Nanni is a goat
That I know
And I love
Her so

Rainy is a goat
That I know
And I love
Her so

Nanni is a goat
That I know
And I love
Her so

Change, how it is so bittersweet
It can be as beautiful as the fall leaves
Bringing you calm and inner peace
Or it can be as cruel as lies and deceit  
Bringing you to your knees in defeat

I thought you were the sun and moon
Thought I was everything to you
Now I realize
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

I took too much time sit and to wallow
Looking back you were tough to swallow
Said you fell so fast
And I shouldn’t have followed
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Had it all, was managing fine
This was a first in my life
As a matter of fact then
You were the only to make me cry
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Her eyes are all dry
From crying inside
Battling the thoughts
Of becoming distraught
Love became a mirage
As he became a facade
Now she sits in silence
As calm as a statue
Her emotions are drained
There’s nothing to say

There is a rain cloud, just above
Fogging up all my judgement
I need an umbrella until the sun
Breaks through this weather
And the colors are more bright
Than my dark side is tonight

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Rain falls unexpected and you hide away
Or get wet starting anew life this way
With or without, closed or open eyes
You can not escape the sight
Change hurt you and yet it’s true
It’s what you need to do to continue

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Grew out of the dirt and into the light
She blossomed so heavenly and scented so nice
Nothing could stop her, or so she thought
She withered and wilted away one day
Petal by petal blew in to the wind
Her strongest part wasn’t her beauty
But it was her roots and stem

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

You left me alone with a gun
I could have had all sorts of fun
That pain was horrific but I lasted
I nearly cracked but I got passed it

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

Now everything seemed perfect
Should have known it was worthless
One day I do hope it was all worth it
But what happens now, you deserve it

No thanks to you, I’m not okay
You’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

I’d say thank you for the good times
But you drove me absolutely insane

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

Just wanted a goodbye kiss, acknowledgment
Wanted to know what was legit
Just needed to get pass all of the *******
But you just would not quit it

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

I actually want to see you more happy in some way
To know leaving me was the right way
And that even for me it wasn’t a mistake
But I am not sure I’ll find that day

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

Now it’s time to say so long to all the memories
Maybe the good ones I’ll still keep...

I can’t escape all you did to me
Long ago it was time to leave
But I let it all stay still and be
There’s so much I didn’t know
But now that chapter’s closed
We have had our final shows
Time for me to go ahead and go
Chapter’s closed, shut the door

I’ve thought you are the best
But I’m going to put that to rest
Because it’s obvious you’re not
For me and so it’s gotta stop

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

For being so certain, I’m confused
On why I can’t get back through to you
Maybe that’s really how it’s meant to be
Now I’m thinking you’re not meant for me

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

I will let you go, but know
I would have been wonderful
To you...

I think I’m finally done chasing you
Like you’re gonna change out of the blue
Yet I’ve been out here acting crazy
When you only gave me maybe
I feel like I’m always on the outside
After something that’s not mine
But now I’m leaving you alone
Because out of this game, I’ve grown

I want to look down from above
Just watch out for those I love
Watch the world from outside
Sit back and not have to have the fight

Enjoying the beauty and skylights around
While floating above the restrictive ground
I want to simply take care of others
One less to add to anyone’s troubles

Erase the anger and confusion I have inside
Only keep the parts of me I know are Devine
Perfection on this earth, is for me to take flight
That’s what is left for me here, to see the light

Let them all move on and forget about me
Become who I know I’m meant to be
A parallel caregiver for the world
My cost is no more pain for this girl

Just a heavenly creature who let go
No more reasons for the tears to flow
Finally find the real happiness I crave
I’m ready to become an Angel today

Red dirt roads, blue grass
Floating bubbles pass
Underneath a purple sky
Green lilies arise, for miles

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Floating on a cloud
At the end of a rainbow
Peaceful, clear water flows
Down the yellow rocks

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Butterflies stop by
Unicorns are always near
Pink stars at night
I’m happy away here

Lord I’ve tried, to be alright
An endless battle, every time
I feel I’m always in a fight

