Try to clear my mind
For the millionth time
What I really need
Is to escape reality
Get a moment of peace
So frustrated inside
That I can’t even cry
While on the blue pills
And I can’t even get high
Because it all makes me ill
There has to be a way
Please let me escape
It is hell living like this
It makes me want to quit
Pain is eating at my soul
Help me to just let go

I have a dream
A secret
That’s all I need
Don’t want to share
Just keep it in my care
Where I know it’ll stay
Lit in a bright flame
For me to cherish
And no one to damage
I like knowing it’s mine
To leave inside
Until due time
It’s what I want
But it’s okay
If it never comes to front
It’s all mine to love
Keeping it inside is enough
Because with a secret
It’s the only place I trust

Red hot lips, five inch heels
Fishnets, long blonde hair
Corsets - don’t touch!
Only made to stare
Toxic green eyes
Now lost in all she hides
It is all a big lie
Once a good girl
No longer cares
Walking with dark angels
To the devil’s lair
Thinking you’re gonna
Bring her back from there

I need you more than rainfall in deserts
Even more than shelter during a storm
And more than the sun provides Earth
I thrive in part from you, giving me life
Like oxygen keeps all us continuing on
To any flower, like a lily in growth
Longing for water and the rising sun
Like that, I also perk up when we talk

I need a safe place to hide and stay
Just for a little while to get away
I’m lucky that you are my Haven
Sheltering me from life’s evilness
On those days that I just need caring
You are my Haven, protecting me
With all there is, you’re all I need
Like a dose of medicine; my Haven

I love you like a wandering, lost soul
Whose finally found their answer
And can now rest, while peaceful
I love you more than I knew I could
Since I thought somebody like you
Was a myth, dream, and impossible
I love the butterflies, as we touch
To the comfort level we’ve accomplished

You’re my safe place to hide, to stay
Just for a little while to get away
I’m lucky that you are my Haven
Sheltering me from life’s evilness
On those days that I just need caring
You are my Haven, protecting me
With all there is, you’re all I need
Every breath I take is a moment

I am waiting for your embrace
Your kiss can cure any distress
I would be lost, I’d be such a mess
And still searching for my Prince
As without you here, by my side
I’d feel incomplete, but now I see
Only your existence within my eyes
I need a safe place to hide and stay

Just for a little while to get away
I’m lucky that you are my Haven
Sheltering me from life’s evilness
On those days that I just need caring
You are my Haven, protecting me
With all there is, you’re all I need
Sometimes I’ve given up on myself
But you greatly have reminded me

That there is hope for everybody
Even this girl at her absolute worse
I no longer feel mistaken or cursed
‘Cause when the bad comes my way…
I’m lucky that you are my Haven
Sheltering me from life’s evilness
With all there is, you’re all I need
Like a dose of medicine; my Haven

Stuck in my castle all alone
Telling irregularities all a no
I just need my one true love
I hope soon you finally come

Come and find me, Prince Charming
I’m waiting for you to set my heart free
But as of right now, you I cannot see
A rescue mission quickly is in need
That’s a real fact I share, indeed

I’d feel safe in your arms
Alone with all your charms
So blissfully, you and me
Making each quite happy

Come and find me, Prince Charming
I’m waiting for you to set my heart free
But as of right now, you I cannot see
A rescue mission quickly is in need
That’s a real fact I share, indeed

In a parallel universe
You and I are immersed

Come and find me, Prince Charming
I’m waiting for you to set my heart free
But as of right now, you I cannot see
A rescue mission quickly is in need
That’s a real fact I share, indeed

It’s a good thing I’m not a god
Because I’m full of vengeance
It’s a good time to behave
I highly recommend it

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

I was up so high above
And now I’m here stuck
Now I’m paying for sins
That I did not commit

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

I just want to be
Happy
I just want to feel
Complete

I don’t pray, I talk to the devil each day
I fight down these demons wanting to play
A fallen angel down on the low ground

The apologies get old
The more you say it
The less that it holds
So eventually it’s not
Personal to just let go

Who deserves your worse?
When you’ve been given best
I feel pity on how you’re a mess
But it doesn’t excuse everything
I know you’re not that stupid

Stay away this time
I mean you no harm
But I’m thinking of me
Not failing, but I quit
You are just too toxic

We have all been victims
Of feeling used and lied to
So why would one agree
To friendships tormented
Brought down to that degree?

