;How responsible am I
For my hands
My minds culprit:

My mouths pulpit

How accountable am I
For influence
And what I'm doing

•Am I just A baby
In a gorillas hands
Or the tangerine in a sunset•

How responsible am I
¬For the skies turquoise
And the moons blue
Interrupting  hues¬

,Am I in the belly of a whale
Or just a wild ride
★Failed
Destined to the corrupt shores
¡Spit out
In a place
I never wanted to go,

Am I just a dilemma
That's never solved

On the frontline
Of my soul

How responsible am I
For the grenade  I hold
If the pin is your hand

¿Does it matter who pulled

Something for the night
A whiskey bottle
Jazz
Some deep bass
Candlelight
Something to twist your feet
Slide pull
A little closer
And leave
Something for the night
To remember
That song in the guitar
That old saxophone
Belting tones and exploding them
Shooting stars
A comet with a fiery tale
Blazing upon the atmosphere
Leaving a trail
Like a musical note
Floating in your ear
Something for the night
Could be what you hear
When the sounds penetrated
They entered the brains stem
They pounded a dope beat
With a dope drum
And it pounded continuously
Into my cranium
Something for the night
When the night came
There was a magical existence
Of a phenomenon appearing
Out of thin air
Another whiskey bottle
I can still hear the jazz
Tugging on my ear lobe
Molesting my hands
The way she wraps around me
When the song began
Something for the night
To have

I never understood
Why some things
And others won't

What happens when
You see something
You've never seen before

The way some things
And how others work
I never understood
Or could

Because my comprehension
Is at the level
Of what I don't know

Someone told me
I am" just a man
I said you're giving me too much credit
With that charge
I told "I Am

Sometimes I feel like an animal
Or an altered beast
But I'm actually lower
Than the level
Of the least

As I try to increase
I actually decrease
In years
What I say please
And Thank you for
Here

Some things
And others dream
While the Truth is found
Wherever it sings

I never understood
Why things some
And others would
Because I'm just too dumb
For my own good


You didn't have to agree with me
But you did
And when they came to get me
I never understood
Why you told them where I lived

When they knocked on my door
I told them I never understood
Why some things
Were

And others won't

The guards lost·
Against her lips
She infiltrated his
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

Love is a casualty
A pain in the faculties

It's a stake in the heart left
Beating erratically

The guards lost·
Against her kiss
Her tongue bludgeoned his
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

Love is a battery
An assault on humanity
Breaking so many hearts

The guards lost·
Against her hips
And he infiltrated with
·Something the night did
On the battlefield~

I've been waiting
For the sunrise
To crawl out
From yesterday

I can hear the town
Cries
Mumbling about
What passed away

Counting down the days
Like the calendar
Has something to say

About how long
will ever
Live another
Sunrise made

I've been waiting
On the moon sky
Watching in phase

Under the starlight
In my mind
As I gaze

I've been waiting for
The same time
I take

Chasing the clocks
Arms
As far
As they reach

Waiting
On a time-line
While the hours
Speed

I see a checkered
Flag
On the horizon
Waving at me

Going 100 miles an hour
I slowed down
And waited
On the track
Of the humans race

For the end to come

When I shined
A light
On its face

I didn't mean to be me

It happened so fast
It was hard to see

Me

Trying to be

I didn't mean anything
I was ignorant
Explaining things

I didn't mean
To be

Me

I was born with this image
I try to distinguish
But

I didn't mean it

I

Didn't mean
To be me

Maybe I should
Leave

Because
I didn't mean





To be here

I was there in the starlight
Shining on our campfire
When she asked me mister
What are you looking for
A shooting star
Or a girl
Are Your gazes
For constellations
Or something more
I was there in the starlight
Her eyes were twinkling so bright
But I was looking for
A shooting star

America
Is a soldier

She's a boulder

A powerful

Rock
Solid

  Gold heart

She strengthens the weak
Battles for the poor
And houses the meek
With loving arms

She's sweet

A Mother of Fathers
A Sister of Brothers

She's a country of lovers

At war

What could you do for
The country you are

Perhaps we should support
America the gift
From the good Lord

In God we Trust
Not the New World

America the greater
If we could just support our President
And stop the haters

New hoax

Stay gold
Mandarin sunset
        Silver moon
What have you
thoughts
About each avenue
Dry those sweaty palms
And cry me a smile
I've been lookin in your eyes too long
        Through the cracks in my mirror
My friend
Remember how you loved
                          The ocean
How you loved the river
And the graffiti sky
Why did you leave us
                   Goodbyes
And a somber universe
Tears mundane
In your lulliby
Under those headphones
Beneath the bricks
What did you scribble
In those notebooks
Sharon Van Etten played
And you brushed your locks
The stage lit
              You looked
Such a shooting star
Emerald heart
               Under the rot
Why did you leave me
With the look of silence
When you talked to yourself
                          I heard quiet
In that broken mirror
It was your halo
Fallen on fear
          My own
Remember how you remembered
The earth in all its dirt
And the way water formed
                     Thirst
You were so hungry
Yet such a meloncholy
        Diet
. Mr you never understood   
How to calculate old
                  Stay gold