Its just like I’m in prison
Shackled up, handcuffed
Oh my gosh, time is up

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Another work in progress
And I always try so hard
Feels like I have to go far

Just more misery, fix me
Why is that a hard need?
I need to finally be free

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

This time, I hope it’s right
This time, I hope it’s my time

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

I would give it up real quick
Even more, all of the riches
If I could only, please, get
My body to just benefit
Even if just a little bit

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I see all the things I’m missing
Through others is how I’m living
I stay locked away in my cave
Both night and day, I do not play
In bed is usually where I stay

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

There are many things I miss
I need to pull through this

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

My life is built up in fantasies
Of broken dreams and fallacies
I am trying to just escape reality
Me, feeling the energy that I lack
Trying to find a way to claim it back
Looking for a way to gain control
Dreaming of when my reality feels whole
As so far, it has taken its toll on my soul  
I can’t live forever inside of my fantasies
But I want to feel like I’m always dreaming

I’m always walking a thin line of my sanity
Wondering what’s going to cause volcanity
Starting up the profanity, a mess of humanity
Everyone caught up in their mundanity and vanity
It’s all insanity, as they uttered inanities
The mess is immanity, we need urbanity

My biggest mistake, was not seeing how you’re fake  
Believing blindly to every word, looking back it’s absurd
I poured everything into you, thinking it was the right thing to do
You can’t treat people the way you choose to
Like actions have no consequences to you
Using others for a season, until a better reason
Comes to you’re liking, so I’m done fighting
This time it is really goodbye and I’m too angry too cry
I’ll walk away relieved and “let it go” like my Queen
I know what I’ve seen, my eyes are open to you now, I’m keen

The waves crash and the children laugh
Yet all you can hear is your inner fear
You hold on tightly to your past
You apologize, it just couldn’t last
And you can’t let go of how things are
Compared to how your memory sparks

Gasping and drowned by memories
That are taking you under real deep
On my knees, pleading for a case of
Amnesia so I can no longer overthink
Please free me from the past memories
I can’t live there anymore, I need freed

I won’t waste my time or put it to sake
It’s been tough but I know I’ll be okay
You were never any help anyway

I just got to make it through the pain
Find a way to make it to another day
Until I see, the light setting me free
Then I can find my way to thee

Things change and life goes on
Even as I write this song
By now, you are long gone

I just got to make it through the pain
Find a way to make it to another day
Until I see, the light setting me free
Then I can find my way to thee

I’ll be just fine without
Your reasonings and doubts

I just got to make it through the pain
Find a way to make it to another day
Until I see, the light setting me free
Then I can find my way to thee

Engage me with your mind
****** me with your actions
Give me a portion of your time
Make up for what you’re lacking
Capture me with all your ideas
My needs, you should be hacking
Comfort me through my fears
Don’t dare ever leave me in tears
Later, take your time, do it right
Make sure that I’m screaming
Your name all through the night
Leave me yearning for more
Don’t let me down or bore
Show me what you mean
And tell what what I need

Memories of my innocence
They’re scattered in the wind
Like blowing on a dandelion
I feel I have no way to win
So I should shut up and give in
I had no way to say no to them

Hello there, dear
I want you near
Forever and a day
I want you to stay
There must be a way

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come

Do not forget about me
Because you’re all I see
And you’re all I need
To live most happily
And to feel most free

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come

It has just begun
Just dream away  
Don’t worry, ***

Go to sleep little one
Just close your eyes
And let the sheep run
Dream away little one
The time has now come

You know you drive me crazy
Know I love being your lady
You have me daydreaming
You give me a lot of meaning

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in

I want you and only just you
You don’t know what you do
You are the one to blame
Yeah, you drive me insane

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in

You gave it all of you to me
I’ll never take for granted thee

I want to know you twenty-four seven
I want to see you 7 days per week
Baby, you are my forever heaven
I want to be with you AM to PM
Even if I must sneak you on in