Used to have a lot
Of people I’d trust
But I’d rather stand
As me, my one army
As strong as I need

Don’t come back this time
It will only be a next war
And I’m thinking of me
Never failing, but I quit
Because you’re too toxic

We all need help sometimes
But you take others for a ride
That drama was for our best?
You’re just looking out for us
Ha, manipulation at it’s finest

Goodbye my old “friends”
So long to once “lovers”
You live and I will live; me
With more common sense
No victim, nothing poisonous

I’m clean

I see I shouldn’t play
With danger; instead
Go on, learn my lesson on
What is wrong in sight
And too toxic to my life

You left our little bubble
And now you’re in trouble
Again
You left me alone to drown
Saying you’d be back around
When

You're standing in the shallow end
Stuck right there like in quicksand
I wanna help, but you’re out of reach
Nothing left to do as far as I can see
I’ve tried and tried and yet you fail
There’s nothing left for me to deal

You always said one more try
And I would always comply
Why
I’m learning I can’t save you
With all the things you do
Goodbye

You're standing in the shallow end
Stuck right there like in quicksand
I wanna help, but you’re out of reach
Nothing left to do as far as I can see
I’ve tried and tried and yet you fail
There’s nothing left for me to deal

They say people don’t change
And maybe that’s true but...
I gotta let go of you

You're standing in the shallow end
Stuck right there like in quicksand
I wanna help, but you’re out of reach
Nothing left to do as far as I can see
I’ve tried and tried and yet you fail
There’s nothing left for me to deal

Everything seemed just right
I made him my whole life
Now I’m questioning why
After I caught him in a lie

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

What a slap in the face that day
Realizing things would never be the same
I thought we were brought together by fate
Now I’m regretting ever seeing his face

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

Thought, you’re kidding right
But jokes on me this time

I said he had to be joking
Thought I had his devotion
I was under his potent potion
He played with my emotions
Causing all kinds of commotion
Guess I never really did know him
Now to move on, I must be open

Things sure did do a one-eighty
I’m worse off, this is crazy
And all I hear is maybe
I learned who was shady
And who to throw away

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

Getting my feet on the ground
I was so lost but now I’m found
Not sure how to get it done
But I’ll make sure I have won
Tell them they’ll see me when I’m done

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

It’s time to organize
And finally live my life

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

Karma is a belief
That we get what we need
That we deserve it
And should learn from it

Life is nothing bet an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon

When pushed, you get resist
But you just keep giving it
Until you can’t take no more
Seems life is keeping score

Life is nothing but an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon

I know you can’t help everyone
But everyone can help someone
Then it would keep going around
Just like an echoed sound

Life is nothing but an echo
You're reaping what you sow
You get back what you give
It’s all about what you put in it
Even if just a whisper, a hint
Or a slap in the face, to awake
What you notice in them, is in you
So don’t you judge too soon

That part of my life is over
I shall turn over my shoulder
I surrender to my new self
As I went and found peace
I even surrender to self-love
And it is so everlasting
I commit to letting go
Of all that I cannot control
I commit to success
And stride with pride
For me, myself to impress
And achieve my goals
I promise to remember
My body is a gift of mine
Too divine to waste my time
As I align with you, Universe
I give my all, to your blessings
I pray you take care of everything

Luck is not always on your side
You’ll have to somedays sacrifice
But then everything will be alright

I step back and take a very deep breath
Let me rummage through my treasure chest
Let me make certain that we’re all blessed
I’ll find a way to clean up this whole mess

Opportunities don’t always come easy
Sometimes you have to go through ******
To get through to all of the true beauty  

Step back and take a very deep breath
Let me rummage through my treasure chest
Let me make certain that we’re all blessed
I’ll find a way to clean up this whole mess

I’ll rub the genie’s bottle and ask for help
Where there’s a way, I’ll figure out how

Step back and take a very deep breath
Let me rummage through my treasure chest
Let me make certain that we’re all blessed
I’ll find a way to clean up this whole mess

Hopes and dreams, of the girl that I used to be
I hardly remember, will she come back to me?
In bittersweet September, need change like the falling leaves
Instead I just feel my tears running down my cheek
Is there anything left, have I become too weak?
Answer me please, do I still have a destiny that’s waiting?