Those fast fast
Cars
Naked candy
Those sweet scars
Remember how you loved
                  The intimate air
And how you used to breath in error
How you loved champagne
Spilled on a yellow dress
                    Kissing tears
Those mornings that never came
Until the night
My shattered mirror
The way you looked in every piece
   Scattered
Everywhere
Sharon Van Etton played
Her voice stared
Deep in your pupils
        My hazel wear
Remember how you used to laugh
And people heard
How you loved nature
     But you didn't here
Why did you leave us
All these pictures
Only albums could hold
                          Frames
Smothered in accordions
Why did you leave us
Oh-
Stay gold

Am I supposed to write about the virus
Staying home Quarantine
Washing my hands

When I
Took a walk in the park
I was keeping my distance
And this girl appeared
Right in my front

She said "are you worried about
The Wuhan
I told her if I was the virus
she'd just been infected with a new one

She said she loved injections

I told her I was a doctor
And i could give her one
If she'd just be patient

My patient

Some girl in the park
Short skirt mini top
And a great conversationalist

~Then I coughed....

I realized the democrats
Must have sent this beeyootch

She probably drinks andrenochrome
For all I know
She was sent to infect
Me with some COVID *** foam
At my mouth
How many weeks does it take
To get it out

Am I supposed to write about the virus
When I should have stayed home
Washing my hands


I went to the park
And Now I'm dead

Broken little heart

So steal
How you burn

The feel

Like a flame
Devouring the air

Magic
Casts her spells

Sometimes
Her mystic helps

But today it melts
In the fire it spells

Broken little dream
So steel

How you felt the burn
And stood there

Red hot

You were forging memories
For the most she lost

You felt the singe of the cool water
In the summers hot

As the steam rose
Over your broken little heart

Laying on your breast
I can hear your heartbeat
Pumping blood

I feel your love
And the warmth of your flesh
Turning me on
Thumping hard
Holding me in your arms
Kissing my head
Pulling me tighter into your *******

I can hear your heartbeat
Banging my eardrums
And you're feeling so soft
Making me hard
And wanting you more

I feel your love
Making me kiss
The sweet in your lips
How could this ever be wrong

The pumping of your blood
The racing of pulse
Pulling me closer
Taking off your clothes

My head in your breast
Sipping on each carress
Tieing my tongue
All I can do is moan

I hear your sweet voice
Begging for more
Leading me on
I'm already in your soul
Thrusting as deep as I can go

We've lost control
And feels like everything we want
Even more than this world

Laying on your breast
I exhaust and hear your breaths
Catching up to your lungs

Against my cheeks
I feel the peak of your love
Rubbing against my tongue
Eating me up

I can hear your heartbeat
Singing our song
Holding your sweaty palms
I feel your love

And I don't ever want to let it go

We stopped being us
At the start of the finish
Of who we were
With two feet forward
It should've been four
We were never good at math
Calculating guarantors

We emptied our reserves
Everything we had lost
In years of mirrors
Reflections of memories
Memoirs of anniversaries
Celebrating
In everything we sought

Here we sit
Outside of our heart
A couple of valves
Opening up
Apart
~
Apart
Opening up
A couple of valves
Outside of our heart
Here we sit

In everything we sought
Celebrating
Memoirs of anniversaries
Reflections of memories
In years of mirrors
Everything we had lost
We emptied our reserves

Calculating guarantors
We were never good at math
It should've been four
With two feet forward
Of who we were
At the start of the finish
We stopped being us

I'm a sucker
For red lips
Curved hips
Red hair
And big ..

Yes

You guessed
I'm a sucker
For brunette
High heels
And a tight dress

Yes
       You bet

I love blondes
            And wet
Lingerie and ***
The softness of a woman
And the smell of her scent

I'm sucker for it

Female and kiss
Her long nails
And breast
Whispering in my ear
Her soft voice saying..

Yes

Worry about
Another days
Worries

Today  is gone

And i still have
Many more problems

to solve

Yesterdays caused
Enough frustrations
And never paused

Worrying about the payments
And what they charged

Worry about
Another days
worries

Happiness is a fraud
Everywhere I owe something
I can't afford

Nothing ever happens
the way I  want
Everytime I gamble
I win the loss

And I am
Left to worry
What tomorrow
Costs

Worry about
another days
Worries

Yesterdays fault
Was leaving me in a hurry
With nothing solved

And I haven't any solutions
for anything at all

Each day has enough
problems
On its own

Let tomorrow worry
About tomorrow

For today is a woebegone

Give us our daily bread
Theron

Worries

If i had your hand
If i had your endless kiss
If i wasnt such a buffoon

I'd have a sunny afternoon

If i had your love
If i had this dance
If i hadn't blown my chance

If i had your smile
If i had your embrace
If i wasn't such a goon

I'd have a sunny afternoon

If i had your desire
If i had your eyes
If i wouldn't have let love die

If i still had you
Under my moon

I'd have a sunny afternoon

I found the sunset
Orange in footsteps
With yellow eyes of crayon
I just kept walking
No one could stop me
Ever again
We sank down
Into the earths round
And burned our rays
You can still hear us
In the whispers chorus
Carried by the wind
I found the sunset
On the horizons doorstep
And it invited me in

This program is corrupt
I could smell the smoke
Of burning electronic
Before i threw up

Another malfunction
Malformed in conjunction
With some burnt hair on my girlfriend
Who said Trump is the best President!