Yeah, I have problems
But you can’t solve them
So don’t even bother

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

You keep on trying
I don’t see why you fight it
It’s an endless battle

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

Just let me do my own thing
I promise I will be okay

Apologies, but I will not divulge
I must keep my circle small
It is not for you to understand
Respect that or move on then

I always thought it’d be forever
I doubted our bond, would never
Be holding on by a string, unraveling
But you chose and it wasn’t me

And I’m not trying to be catty
Its just that I proclaim, seriously
I mean, she’s not even that pretty
But you chose and it wasn’t me

So you may be all their Prince Charming’s  
But open my storybook and you’ll see
The worst type of villain, I trusted you baby
And you were supposed to be a good one but Prince Charming -
Cheated -
And he wasn’t to me

While the whole world sleeps
I stay awake and think
About how things should be
At least, according to me
I won’t give in or let up
Over all the little stuff
If I cry, then they will dry
And I’ll carry on my blithe
I know that I will be fine
My crown is just to the side

Some chains can’t be broken
I’m due what I’ve been hoping
For a better way and better days
And love is what is to thank
Too many bonds have been made
The very ones you try to take
So try your best to weaken this
And drags us to your bitterness
But I’m not ever giving up
We’ve proven to be tough - love

The world is too small, in my eyes
Collide with them over again in life
I’m already and unsteady and terrified
Now you given me something
The reason I need to run and hide
To protect the wounds on the inside
Because one more cut to my gut
And my soul will surely die
I think it’s unavoidable this time
I will go where you can’t find

One too many surprises
Kinds by the negative light
Known as misfortune and lies
Have occurred during a short life
You would think by this time
The shock would greatly demise
And sheer disappointment would
Turn into absolute, impending doom
But I’m still here struggling - for you
Holding onto hope, as you should too

I never opted to be a princess
I never believed in fairytales
I know that life can be a mess
I know that life can bring fails

I do need a fairy god mother
To fix up some things for me
But I’m wise enough to know
Nothing around is in my control

I don’t need saving here
So turn around your horse
I don’t need a castle to live
So forget about that course

You be the Beast, I be the Beauty
But that’s as far as we take it
No glass slipper will find your suitor
Fate is a mystery to believe in

So don’t go slaying any dragon
I’m not lying here asleep
Waiting for your magic
No dwarfs for me to keep

No magic to make it better
No, I’m not Miss Cinderella
And my heart is already froze
The Snow Queen has no control

If you only knew,
What I put up with for you
If you could only see,
What it all meant to me

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only,  I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

The world is so crazy today
Maybe I shouldn’t be shocked
I just promise this is the last straw
I’m wiser with age, again I will never fall

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

Now I promise you I’m number one
When it comes to whom matters
I’ll fight until I’ve finally won
A right to be just me and happy

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

Things did not go as planned
I believe I need a helping hand
To guide me though the mistakes
To help overcome the heartbreaks

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

I hope there are second chances
And new beginnings to enhance
Just like a caterpillar and butterfly
I too one day will again fly high

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

Change is inevitable, go with the flow
You never know so I must just let go  

I’m just broken-hearted
Over the life I started
Once I was doing all right
Feel things changed overnight
Now it will all never be the same
Broken-hearted is my name

Many guys all fawn over me
But they’re not looking for keeps
And my eyes are only for you
I really want to know you more, too
At least as friends, even if that is it
Just say the word and let me in
I believe you won’t be disappointed
Because my eyes are only for you

I miss being a little girl
Expecting life to be fair
You grow up to realize
Nothing is organized
But you must keep trying
All day and into the night

You just gotta know
Difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just have to take that journey
And one day soon you will see

I miss simplicity, because obviously
Then we’d all get along and agree
Everything would work out eventually
I grew up, not really realizing in life
Attachments could be sliced, cut aside
Strongly now, everyone has their pride

You just gotta know
Difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just have to take that journey
And one day soon you will see

Cant go back, complicated is where it’s at
Can’t let go, have to just remember to grow

You just gotta know
Difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just have to take that journey
And one day soon you will see