Is there no turning back, learning you’re on the wrong path?
Tell me it’s not, “that’s that” and there’s more than the bad
I survived some harsh attacks, so out came my rathe
Maybe I cracked, but my heart always knows where it’s at
I’m learning I don’t have to take it sitting back, I can relax
My destiny to follow through with is what I have

Hopes and dreams, of the girl that I used to be
I hardly remember, will she come back to me?
In bittersweet September, need change like the falling leaves
Instead I just feel my tears running down my cheek
Is there anything left, have I become too weak?
Answer me please, do I still have a destiny that’s waiting?

Thought my chances for love
Were already gone and done
Then you came along so quickly
And changed everything for me

I finally knew without a doubt
What all the fuss was about
I had everything I could need
Until the day you left me

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

Some people never experience
Such an amazing connection
Like loving each others quirks
Fitting in your arms just perfect

And enjoying the same interests
Sharing compassion and patience
Feeling comfortable; amazing ***
But you just pushed it away forever

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

I would have stood by your side
Through anything and give you time
But you chose to run away and hide
While ripping apart my whole life

So, someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, I know, you’ll be too late

When I lie down in bed
You’re never in my head
No, not anymore dread
I’m better off in the end
I just sit back and watch you

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

Finally got what you deserved
Thought you had it figured out at first
Now you seem to be out for the thirst
So I’m glad I’m gone from your curse
I just sit back and watch you

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

Stuck in a corner under a rock
You just didn’t know when to stop
So now I just sit and watch as you’re

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

Reputation like Marilyn Monroe
I’m known as the girl next door
I’ve been the classic blonde bombshell
And even the most innocent angel

I’ve cause my share of trouble
Leaving damage along the way
I’ve been too naive and easy
Desperate for one love for me

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
My crime is trying too hard to win
Something that I needed from within
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Beauty can’t change it - the forsaken

Spent a life fighting in my head
So many tears behind the curtains
Smile and pretend to have it all
By reflection, who is the girl I saw?

Be the best at everything, a Queen
Manners, appearance are everything
But they all want me now, my baby
I can dress it up and play *****

I didn’t mean to do it at all
Learned the hard way with her
Miss Monroe, you had to fall
They won’t let you win in society
You can’t be the ***** and lady
No way to tease and be classy
I didn’t mean to do it, to do either

Legacy and memory will support
No matter the judgements - distort
There are loves, truths, and non-users
It’s only too late, for some lost females

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
Beauty had forsaken and taken me
What I wanted was my crime spree
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Us girls, Miss Monroe, didn’t mean it

Fascination grows, history repeats it

Not really, completely
The person I used to be
I changed, exquisitely
And now my frequency
Vibes are set too high
So, not gonna deal with lies

If they don’t like who I am
Then, also gotta say goodbye
Like Obsidian and Tourmaline
Rid them on out of my life
I am over making things right
I just seek peace, no more fights

I wish upon the stars and time
As magic requires a touch  
I know, dare, will, and keep shush
I only tell the moon my secrets
She helps me when I’m sleepless
I pray to the universe and spirits

For the best possible outcome for all
Harmony; I feel full inside of my heart
Happy right now, but I know I’m fragile
I know just how easily I could fall apart
Fall, just a random piece, like a shard
But I will stay strong, I will hold on
(this time)

I was living life the best one could do
And it was in part thanks to you
So I never saw the ending reel
And that’s when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

