Heart racing
Didn't want
This night to end
So many tears
In the past
Were full of pain
Closed my eyes
As a single drop
Released from
Sunsets & Waterfalls & Rush
From the right eye,
The first one
Of joy
I had felt
In a long time
Came streaming down in
Sunsets & Waterfalls & Rush
If this is love
Then let me drown
In your
Sunsets & Waterfalls & Rush
Can only guess
At what it must be
To feel your touch...
Sunsets & Waterfalls & Rush

Breathing in and out—
Collapsed in soul gaps
Face brushed against
The edge of emptiness
In this dead lapse
Where the soul gasps
Breathing in and out—
No one can hear
Your cries
In the unknown
Expanse of just you
And yourself,
Breathing in and out—
In an expanse
Where the soul gasps,
Is it only you
There by yourself,
Or someone else?

There you are,
So close
So far
I reach for you,
I reach for truth,
Dissolved
In tablespoons
Poured like sugar
Grains running away
Melting your youth
With the coarse
Hands of time.
Oh! There is
So much coldness
Here in this place.
Oh! There is
A stark disparity
Cutting silence
With the sharpness
Of a knife.
Lift you up,
Only to break you.
Build you up,
Only to destroy you.

All is for the best she says
Heart upon the ground
Each day the sun sets
Once more
Tomorrow brings hope
Somewhere to be found
It's something to hold on
to
With each breath
She takes
The idea of a whisper
Lost for all the time
It takes
A notion of a smile
Found somewhere in belief
Buried and covered
Beneath the lies you told her
Some she believed
She slowly picks up a piece
To place it back together
Another missing
Each day the sun rises
Once more to welcome
Her home
With open arms
And a spirit that
Might one day
Be whole

We could be,
Free.
Frozen over,
A Phoenix  
Lights a fire
Underneath
This snow;
And, I know
This isn’t
Reality;
Don’t we
All see,
It differently?

Nothing is real unless it’s in front our faces, in this physical space?

Perhaps,
We all live
In
This
Perfect…
Fantasy (Of the mind),

Unending.

Run and jump
Take off
And see where it leads
You're made for more
Than what's below
You are made for love
It's time to take flight
Soar with wings
Like you only live once
Don't be afraid
To soar above
On the wings of love
Across electric blue
Soar
On the wings of love

Took a jar and reached out
To infinity's vacuum
If only to capture this
And hold onto
Something (sparkling grey)
That one should never,
Hold on to.
Set it free
What's not meant
To be,
Once you swallow
Your lost hopes
Maybe you'll see
The brightest
Spots were never lost.

Suddenly so suddenly
Earth’s ground is falling
Beneath
You reach out to touch
The hand of one
You can’t see
They can’t hear you
Scream any more
Dry your tears
Off the floor
That doesn’t exist in
Space because-
In space
There is no floor
So wipe them up
Find your way
For all of time
But you can’t see them
Any longer
All this distance
Makes you pour
Out an empty glass
Hold your own hand
Dance on your two feet
All this distance
In space
Released
It's all inside of you

Gray morning mist
Walking into the waves
Separating in two
Before you.
Water crashing,
Moving,
Becoming one
Ocean.
At the end
When you
Reach the sand,
Arms wrap
Around
Holding you,
The sun,
Welcomes
The end of
Two waves
As they become
One ocean

Freezing
Outside
Keep your
Warmth
Hold it
Keep it close
Don’t forget to
Smile
Don’t forget to
Turn on the
Heater
Sometimes

Take it now
And fold it over
Toss it in the water
This is healing
Growing in an
Ever expanding
Motion
If you look out
To the ocean
What do you see?
Maybe you
Can go there
Once more
Finally (Feel free)
The moment
Your toes touched
The sand on the shore
Maybe you
Can heal
Some more
Folding over
In emotion
Left it there
For a little while
It's ever expanding
I remember
That time...
I can reach
Out
And touch it
Once more

Clouds became squares
and filled in the spaces
The open air
Consumed and
the wind rearranged it
and quickly the storms rolled in
After they slowly taunted in the Distance
Squares were replaced with different Shapes
Triangles and so many circles
and sugar so tasteless
Cloud squared secrets left no traces
Soon it all faded
Always looked for
Anything to fill those
Empty spaces
Soft edges were sharpened
And all was shapeless
In those cloud square spaces
and all was face less

Returning to
This foreign land,
All I can do is
Hold your hand
As you lay
Dying
Before us.

No words
Can describe
This feeling,
Varnished with
An everlasting
Shell of
Uneasiness,
Inside,
As the one
That helped
Raise us
Fades
Before us.

