect
Progressing fast, but I wasn’t nervous
Really believed it was different this time
But I guess I just ignored all the signs

He tells them all I’m crazy
When I was once his baby
He was proud to call his lady
Now he acts all innocent
Like it’s straight up me
When he is the one
That made us enemies

Held him on a pedestal, **** he fell too
The person I loved the most, became a joke
Now I do loathe everything I would boast
But he says it was me, telling everybody

He tells them all I’m crazy
When I was once his baby
He was proud to call his lady
Now he acts all innocent
Like it’s straight up me
When he is the one
That made us enemies

I hope deep down he is truly ashamed
He may keep his story and play his game
The truth is in my heart, I know what he did
Because you make a good girl turn, when you burn her

He tells them all I’m crazy
When I was once his baby
He was proud to call his lady
Now he acts all innocent
Like it’s straight up me
When he is the one
That made us enemies

There is a pattern here
Rest assured, I see it there
To myself, it is not fair
But let go, I don’t dare

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

The more I fight, it’s like quicksand
I just get stuck in there deeper then
I continue to be glued to you
No matter what it is I do

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

I have no excuse in this case
I can’t escape your embrace

I can’t escape you, no matter what I do
And each time I fail, let us be real
You have a hold on me, that’s the deal
But I have no shame, you, I can’t escape

I was living life the best one could do
And it was in part thanks to you
So I never saw the ending reel
And that’s when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

Daydreaming is now how I spend time
Just thinking about all that went right
So I never could have seen the ending reel
And that’s about time when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

You were a huge piece, gone I see
As I never saw the ending reel
And that’s when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

Try to clear my mind
For the millionth time
What I really need
Is to escape reality
Get a moment of peace
So frustrated inside
That I can’t even cry
While on the blue pills
And I can’t even get high
Because it all makes me ill
There has to be a way
Please let me escape
It is hell living like this
It makes me want to quit
Pain is eating at my soul
Help me to just let go

It all goes dark in a matter of time
You’ll waste more, the harder you try
To fight what nothing can escape
Not even millions of light years away

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on or off
All depending on the odds
Even the stars far in the sky
Eventually burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

Lightening wakes up the night
A fire burns warm and bright
Forever is only a comforting lie
Changes are the universe and maker
Of death being apart of each life

The more energy you put in
You will not receive back
You will just burn away the wax
Quicker and miss out on living
So smartly use what you’re given

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on or off
All depending on the odds
Even the stars far in the sky
Eventually burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

We take everything for granted
Wanting what we cannot have
Life always looks more bright
Dreaming up the future you idolize
Not dealing with what’s in sight

It’s easier to run and lie, alright
Hide and play pretend tonight
It won’t stop the morning lights
Once there is only darkness left
You haven’t left the cycle yet

In time and space, even stars die
It’s never goodbye, just goodnight

It all goes dark, in a matter of time
You’ll waste more, the harder you try
To fight, what nothing can escape
Not even millions of light years away

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on and off
All depending, on the odds
Even the stars, far in the sky
Eventually, they burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

Lightening wakes up the night
A fire burns warm and bright
Forever is only a comforting lie
Changes are in the universe
And death apart of each life

The more energy you put in
You’ll not receive back
You’ll just burn away the wax
Quicker and miss out on living
So smartly use what you’re given

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on and off
All depending, on the odds
Even the stars, far in the sky
Eventually, they burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

We take it all for granted
Wanting what we don’t have
Life always seems more bright
Dreaming up the future you idolize
Not dealing with what’s in sight

It’s easier to run, to lie, alright
Hide and play pretend tonight
It won’t stop the morning lights
Once there is only darkness left
You haven’t left the cycle yet

In time and space, even stars die
It’s never goodbye, just goodnight

I’ve cried and been hurt a lot
Then you come and change my lot
I don’t know what to do without you
I’m so stuck on to you like glue
I don’t want to take it slow, too

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

I’ve made my share of mistakes
If I’ve done any to you, forgive me
But now for you my body aches
I have had many worries in life
But you make them all right

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

We’ll be stronger than ever
Because I plan on forever

Blood rushing through my veins
I really hope you feel the same
Give it some time and let me know
Boy, I don’t wanna ever let you go

I decided I needed to pack my things
And be on my own way for good baby
You play me once, played me twice
So I can no longer play with you nice

Ex boyfriend, you just don’t listen
What happen has become ancient
And I’m sitting here trying to forget
All of the things you said and did
It is far too bad for you that you
Now know what you’re missing

Just stop trying to reach out to me
What we had is in the books, history
I gave you all that you needed and more
And yet you still went off with that *****

Ex boyfriend, you just don’t listen
What happen has become ancient
And I’m sitting here trying to forget
All of the things you said and did
It is far too bad for you that you
Now know what you’re missing

I did my best to be the very best
But you still somehow wanted the rest

Ex boyfriend, you just don’t listen
What happen has become ancient
And I’m sitting here trying to forget
All of the things you said and did
It is far too bad for you that you
Now know what you’re missing

Don’t think that you’re the exception
‘Cause it’s gonna be a hard lesson
When he just does the expected
And just a matter of time to what’s next

You’re not the one who can change him
It isn’t meant to be like Barbie and Ken
Excusing his behavior isn’t him evolving  
He’ll never become what you’re longing

May have him now, but you’re a number
One day he’ll just leave you in a slumber
Flavor of the day and then he strays
You can’t change the bad boys ways

Remember history repeats itself
His pattern shows he’ll let you down
It shouldn’t even be a real question
Don’t think that you’re the exception

How can I be sleeping beauty
If there’s no such Cinderella
How can I find my Prince Charming
If there are no decent fellas

Call me naive
‘Cause I want to believe
In this cute little fantasy
But that’s just not happening