Congratulations, you nearly were my demise
Round of applause, I bought your good-person disguise (the whole **** time)
Close the curtain, the show has come to an end
Hand the boutique over, you’ve certainly earned them
And now a calm has come and I’m all gone
Who knew it was an act all along? Award-deservant
An era concluded, you put on quite the performance

I never knew I wanted someone like you
Until out of the blue, you came along
And pursued me just long enough
I feel you did it all the right way
Wish for myself, I could say the same
Now I’m judging others based on your qualities

Since now you’re all I can manage to concentrate
I feel you’ve been the one for me that got away
And because you left we would fade
Now I wait for the glorious day
That you make your way back to me
Please let it be just eventually, I’m here

We seemed to be from two different worlds
One reason I held out on getting to know you
I couldn’t imagine you enjoying my company
And I was just too fragile to be used so soon
I didn’t see much need in having time misused
For either of us, assuming we’d be doomed

When I gave it a chance, you had to go
Would you have stayed for me, I don’t know
If we only began earlier on though
And now you always go “ghost”
I have no way to know if it’s personal
But I’m still here waiting to go further

The reasons I can’t forget are a cinch
You are smart and also ambitious
Rare to find anyone goal oriented
Even harder to find common sense
But you surely have plenty of all this
You gone is the only flaw I don’t get

Most of all, besides physical attraction
Your smile and eyes are holding me tight
You could always make me laugh and smile
I hope you know your own wonderful qualities
And can’t forget, loved that you didn’t care less
About any going one with sporting events

I miss your stubbornness and sarcasm
Even though you drove me up the wall
I will also miss yours and my tickle fights
Even though you’d win all the time
Good luck to you, even if not mutual
Whatever I did, I can assure, I won’t forgive

I won’t mean to do this but I know I may
Hold out for my “hello” acknowledgement
Only for now, goodbye “Prince Phillip”
I wish I could sleep another century
Your messed up Sleeping Beauty
Country boy, let me be your cutie

I will haunt your very thoughts
When you least expect my presence
Not from the biggest moments
But by the smallest remembrances
And deep within, uncontrollably
You shall love every second of it see
As I will haunt your very being
Until you finally see me...

No private shows here
Better look elsewhere
Stop asking for that
Need to take a step back
Stop acting like a rat

I already know what you want
But you’re just another chump
I will tell you now I’m done
Thanks for playing along
But it is time to move on

I understand it way too much
But I think you’ve gotten enough
You don’t need all this stuff
I’m sorry you think it’s rough
You just gotta toughen up

No private shows here
Better look elsewhere
You had a sneak peak
And you took it too deep
Go and be another sheep

She’s ready, she’s going to come harder
She’s gonna be brave and reach farther
Just sit back, I dare you to watch her
More than ever, she’s now stronger
  
She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss

She can put up a fight all night
Let you win, she just might
Or she can push on the brakes
And then take it all back away

She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss

She’s a champion, see her
She’s coming, feel her

She has made this vow, this promise
It’s signed, sealed, delivered with a kiss
A delivery made you won’t want to miss
So sit now, as all of this is her own bliss

I know it gets really hard sometimes
Stuck inside of your own mind
With memories that haunt you
No escape, no matter what you do

So afraid of who I have become
Don’t understand what’s been done
I’m withering away, fading day by day
I can’t believe this is now me
How did this come to be?

In time, old wounds heal up
You must just find your luck
If you do try, you’ll find
You are not at all stuck

So afraid of who I have become
Don’t understand what’s been done
I’m withering away, fading day by day
I can’t believe this is now me
How did this come to be?

Don’t cry, it’ll be alright
Just maybe not tonight
But there’s hope and light

So afraid of who I have become
Don’t understand what’s been done
I’m withering away, fading day by day
I can’t believe this is now me
How did this come to be?