If only we
Could heal you,
If only we
Could
Breathe new life
Back into your
Fading body.

We are only
Human though,
Like you dad.

It feels
Like I'm dying
Inside each day
As you are,
But in a different way...
No words
Can describe
This pain.

When I close my
Eyes;
I see you so clearly
In some of our
Last moments-
Smiling at
Your grandchildren
Running;
Green Grass,
A beautiful sunny day
Made just for you.
Reaching for
Our hands,
And then one last time
Again.
Laughing at our jokes,
That are reminiscent
Of yours;
You're still here.

Dad,
I love you.

Eyes barely open
Sun breaks through
The blinds
It’s time to wake up
Mend your broken wings
Don't give up
You still have a purpose
To fulfill before it's your
Time to fly up
Up to aurora's heights 
Take this needle and thread
Sew them back
It’s time to mend
It’s time to heal
Your body
Your mind
Your soul
And take some time
To find your spirit
and become whole
Smile and don’t let go
Let it in and hold it close
Never let it fade away
It's time to have
Some faith
We are all
Human after all
Sometimes we fall
Only to fly again

It's easy to,
         Fall fast...
Some say not to be afraid,
At the same time,
Don't be blind.
Sand for miles; Waves rolling;
Grey as the day.
It's hard,
          When it seems so right;
Then reality sets in,
As you realize if
This continues,
You'll never be whole,
Within...
You ignore what doesn't
Feel like the light;
          Only to emerge
With new insights.

If a feeling
Signals a siren,
Please listen to it.

We only get one life,
That's it-
Unless you believe
This isn't the end,
And one day
We are each reborn
To a new
Physical form.

That's what I believe,
Some might think
It crazy.

We can also live
Multiple lives
Within this One.

What do I mean?

For instance,
When someone
Survives a disease
And comes out
Differently
On the other side,
That person
Emerges
In rebirth
Within this
Same life.

Life can change us
In many ways,
Good and bad;
To be reborn
Again.

Hands together,
Feeling peace
Released.

The waves
Roll in as the sun
Shines
Down on them,
Brilliantly.

All of them
Just want to break
You down
Is there even one
That would want
To lift you
Not see you crawl
Beg and claw
Your way back
To where
You were
Before you
Met them
When you
Had yourself
And knew
Who you were
Staring at a picture
Face void of who
I was before...
Until one day
I got a little
Piece back
It's nice to smile
Once in a while
It's nice to know
I got her back
To recognize
Your own face
And the eyes
That reflect that

Today was a sad day
Reminded of defeat
And how it has
Hit again and again
Mourned some
Cried a little
At how our
World can be
So cold
How humans
Can hurt
One another

Everything around
Is just a stage
Say you are a
Character
Running in
The woods
A deer or
Little Miss
Red Riding
Hood
Playing
The game
Trying to
Stay alive
They say
A cat
Has nine lives
A Phoenix
Can come
Back to life
And only
The strong
Stay alive
Is everyone
Placed in
A maze
We self
Create
Doing our
Work
In a world
That was
A
Perfect Slate.

April is a month of flowers-
Trees blossom after many showers
It's warming after the cold of winter
A bee is buzzing, spinning cartwheels
Haphazardly in an airfield
Dogs run carefree about the grass
I'll keep singing
No matter what clouds are forming
I'll keep singing
Give thanks and hope for the best
Because April is a month of flowers
Surrounded in natural life
And new hopes

I am free!
I am happy,
I am enough.
I am beautiful,
I am me,
No apologies.

no, can't stop it
no way, no way out
blink and open
them, your
eyes to reveal
a world now turned
inside-out
reveal it, to close it, shut it
down down down
find comfort
don't drown
too far for the distance
here in open spaces
carry forth, yes, carry forth
your burdens
one day they will erase
for all time
let them drown
free at last
free yourself
it passes so fast
nothing ever lasts
one minute
holding a hand
the next you drown
in realistic tides
to surface once more
to catch a glance
efface the feelings
reaching out so far
soaked in emotion
caught in
undertow

Held on to a hand
Glanced up with a smile
Breathed a breath
Of the past
All moves forward
Until all is no more
Nothing is ever meant
To last in this life
I know this for sure
You thought you
Could have the best
Of both worlds
Kept me around
To help fit the bill
While you found
Other thrills
And your long lost
Lover soon returned
Sometime in early March
Or before,
If you were a real man,
You would have told
Me this before...
Now I breathe a breath
Of the future
It's all I have left
And here and now
Breathe into me
A future breath
Breathe
It's sometimes
All that is left