Daydreaming is now how I spend time
Just thinking about all that went right
So I never could have seen the ending reel
And that’s about time when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

You were a huge piece, gone I see
As I never saw the ending reel
And that’s when things got real

I don’t comprehend why we’re apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
Now a huge chunk of it has gone away
You are my biggest escape these days
As I am thinking of our happier ways
I escape back to another time and place

I’ll be the *** symbol but nobody’s lady
I’ll be the eye candy but nobody’s baby
I’ll tease ya, making you miss me
I won’t chase you either or please ya
I’ll just show off and leave you hanging

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust

You can look all you want
But you cannot ever touch
You can play the game with me
Just realize who is forever now in command
You will have a great time and then be alone again

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust

I refuse to be a victim anymore
So I’ve decided to take control
Admiration and lust
But never intimacy or love
Over and out, I’m all done

We all want to feel that spark
Chase it around until we’re burnt
Then we don’t understand how
Playing with fire got us hurt
Liar, liar, now ashes to dust

Go out of the box and initiate
Your own spark, no more fate
Only to work hard and still
Get hurt and knocked down
Tried too hard, so ashes to dust

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

Free from doubt, free from insecurity
Like your love, like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you, free from me

Too elusive to catch, yet try if you must
You’ll get near and think that you’ve won
But don’t joy in haste, as soon as you think
You’ve won, I’ll be gone in a different pace
If I comes by my own lot, you got me caught

Until then, I will swing away
Free from life, free from everything
And the demons, like the untamed
Like the crashing waves, free from society

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

I just want to be magical
Have the power to change it all
Something sensational
That no one could imagine so

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

You can’t put me back together
On my own, I have to weather
How to make my own self better
Surely the pain can’t last forever

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

One day timing will be on our side
Things will finally line up just right

I believe, my heart is weak
Feel the strength leaving me
Dark clouds gather in the sky
I need to learn how to get by
The pictures in my mind
That make up my life
They aren’t at all very nice
I’m drowning in sorrow tonight

I don’t even know what to say,
And it’s you that made me this way
I can’t even form a proper thought
On how things got messed up and lost

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met

You just popped me like a glock nine
Left me dead in my tracks, like a stop sign
I keep fighting these demons all the time
And I feel like I am losing my mind

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met

The subject on it is still really sore
I can’t even cry about it anymore

You can say you may not have meant it
But the damage you caused is permanent
I missed all of the signs I should have read
My shadow is now holding on by a thread
I would’ve been better off if we never met

I take it all back
It wasn’t all that
Guess it was a fad
So I ain’t even mad
Not gonna cry all sad
But it wasn’t all bad

I tried so hard to believe in you
But you did the things you’d do
I admit I wish you did come through
Still I’ll relax, it is done and I’m cool

It’s just over now
Go get the plow
I smell a foul
It’s gone down
Spinning around
I’ll sport my crown

I tried so hard to believe in you
But you did the things you’d do
I admit I wish you did come through
Still I’ll relax, it is done and I’m cool

It is what it is and I’m all done
I guess it’s another I couldn’t have won

I tried so hard to believe in you
But you did the things you’d do
I admit I wish you did come through
Still I’ll relax, it is done and I’m cool

So young and vulnerable,
things are rushing by so quick
Still too naive to understand it,
but that changes nothing

Don’t let anyone dull your affect
Shine just like you should, Starlet
It’s not their business, it’s your life
To live and not regret, rise Starlet
All day putting on a smile, but secretly every night crying
After all if you spoke up, no one would understand your pain

You’ve been strong for so long
So shine away now, Starlet
Make all of your own decisions
You’re the one living it, Starlet
Take hold, no looking back
Focus on your own track

Then you’ll be where you belong
Straight to the very top, Starlet
Your tears are dry and gone
You showed them you’re strong

Because you never gave up
Starlet, so bright, just shine
It is due time, you are a Star