Thoughts are more destructive than knives
Words give ideas to contemplate life
Trying to hide, there are no more smiles
All because of what’s injected to a lost mind And there are so many forms of SI
Trying to control something over the lies
Too much, only leading to suicide

Are you laughing now that it is their goodbye?
Don’t make them count against you as another problem
Pick your own actions wise
What you pick to do, you can choose
Who you wanna be, you can foresee
Or foresee the consequences of being mean
This is playing with real life, not a game or dream

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I went through a lot of hell just to get here
Won’t let you negate that I’m getting there
You can’t lie or belittle me now
I will not let myself down anyhow

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
an image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
one thing from me

You think you’re right and true
Well, I get an opinion for you
You give out falsified news
So take that trap away, too

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

I see more and more clearer
Nothing fogging my mirror

I let you take something away from me
But it won’t happen again, you see
I see more clearer, more than
An image in the mirror
And now you can’t take that
One thing from me

Free from doubt
Free from insecurity
Like your love
Like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you
Free from me
And my demons
Like the untamed
Like the crashing waves
Free from society

One of the most beautiful creatures
You may or may not get to meet her
She stays solitary unless you’re worthy
Of an encounter with all her glory

She can see between good and bad
She’ll know of any evil intentions had
Intuitive as can be, you would see

Selfless, putting others first all the time
May even be too nurturing, but that’s fine
She’s pure like from heaven’s gates
Yet stronger than anyone’s fates

She can see between good and bad
She’ll know of any evil intentions had
Intuitive as can be, you would see

Everything she touches is magical
She’s all you’d need, she’s whimsical

She can see between good and bad
She’ll know of any evil intentions had
Intuitive as can be, you would see

It is so hard to let go of the past
Thinking things would always last
But they say everything comes to end
And letting go is the only way to mend
So I’m going to burn it all tonight
Watch the memories flame bright
And I shall never look back behind me
For that’s no longer going to set me free
So I light the match and finally let it be

I see you from across the room
And decide I’d like to know you
I think you’d wanna know me, too

They’re the ducks and I’m the goose
It’s time you stop letting yourself lose
With the awful ones that you choose
Cut them all loose, try something new
I think I’ll make knowing me your rule

Get to know me, I know you’d be happy
How about turning “you” into a “we”
It will work out, just believe it and see

They’re the ducks and I’m the goose
It’s time you stop letting yourself lose
With the awful ones that you choose
Cut them all loose, try something new
I think I’ll make knowing me your rule

We could be beautiful together
If only you would let it...

They’re the ducks and I’m the goose
It’s time you stop letting yourself lose
With the awful ones that you choose
Cut them all loose, try something new
I think I’ll make knowing me your rule

Always dream of being someone I’m not
I get stuck in there, in all of my thoughts
I just want to be my true self, not asking a lot
But to achieve this, it must be fought
The truth I seek inside cannot be taught

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

It can be so hard, leaving who you are
But who you can be is not very far
You may be slightly out of touch
However, you are never out of reach
Soon there will be no stopping me

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I just had to see I can do the same
I just had to know I can be the change

Need to break free, like Mariah Carey
And Rose Dewitt Bukater, you see
Like a butterfly spreading its wings
Been trapped too long, so unhappy
Now you can’t and you won’t stop me
The truth was within, couldn’t learn it
These women both gave me courage

I know you’re lying when so frustrated
Still I kept trying, leaving me in desperation
Everyone says let it go, she’s still just a kid
Having a lot to learn in this great, big world
But I’ve really been through most of it
Yet, even so, with a sincere apology
You seem to just want to fight with me
I give up, after I’ve been put through hell
But I’ll never forget the version of you I knew so well
I’ll hold on to my ladybug and the memories
It’s just an ending that’s bittersweet to me
I just can’t even cry this time, I sigh
Wishing for the best, but nothing I can do
Maybe we’ll rekindle, maybe we’ll become strangers
Like we never knew, I must accept the truth

(Interlude)
Holding on to anger is poisoning yourself while assuming the other person will perish instead. Holding on to lost love is only chaining yourself to a ghost; you are still without them and now stuck in the past.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Letting go is not a forgiveness
Doesn’t mean you forgot anything
It’s freeing you for your best interest
And cleansing your new beginnings