I’d rather it be my destiny
Where fairytales could find me
No choice of this, I won’t fathom
Anything surreal can happen
Even the unbelievable
Good will triumph over evil

How about a fairy godmother?
Someone to help me go under cover
An Angel or some pixie dust
Something I can’t see, but I can trust

If it’s delusions, that’s okay
Anything else is a mistake
Helpful creatures and the dwarfs
Leave me be with the singing birds

Trust me that I know it’s untrue
But dreams are what I hold on to
With none, what else would I do
But to get lost into a world
That’s just way too cruel

A story with happy endings
No more lies or just pretending
There has to be some magic out there
Or this world is just too unfair

I never opted to be a princess
I never believed in fairytales
I know that life can be a mess
I know that life can bring fails

I do need a fairy god mother
To fix up some things for me
But I’m wise enough to know
Nothing around is in my control

I don’t need saving here
So turn around your horse
I don’t need a castle to live
So forget about that course

You be the Beast, I be the Beauty
But that’s as far as we take it
No glass slipper will find your suitor
Fate is a mystery to believe in

So don’t go slaying any dragon
I’m not lying here asleep
Waiting for your magic
No dwarfs for me to keep

No magic to make it better
No, I’m not Miss Cinderella
And my heart is already froze
The Snow Queen has no control

They say when it rains, it pours
And you feel you can’t take anymore
You no longer feel like yourself
And it seems like no one can help

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

Like a tornado blowing on by
Feeling you can’t take more in life
It seems things will never feel right
But that’s really just a blimp in time

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

Hold on to your inner strength
Don’t let go of your inner faith

Have some faith inside of you
You are stronger than you knew
Even though you don’t know what to do
The skies will eventually clear fresh and new

It’s a good thing I’m not a god
Because I’m full of vengeance
It’s a good time to behave
I highly recommend it

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

I was up so high above
And now I’m here stuck
Now I’m paying for sins
That I did not commit

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

I just want to be
Happy
I just want to feel
Complete

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

My life is built up in fantasies
Of broken dreams and fallacies
I am trying to just escape reality
Me, feeling the energy that I lack
Trying to find a way to claim it back
Looking for a way to gain control
Dreaming of when my reality feels whole
As so far, it has taken its toll on my soul  
I can’t live forever inside of my fantasies
But I want to feel like I’m always dreaming

I don’t talk about the pain
What would it do anyway
They all expect me to move on
This time I’m just not that strong

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

I’m alone without your presence
But I pretend nothing happened
Waiting for the truth, waiting for you
But there’s nothing anyone can do

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

Don’t fret, Whatever I did wrong
I believe I have paid my debt
Don’t let, anyone take your dreams

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

I want you to know I love you all the way
Don’t always show it, but it’ll never change
I know you don’t always understand
But you’re always there hand-in-hand
Thank you for also being my friend

As a girl, you took me to all the doctors
As a child, you were there for field trip offers
I enjoy our time spent, so glad we have it
We’ve bonded over a lot and I’m grateful
I feel we’re closer now more than ever

To this day I still lean on you
I know financially it isn’t easy
So thank you for spending
Your hard earned money on me
I’d be lost without you helping my needs

You’ve taught me a lot and helped me grow
For that respect I can never fully show
I just hope deep down inside you know
You are a very wonderful father for sure
One of the best persons on this Earth

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

Oh **, it comes just once a year
A time for all to laugh and cheer
A feeling of merriment all around
And bells ringing that special sound

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

That mistletoe hung up above
Lights all lit up while nicely strung
Songs being sung down the street
Spying on gifts as the floor creeks

Festive memories being made
Children laughing all down the lane
Today is that special kind of day
Of the year for magic to appear
Because you’ll hear that sleigh
Knowing Santa is on his way

Took too much of your love
Overdosed in a short period
Got caught up in all the fun
Now it’s like a hallucination

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

Things are not very clear
You’re no longer really here
I take a step back to reality
Only to be withdrawing

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

I’m sick without your drug
I can’t get quite enough
Because I’m on too much
Then turned and cut me off

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

I was looking forward to tomorrow
Now I’m filled with so much sorrow
Bad news came and took away
The promising lookout I had from today
But that’s okay, now I just have more to say  

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside  

I see an obstacle in my view
And it seems to me, that it’s you
Not cool, so here’s what we gotta do
Go face-to-face, put you on the spot
Prove why you’re nothing that’s hot

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside

When I was weak, you gave me no mercy
Death’s the only way you’ll have me beat
And it is your ego on the winning streak

Suddenly, I’m ready to start a fight
I’m ready to go in, hit strong, and win
Suddenly, I know everything will be alright
My eyes have a sparkle and my face a grin
I see the finish line close by, in my sight
And I feel the fire in me, alive, deep inside

I  don’t always have all of the answers
And I must take a chance here and there
In fact, more questions may arise
Than would I could handle at a time

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

Good times come, bad times go
It is like playing a game of tug-a-war
Wake me up before it’s time to die
Let realize what I have in life

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

Changing seasons, changes reasons
It is the stroll of life we’re in

A flower blooms, a petal falls
The wind picks up and swirls it all
Where it ends up, is anyone’s call
That is life, you’re taking a draw

A flower is picked, used for its beauty
The prettiness fades, it’s no longer newly
We get our time to shine on this planet
Like a flower grows when it’s planted

Fly, butterfly, don’t fly away
You would be missed greatly
You have reasons here to stay
Always tomorrow will be a new day

Your troubles could actually fade
You just have to give your say
Push your troubles out to bay
Try, butterfly, this far you have made

Fly, butterfly, don’t fly away
You would be missed greatly
You have reasons here to stay
Always tomorrow will be a new day