I won’t be silent anymore
I won’t take the BS one more time
I am still the same sweetheart inside
But, I will say what is on my mind
Because I was once told,
“If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything”
From a patient of mine and a good remind
It’s hanging on my wall, now I understand
I now demand nothing but respect for myself
And I know where I stand, I won’t be silent ever again
I am who I am, but not who you say I am

Could have had a difficult chat
But you were too chicken for that
So I left you there, me a mess
As you proceeded to text your next ex

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

You thought that I was so stupid
But I figured out the truth quickly
Yet you still had nerve to tell lies
Now I want to see a final goodbye

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

Wouldn’t go back, want your ashes
Or your bones in a wooden casket

I hope you die and I would not cry
Cause you were never really on my side
You were my lover and my friend
I thought we were down until the end
Now I wish you dead, in a coffin
So much for real love it seems then

Forever came very freaking fast
After you promised that we’d last
Couldn’t even make it a year
Once she came and appeared

Now here I am, where I stand
Broken promises, broken brain
Because you must be insane
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because I never see you smile

Had big plans together soon
Lucky they never went through
Still your timing was impeccable
And your lies were unacceptable

Now here I am, where I stand
Wasted my time, what a ploy
I must have been your toy
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because I know you’re unhappy

You can’t help me because you sent
Me on this endless ride to resentment

Now here I am, where I stand
There you are, where you fall
Now the shows over, that’s all
But that’s okay, I’m cool now
Because you’re dead to me

I keep looking for acceptance in the wrong places
Like an empty man could somehow save all this
I’m trying to find closure in others like they have answers
Ones you couldn’t give me, like am I enough to be?
I treat them like they’re all you, giving me my due

I didn’t want to give it all up
But it was all just too much
And now I can’t get enough

I was physically falling apart
Losing it all just one-by-one
Then he had to break my heart

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I never wanted any goodbyes
But it was too much drama and lies
It all nearly cost me my life

Letting go is pretty hard to do
When so many had left you *******
But everyone’s life’s go on too

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Always getting too close, too soon
Always expecting to reach the moon

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything - maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place - Anonymous

Maybe it’s not about the butterfly becoming the butterfly. Maybe it’s about the butterfly unbecoming the caterpillar. 🐛 🦋 - Jenni Littzi

I both cleanse myself from
Selfishness and resentment
To find peace, contentment
And I cleanse myself from
Jealousy and begrudging
Because no one has a right
To really be the one judging
I cleanse myself completely
Of what matters to me
Misrepresentation of all
Some of my life experiences
Where I happened to fall
I let go of what others think
I can’t control their views of me
So I bathe myself within
My own self-acceptance
And the enlightenment
Full of understanding
Thank you for guiding me
Universe, and your blessings
I know you choose the best path
I trust your timing, love, and craft

Are  you gonna ignore me, for how long?

Being ghosted breaks my heart
I know a truth is a pill hard to swallow
Never should have said anything
But a misunderstanding started

And just because him and I
Don’t  see eye to eye on one thing in life
Didn’t mean you had to take sides
Disagreements are quite alright

What happen to fixing up you hair?
You were so passionate about makeup
No, you didn’t need it, but is was fun
So where have those things gone?

Does this really mean that 10 plus years
You suddenly can’t hear what you don’t
Wanna here, like the others I’ve know
Is that time worth throwing away?  

What did he say, I do wonder?
Did you laugh, agree, or pass it off
I’m sure it wasn’t nice at all
But I’m the one paying, feeling small

Are you going to ignore me, for how long?

You left me alone with a gun
I could have had all sorts of fun
That pain was horrific but I lasted
I nearly cracked but I got passed it

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

Now everything seemed perfect
Should have known it was worthless
One day I do hope it was all worth it
But what happens now, you deserve it

No thanks to you, I’m not okay
You’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

I’d say thank you for the good times
But you drove me absolutely insane

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

The devil is in control of my life
I just can’t seem to get it right
Just when I think I see the light
I am thrown back to another fight

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

I feel misery, just about constantly
Sometimes it is hard to breathe
I need the real me to be let free
Because surely, she is just buried