Hatred is a poison to your own heart
So moving on is where freedom starts
The other person still gets no excuse
You deserve peace and to be let loose

Chaining yourself to the past
Will continue to hold you back
In turn, keeping you from ever
Focusing on your new happiness

No one else needs to understand how
You can be civil to someone once cruel
You are the who lived it through
Dropping the grudge is what is mature

It may take us time to understand
Figure out how we stop giving in
And longer to heal and not care
As finding you, finds you out there

Letting go of anger is a free pass
Not for those who harmed you
But for your own soul to rest
Inner peace starts with ourselves

We all make some wrong choices
And do stupid things subconsciously
While some may have gone too far
Now that you said bye, cleansing time

So stop breaking your own heart
Learn your lessons and stay smart
Love should be more powerful than hate
Letting go is the beginning of strength

I was in a good mood and thought you were cute
You asked for my number and I just approved
Everything was going smooth and I felt unlike I had in years
Until you disappeared ...
And I hadn’t felt like that in a long time either, I fear

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

He said all the right things
Leading up to ensure getting his way
Until, I guess, he got bored and no longer wanted to play
How come they never seem to stay?
The good things always eventually fade

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

I promise I will learn this time, to protect my heart and mind
Go back to my heart being lazy, what’s your favorite - I don’t care, baby
I rather be alone forever and look crazy

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

I am someone who can say
I’ve been through it all some way
I can not believe it to this day
So much immaturity and strays

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

The movies show it so nice
Like you’ll eventually get it right
But it’s not like that anymore
Can’t call that to be real life

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

If you only knew
What I’d go through
In the name of you

Nothing lasts forever, anymore
It’s all a game that’s just for show
Where the truth lies, I don't know
Standards and morals are so low
Nothing lasts forever, no, no, no

They left and I wondered and cried
Confusion, had to open my eyes
Whether they were ever true or not
Their time with me did come to a stop
Learned the void I filled was no longer in need
So they tossed me out, so selfishly
It’s left me with more confusion, though
Now wondering who will come just to go
I’m a convenience, a stepping stone
I know this, because I was informed so
Now I go about my way, cynical as hell
I guess, the confusion taught me well

I can’t stop the tears falling down
I can’t turn upside down this frown
How does one stay grounded?
Within this mess of a world

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token

To say it’s complicated; understatement
It’s more than just a depressed day
It’s my life, it’s always, it’s the way
And I try everyday to break away

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token

I’ll break free eventually
Just believe in me

I’m not just sad, I’m fully broken
I’m not in a nightmare, I’m awoken
I have nothing left to offer you
At least I used to feel like a token

Lips so red, like cherry blossoms
Won’t be able to get enough of them
Blue eyes that are as clear as the sky

Personality like a snake charmer
But no harm comes from her
You just can’t come at her harder

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure

Hair golden like the morning sun
Yeah, I think I have found the one
My search around is finally done

Skin as soft and perfect as porcelain
To feel her is when it really ends
As that is when you ascend to heaven

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure

Long legs sway with cute little feet
She’s not perfection, but she’s petite
Promise, you will never want to leave

Closer to perfection, if you catch her
Far from deception, this I am sure
I know she would be your cure

The sun may not always shine
As it’s no surprise that I’ve seen
Many clouds lingering my whole life
But as the storms begin rolling in
The difference there now days is
I know you’re there by my side

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

Life hits me hard and sometimes
I fall down, but I get up to fight
At times it’s hard to always continue
But now I know someone else patiently
Wants to also see me get through
And that person is wonderful you

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

I never knew love could be so strong
A bond that keeps me going, going on
The power of being in love with someone
Like you can make a woman here feel
Incredible; I only need your love forever

You see through my masquerade
That hides my years worth of pain
You never give up with the redundancy
Just tearing down my walls constantly
I fight you all the way for you not to
While I secretly am rooting for you
As you’ve turned around my world
And gave me all this girl deserves
You’re the best gift a woman could get
You are so easy to be in love with

All I ever need to continue to persist
So in love, never before; my best gift