https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCp0OSOe4cI

Ever have that spooky dream where you wake up in the middle of the night and it is daylight?

This poem is a reflection on past relationships with friends and lovers that did not last and the importance of forgiveness and moving on with your life after "the blast" of the supernova, as a relationship dies.  We must remember, that although some stars die, others are meant to be reborn in  Nebula.

I was on HP reading poems and finishing some writing when I found an artist I used to collaborate with that goes by Slate Blue.  "Stars in a sky yearning for light," inspired this poem.  Thank you for for your inspiration, and welcome back to HP. :)

Imagination knocked and took me here, so I went with it.  Inspired by music by Seattle artist Samuel Orson, a musician that a fellow poet on here mentioned.

We never know what struggles someone is dealing with...let's be kind. <3

Listening to:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHqd5BDXl0c

(This poem is about an artist exiting this world in the creative process)

Haven't been online as much due to the real life hustle but was inspired tonight when relaxing and listening to music. Peace and love ♥

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2VZTvk8VF8

Childhood memories of visiting my grandparents who lived in the sticks... I'm not sure why I decided to name the dirt road "Desire," it just felt right.

This is a continuation to the poem "The Sticks"...the story of a dirt road named "Desire."

Long story short... just returned from a trip to meet a person for the first time that I was talking to and thought might be my future husband who lives 3,100 miles away.  We met, were not compatible in real life...very complicated but it was very different than our long distance communications/phone calls.  I spent the majority of my time alone on the trip...If I ever meet someone far away again, he will definitely have to fly to me first.  Such is life. I've never been happier to see my cats.


I watched "The Greatest Showman" on the airplane home.  This song has been haunting me constantly...even had my own little solo session in my apartment. :-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKEMBn_JdCE

This poem might seem a little dark, but it's just a reflection of the battle some of us face with our inner self, that side that doubts sometimes.  I always try to think that tomorrow is a new day full of promise. <3

Listening to:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8n_ud9qZ52U

I had to be brave and share this poem. The reason I haven't been on this site for a while is that I became involved in a new relationship about seven months ago, and I should have known better. It moved way too fast and it felt so right at first but then I began to feel that something was off and kept ignoring the signs.  Now I realize that I was being used, controlled, manipulated, gaslighted, and abused (Mainly verbally but in subtle physical ways). I kept telling myself the reason I hadn't blogged in a while was because I was in the honey moon phase of a relationship when in reality someone was controlling me to the point where I lost my identity.  I thought I had learned, but at least I escaped... last week I left the apartment I shared with him, and felt like it was scary beyond what I can explain that would make sense to anyone.  Grateful to be safe now. Drove 2,500 miles with my kitties. Will have to find yet another new job but safety is the most important thing.  If I tried to explain what happened in the last few months, I feel that no one would ever believe me because it would all sound too crazy and he constantly made himself out to be the victim/good guy in front of his friends/family.  I felt like my head was constantly under water...nothing I could say or do, trapped and always uncomfortable. I want to write more about it now and at the same time I'm hesitant.  I am sharing this not only to release what is inside of me but also in case I can reach any other victims of domestic violence out there.  I now know that the only option is to get out before it is too late! <3


https://www.thehotline.org/is-this-abuse/abuse-defined/

This poem is basically a reflection of a toxic relationship I was in for 8 years.  Real feelings released...

Originally imagined a love story of a living star and a dying star but it turned into something else :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwHjeQjY2eA

One of those days where it was going great until something came up that really got me down...I sometimes go to music for release, used to sing.  Tonight I played this video too many times and sang and danced along.