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

When asked how I’m doing,  I hide
Back the tears I have already cried
Can’t explain it to a soul, so why try
Kicked in the gut, left in the dirt
Pain is too much to have endured

I feel defeated and beaten
I wanted better, I do mean it
I must realize it’s out of my hands
It is up to higher above’s plan
To save me from the devil’s land
I need to accept what I can’t change
Fine a way to live with the deranged
The devil took my life away,  I’m not the same

I thought you were the sun and moon
Thought I was everything to you
Now I realize
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

I took too much time sit and to wallow
Looking back you were tough to swallow
Said you fell so fast
And I shouldn’t have followed
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Had it all, was managing fine
This was a first in my life
As a matter of fact then
You were the only to make me cry
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

If the mountain seem too big today
Then find a hill instead
If the morning brings you sadness
Then it’s okay to stay in bed
If the day ahead weighs heavy
And your plans feel like a curse

There’s no shame in rearranging
Don’t make yourself feel worse
If a shower stings like needles
And a bath feels like you’ll drown
If you haven’t washed your hair for days
Don’t throw away your crown

A day is not a life time
A rest is not  defeat
Don’t think of it as failure  
But a quiet, peace retreat
It’s okay to take a moment
With a fractured, fragile mind

The world will not stop twirling
As you anxiously get realigned
The mountain will still be there
When you want to try again
You can climb it in your own time
Just learn to love yourself until then

As delicate as flower petals
As rare as a precious metal
She cries out for some help
Put high away up on a shelf

Hidden away from the world
Is this one odd but lonely girl
If I could change a thing
It’d be her smile wavering
I’d distinguish from her frown
Lifting her all upside down

As fragile as pure glass
A free soul that grasps
At the chance to be free
Know that girl is me

Hidden away from the world
Is this one odd but lonely girl
If I could change a thing
It’d be her smile wavering
I’d distinguish from her frown
Lifting her all upside down

Fly away now butterfly
I’m now in the open sky

Hidden away from the world
Is this one odd but lonely girl
If I could change a thing
It’d be her smile wavering
I’d distinguish from her frown
Lifting her all upside down

I don’t talk about the pain
What would it do anyway
They all expect me to move on
This time I’m just not that strong

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

I’m alone without your presence
But I pretend nothing happened
Waiting for the truth, waiting for you
But there’s nothing anyone can do

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

Don’t fret, Whatever I did wrong
I believe I have paid my debt
Don’t let, anyone take your dreams

It feels like I’ve lived a thousand years
Without you near, but I’ll go
A thousand more, too
Until I can once again see you
Someday we will be reunited
Until then, I shall not fight it
Love takes time, they say    
So here’s til the day, I’ll trust fate

Her eyes are all dry
From crying inside
Battling the thoughts
Of becoming distraught
Love became a mirage
As he became a facade
Now she sits in silence
As calm as a statue
Her emotions are drained
There’s nothing to say

Sometimes I still think
Of you as eight years old
Yes, just that little girl
But you grew up somehow
Turned into a woman now

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

You begin a new chapter in life
A journey that takes might
But I know that you have strength
And you also got the brains
The little girl left, you came

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

No, there is no can’t here
You are on your way there

And you are beautiful
The out and in the soul
And you are dutiful
You can have it all
So of all the things
That I could sit and tell
Know that I wish you well

You always liked to say I’m crazy
But you should know that, baby
I was only ever acting up
Because you would make me

I’m going to be just fine, alright
I just want something low key
Honesty, trustworthy, and right
I just need more patience to see
That low key, hospitality is what I need

Your love as sort of an illusion
Had me caught up in confusion
It was all too good to be true
How did I miss that was the truth

I’m going to be just fine, alright
I just want something low key
Honesty, trustworthy, and right
I just need more patience to see
That low key, hospitality is what I need

It was always me that was the problem
But riding you seemed to solve them

I’m going to be just fine, alright
I just want something low key
Honesty, trustworthy, and right
I just need more patience to see
That low key, hospitality is what I need

I always have gotten kicked down
I have always been talked about
But each time I got on back up
Proved each naysayer wrong
Showing how strong I really was