Until you find
The end of time
Don’t look back

Flowing through
To where it all began
In the soul you knew...
Until you found
Your way to peace
At last
Then you knew
And trusted as you
Rested your weary
Head down

At last, at last

You’ll love
Somehow
You’ll love
At last

Oh don’t look back
Nothing remains
In that

Until you find
The end of time
You’ll keep
Moving forward
Just like the wind
Like the sand
Finding inner peace
And love
At last

Voices sing—
Mesmerizing, hypnotizing;
Trapped thoughts
Live out stories in your head
As you rest in your bed,
And you never
Thought you’d be,
Caught in this web,
Living out fantasies,
Unruly
As you sleep,
And everything
Fades,
Only faint memories
Remain,
When you wake.

Society
Is a narcissist
Trying to make fun
Of anything
To fill its ego
They will eat you alive.
Some aren't safe,
The empathetic
Can run
But there is nowhere
To hide

It's so dark tonight.
Turn your light on,
Alright.
I can see it shining
All the way
On the other side.
It's so bright.
When this life,
Is over
All that was once
Together,
Will reunite again
In Quantum
Entanglement.

Come back now...
Come down
To Earth,
Somehow.

One day,
When this
Is all over
You'll find
Your way
Back
To where
You want
To go...

Just look up
For now
And listen
Closely
Only to
Be led
Back to
What
Was
Lost
Or never
Was.

We were swimming
In vintage
Left those blue suede
Shoes at the door
She don't want to
Sing the blues no more
She don't want to sing
The blues no more
Picked up her feet
And danced to the beat
On an empty ballroom floor
Dust and moonlight filled
All corners
Specters watched as
Music filled the air
Cold static
Lifted hairs on her neck,
Only ghosts were left
Dared to take her breath
Only ghosts were left
As she levitated
Off an empty ballroom floor
Closed her eyes
And blinked them fast
She don't want to sing
The blues no more
Comfort in knowing
She wasn't alone
Any longer
As she levitated
Above an empty ballroom floor
And' she don't sing the blues no more...

For a split second
Touched your world-
Just grazed the surface
A glimpse into you--
Just a glance.
Hearing so many projections
Meant to falsely ******,
Meant to make you lose
Who is who
Who are you?
Just grazed it,
The surface
For a split second
Touched your world,
But couldn't hold it
As it slipped through
My helpless fingers,
Voiceless in your
Unholy eyes
Unholy light,
Outer sacred views,
Touched your world,
Couldn't hold it,
Released it back
To you,
For a split second,
Touched your world
Only to let it go
Forever

You are my home,
Deep in my heart
Anywhere we are
Is where
I want to stay

I'm more fragile
Than ever,
Never have felt
This way
Hard to explain

Breathing air
Into these lungs
Makes me think
Of how you
Make my life
Complete
Always want
You to be happy

Waking up
In the night
This thought
Crosses my mind
You are my life
Can't think about
Living it without
You

You are my home

Let these words
Carry you past
Tonight
Twilight covers
Only to prepare us
For Light

A voice breaks
The surface
Of silence
Where there
were no notes left
To be sung

Let these words
Carry You

If you look
To the other
Side of
You
You
Can
See that you aren't
Who you used
To be

Do you feel me?

Maybe you aren't proud
Of who you were
Or maybe you wish
You were still that
Version
Of your soul...

If you look
To the other end
Of
You
You
Can
See that you are
Now who you
Are meant to be
In this moment...

You
You
Can
Be
Who you
Want to be

Do you feel me?

I II II IV V VII VII

I must confess that there is no feeling like it—then when
           You wake up
to recognize a place within
your sleeping soul
at rest

sinking low
in deep hues
choose any color
sometimes
one more
or another

how about
cloudless
how about
nebulous

resting
inside you,
is sweetness
beneath
where
life is lived
crawl out of
darkness
some how

everything
you've ever
known
reveals itself

some are sweet
oh so clear
others are nightmares
soon to disappear

oh the fears
take me there to
where they linger
letting go to
slip through fingers

awake now
caught on a
sparkling web
paralyzed  
and alone
and all I see
are
poly-chromed
imaginings

and I confess
there is no
feeling like it

I left my blue, cotton tee dress
On your floor, and I...
Didn't come back for more;

You kept calling every night
Not sure why you put up
Such a fight
To take over my mind
When I told you we
Should end it,
See other people,
Move on,
Avoid the hurt
And the pain.
Everything was
Condescending,
Silly string animal puppet silhouettes
On your wall danced
Of something insincere
Like black magic trickery
And licorice idiocies
Mirrors cast in open flames
Meant to fuel a clever game.

Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring...
Pick up the phone
"Pick up, I know you're home..."
Ring, ring, ring...
I shut off my phone,
Not listening.

"Please call me back. I just wanted to let you know that you left your blue dress here."

"It's okay.  It's just a dress.  I'll buy another.  It's not worth going back to blue."

Beauty can be anywhere you look,
An expression
Or kind smile
Passing by a sunset
Only to discover
That if you glance
In the side mirror
It's still there.
Time always
Goes  away
But beautiful memories
Stay.
Beauty can be anywhere
We look,
Imagining.

God,
Please hear this prayer
Watch over the little ones
And hold our families near
Let me forgive
And move forward from
Past situations not meant to be
God,
Please let someone find a cure
(One with your blessing, not the mark of the evil)
Watch over the weak, the poor, the sick, the sad, and the lonely
& those that have lost it all and more
You are capable of miracles (Are we that far gone?)
I trust in you
Have always seen it
Felt it
You’ve never led me astray when I’ve followed your ways
A personal journey
You’ve led
I've followed
All I have to do is look up
To your creations
And trust that everything will be okay
Something better awaits (In unworldly paradise)

She was jumping fences
Defenseless
Getting nowhere
A filly
Chased the wild horses
To the limit
Reached the finish
Soon they disappeared
Never to be seen
Into the dark wood
Into the dark
Forevermore
Skins shed on a path
Into what was never
Tethered there
Unbridled fury
Flocks raced to the field
In final glory
Vultures on the move
Consumed in flesh
In fury
Fed their hunger

She was jumping fences
Can't you see
"Can't see you"
It was all for you
Until there was nothing
Left in her that she knew

Tied to the rail
Sunk in the sand
Reached for a hand
Only one was there,
"God, is that you?"

So run, run, run
And don't look back
Defenseless
She was jumping fences
Don't look back
She left something
Nothing to come back to

When it's right
It won't be
Jumping
Defenseless
You'll be lifted
With lightness
Unbridled and flying
No longer
Jumping fences

If I put my hand
On the fogged glass
Will it erase words
So crass
Will it uncover
Clearness
Where there once
Was a strange menagerie
Over the lake's horizon
In a fuscia-water coloured vision
Waking in the early morning
To this realness
Come to life
Had to escape it
And face what
Has passed
Leave it all behind
If I place my sight
In the right place
These fears might slip away
But my dear
Our world is-
A gray-washed haze
My hand releases
From the mirror's grasp
My eyes see through
To what it was at last

Fell asleep to sun drops rising
Flashbacks were raining
Reminiscent
Of comforting pain
Something was missing
Why were the blinds closed
All the way down that day
Lost sight of reality
In the labyrinth
Mind maze
Lost there

City lights used to shine
Now all they do is blind
Broken windows stuck in time
Not easy to ride-or-die
Looked out as they emitted
Scattered out in all directions
Unparallel visions
Forever searched for the next
High
(Nothing was ever enough)
City Lights
Glow all the time
Fluorescence kept tripping
City Lights
Used to shine
All the time
Now the streets
Lay mostly empty
City Lights
Shine on still

You don't need someone
To show you the way
You just need some strength
To find your own way
Worlds can collide
In this one
Nothing stands still
For anyone
So, find your own way
And maybe someday
You will be free
To find your love
Because worlds can collide
In this one
And nothing stands still
For anyone
Move closer to the truth
You seek
Closer to the heart
In everything
Follow your way
Closer to free
It's inside
Of you
A strength

And sometimes
It's so quiet
Awake in the dark
And sometimes
It's only the presence
Of something
Past
So, find your own way
At last.

Control takes hold
           and sometimes it doesn’t let you go
So you escape
          in chains, still hanging, holding you down
It's human nature
                 can’t help it
And there are disorders
                               there is chaos
Constant, stirring up tornadoes
                    with dust and destruction and we are
       Powerless
           Peaceful One, don’t you love us
              Say it is so
                 Some given grace and others no place
                     And some want all the control
                           and all the power and when others fight it
             all access is
                      Denied
                          How would they feel in our shoes
                                        Dirt under nails on the floor
                                            And the devil crawling under the door
          One of Light,
                         We will never know and it’s not our place
                      A thing called faith filling in a blank void
               When times are trying
We’re finding
                                            And finding and finding and finding
                                                                ­ You must still be here
                                                            ­ Trying
                                                                 ­         Don’t give up on us
             These times can make you grow distant
                       Because of our nature
                                 And it grows harder for us to
                                             See you in all that we’ve become
                                         Inside
Here in purgatory and ploys
                  Brainwashed by toys and shiny lights
                When beauty surrounds us
                          If only we could finally see it
                                                        Magnif­icent One,
                                                         When times are trying
                                                                ­      Don’t give up on us
                                                         Because of our nature
                                                 Drifting, you'll be there
      in the afterglow
             all, so easily taken away