But I’m afraid that this time
I won’t win this continuous fight
My life’s been at a complete stop
For the longest period ever now
And on how, I don’t see any way out

I swear there is no hate or resentment
I watch through others what I’m missing
The love and fun in my home states sun
Living to the full, I don’t have the control
I can feel my crying, entrapped soul dying  

It must be better than feeling stuck
Am I a curse or is it just random “luck?”
I would like to keep hold of some hope
But I feel as if I’m just in someone’s joke
Am I strong enough to release the cuffs

Lord I’ve tried, to be alright
An endless battle, every time
I feel I’m always in a fight

Its just like I’m in prison
Shackled up, handcuffed
Oh my gosh, time is up

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Another work in progress
And I always try so hard
Feels like I have to go far

Just more misery, fix me
Why is that a hard need?
I need to finally be free

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

This time, I hope it’s right
This time, I hope it’s my time

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Be like the butterfly
Let go of the past,
Free yourself from your cocoon
And embrace change,
Because it can be beautiful

I’m uncertain how to move on
From all the trauma caused
I took some mighty falls
I’ve been through near It all
I regret a lot, and feeling lost

I need some strength
To make it through the rain
So please, guide my way  
Show me where to stay
Until the dark weather strays
Lightning strikes, but it’s alright
Because I’m not talking about the sky
I’m observing the look within your eyes
I’m shy, but take my hand tonight
We can do whatever you’d like

You’re catching me every time
You are a rare gem of a find
I can’t lie, just go ahead be mine
Suffered years without you near
So let us now be certainly clear

I need some strength
To make it through the rain
So please, guide my way  
Show me where to stay
Until the dark weather strays
Lightning strikes, but it’s alright
Because I’m not talking about the sky
I’m observing the look within your eyes
I’m shy, but take my hand tonight
We can do whatever you’d like

I need what you give to me
Inner strength and my peace
It is true, that’s all that I need

I need some strength
To make it through the rain
So please, guide my way  
Show me where to stay
Until the dark weather strays
Lightning strikes, but it’s alright
Because I’m not talking about the sky
I’m observing the look within your eyes
I’m shy, but take my hand tonight
We can do whatever you’d like

Everything was gold and diamonds
It was like we created something from heaven
From the beginning it felt so perfect
I didn’t know something was lurking

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time

You were my precious stone
In a cruel world, I wasn’t alone
It was such a great match
Couldn’t imagine it wouldn’t last

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time

peace has deceased, we leave a catastrophe
The sadness takes over, it’s over

I hear the angels cry all night
Everything with you and I was aligned
No signs prior to what we now find
I can’t forget that you were mine
Something went on in the outside
I die a little inside from this crime
I didn’t commit it but I pay the price
Weeping angels cry all of the time

I would give it up real quick
Even more, all of the riches
If I could only, please, get
My body to just benefit
Even if just a little bit

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I see all the things I’m missing
Through others is how I’m living
I stay locked away in my cave
Both night and day, I do not play
In bed is usually where I stay

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

There are many things I miss
I need to pull through this

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I think at I’m pretty tough
I’ve been through a lot of stuff
Yet I’ve always managed to get up
But this is hitting me rough...

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

Never felt this way before
Beat up, fetal on the floor
Didn't see what would occur
What I would have to endure

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

It’s too late to stop, I’m  cold and distraught
A lesson was taught, but I’m worn out

Sticks and stones never broke my bones
But your actions broke my inner core
Left me crying there on the floor
I loved you so, you’ll never know
As time past, we just couldn’t last
The reality is something I can’t grasp
No hand to lend, I’ll sit here frozen

Please, I beg of you, give me a sign
Worried about a few favorite people tonight
I hope they’ll be alright, wake up in time
I hate I can’t live other people’s lives
Just try to show them what I learned is right
To stand up and rise again the next day  
I just hope when things fall how they may
That their massively big landing will be fine
But they must learn on their own to get by
There’s nothing to do, just get through
To you -