the hour is 3:59am
the sound of thunder is waking
a storm taps on glass
as if to say come here
don't miss it
i walk across the floor
and stand by a door to
admire the rain,
a semblance of hope
ripples in the expanse
hitting the ground
the far off cosmos are
hidden by downpours
designed in the vastness
living in the present,
a moment of calm
in the chaos
it's the best time to be alive

Far-off fantasies fly in technicolor skies
Velocity drives a ship to new heights
On the edge of the multiverse nothing
Can be heard of distant voices far off in space

See more than
What is said

Instead
See within

To what
Is shown

From inside-
Out in emotion.

That night
Deep purple--
drenched
Every  
Ounce in amethyst
As dragons danced
On cloudy scraped
Wonders
And fireworks dripped
drenched
Every
Inch as they
bled down
Drew in on the soul
With sunless sails
Cast out
To Catch
A sullen breeze
Strung
A firefly kite to catch
What was left
Of what can
Be seen
Of the night
Thinking on
What was out--
Of sight

There is magic all around us
To see past the sky
To what is far beyond,
Beneath the skin

It drifted above us
Fell back for a moment
Rested on a quiet breeze
Landed in softness
Covered everything (Glowing)
Touched a thought
Lifted somewhere soft
Rain fell beautifully and gently down
Forever

Closed my eyes and breathed it in,
Pure essence from within surrounded
The natural world
Felt deeply

There lies a barrier here
An invisible line in the air
Go there,
Anywhere you go
Just go

I know heaven is breaking
The seal
Can feel it revealed

Will you make it through.
In some spaces
I know a light is not far
Away.

It is the only way to make
It beyond
To each new day.

A warrior, until you’re not.

Then the question becomes,
“What happens if you give
Up the battle?"

I can hear an empty echo.
You live to see another day
And trust to leave behind
Yesterday.

You live to try once more.
There lies a barrier
I know heaven is breaking.

Hasn't broken through
To you yet.

An invisible line in the air
Elapsed fear.

Class clown, joking-around
Teacher's pet and a little shy
500 kisses might never be enough
Recess is over and the time flew by
They look up from under
The slide where they hid away
We made it to 1000 today
Until we meet tomorrow
At the Jungle Gym

Why can't my God
Be love?
Spirit within
Longs to be lifted up
God(s) is
Different
To each of us
Above all
My God is love
Guiding me
So I go
Following intuitively
The Creator has always
Led the way
A protector although
Any day can be the last
No fear of death
Here on earth with all the horrors
I believe that all beliefs
Can be as one
As we all worship
What is in each of our hearts
My God I know so close
Angels sent from above
Guided by love
The spirit free to fly
At last

You said you want to see this soul
I said
Open your eyes,
Love...
Turn out the lights
And hold on
Until eternity
Bends unending
Above,
Just don't let go
No,
Of this hold
And if you do
Close your eyes
Take in this breath
In all of me
There was never
Anything to fear
No,
Here in the dark
Just don't let go
Share your light
For eternity and then some more
An endless kind
It's what everyone wants
To find
In the daylight or night
Close your eyes
See me
Seeing you
Hold on until
Eternity
Can you hear
Your echo there
Where statues and stones
Remain still
Your voice is now
An echo
In their halls

One foot
In front
Of the other
Lava below
Don't
Look down
Or be afraid
Only 20 feet
To go
Only 10 feet
Left
Look forward
One foot
In front
Of the other
On the
tightrope
Hanging
By a thread
Never
Look back
Once you
Reach
The other
End

Played a game of connect.the.dots.

                          Underneath
         ­                 A high window.

So many stars we could see, so many specks above
A roof that opened to infinity

The moon,
Constellations,
A forest of aspens,
Snow covered a fire pit buried outside
In summer, it will burn bright.

Night carried on,
Made magic in the dark,
Two dots formed
Constellation.hearts

                           Underneath
                                                   You moved up
from below

                           (I can still see you there)
                           (Our hands held close)

Love was made.
It will never die,
                                 like that night.

Played a game of connect.the.dots.

                            In another life
                            Maybe it would stay alive

Two dots formed
Constellation hearts.