But the media said no he's not

I've got a corrupt program
That somehow deleted 30,000 emails
After November guess what we'll remember in 10 years

A stain on a blue dress
A bullet made of pen
A peach with orange hair

This program is corrupt
What we'll remember
Will already be past

Republican
Independent
Democrat

Swamped in corruption
While we pay the tab

The effort it took
For a gain
The price of the same
Strenuous work
A little elbow grease
For the product to sell
An empty shelf
These things
For the wealth
Of a better self
On a temporary earth
The effort it took
Was a payment that could
Never repay
What it cost
For the worth

The sasquatch
Holds blue
Balloons

As
The
Afternoon
Ran over the morning
The skies wore gloom

They were
Sporting their normal
Dark grey
Suits

And the sasquatch
Walked along
With his blue balloons

Drifting away
His feelings
On a string of blues

Nobody sees him
Save for few

Once in a blue moon
Striding
In Washingtons view

You could see him on the side walks
In cafe or two

A lonely ole
Sasquatch
Holding blue ballons

The taste in my mouth
Had the morning-est taste
With the evening-est smell

I lost faith in myself
And had hate for my God
For creation itself

I lost faith in his Son
And hated this hell
The wreckage of earth
And people as well

I believed in the doubt
There was a heaven in clouds
Because anything else
Seemed impossible now

But how could I find a way out

I had to believe in myself
With the faith of Gods help
I had to read the Bible
And let him speak to my health

Because evil was out
In this world

I opened my heart
And Jesus I sought
He entered my thoughts
And cleaned up the rot

Before the devil had cut
My throat

You said the sky was blue
Yet it was me
The sky was grey
And it all rained

Down on me

The change of color
Your eyes would paint
A different lover
Than me

Was it the weather
That changed
The hurricanes
Or the way you looked at me

You said the sky was blue
Yet it was me
The sky was grey
And it all rained

Down on me

Your change of heart
Tore apart the artistry
And the lover you sought
You left cause you thought
He would be better than me

Was it the weather
Or the choice of color
You wanted to change
Or was it just another lover
Your eyes wanted to paint

You said the sky was blue
Yet it was you
That colored it grey

And it all rained

Down on me

Every thing under the sun
Lays in the sum of the world
Homosaphiens calcuate science
In the memories of the past
And as they multiplied
They tried to understand their historical graphs
While the sheeps get slaughtered
And children are taught our
Habits repeating their tasks
I heard a man say
We are living in futility
Each of us owned by talents
And abilities
Behind the flesh of a mask
Our hearts beat separately
Together yet differently
We survive the good
tempered by bad
Nothings really matters
As matters are gathered
Their futile in the bed of our death
Yet what is our path
Following time
With the sun and moons ryhme
We spin on the earth in a skeletons
Worth
never knowing why thoughts
Control minds
We contemplate
Reason in four separate seasons
Completing the days into years
But have you asked yourself the question
Why the answer is a lesson
You still haven't learned as a man
Why are you here
Living in the fear
That your age just may not last

I'm sharpening my knives
Looking through my tv

All the deceiving

I'm sharpening my knives
And now the edges are gleaming

If you can understand the meaning
I'm getting ready to cut through the evening

When the world breaks down
And the guns ring hell

I'm sharpening the help
In the helter skeltor
Of any chaos

I'm sharpening my knives
And loading them with bullets

Looking at my tv
Studying my enemy
Brainwash humanity

My razors edge is so sharp
It could split the hair
Of a microscopic bacteria

I'm sharpening my knives
Because I'm not fearing ya

All the deceiving
You best believing
I'll be standing on the side

Of America 🇺🇸

The mirror had farouche eyes
A frown of glower daggers
                  And sullen aprise

      Reflecting a man
In a mind disguised
While his outside lied
            His inside cried

Those eyes
Quantified
             All he had tried
Before his heart would subside

Into their dissatisfied
                                Glare

Beauty beholds an eye
That can see the heart inside

Blue moon
You used to be silver last June
You changed your color
And I wondered
If your lover left you

Why are you shining so blue
I think I already knew
Why you're so blue

My broken hearted moon
You were so bright last June
You changed your color
And I wondered
If your lover left you

Why are you shining so blue
I think I already knew
Why you're so blue

Moon

I just want you to know
I feel it too

Tommorow gets murdered everyday by yesterday as today just stands around and watches her slow death

There has been a change in the environment
surroundings changed
The atmospheric requirements
We used to breathe the desired oxygen
And exahale the carbon dioxide
Elements
There has been a change
And your flesh remains
The excrement
Waste of time and space
Begging for mercy and grace
You have been replaced
From dust back to dust
Lacking any more energy

How could I escape this place
Through the windows
Out the door
Driving a car real fast

How can I escape
The rate of the worlds decline
And my patience to take
What other men have designed
How could I break away
From the bars that incarcerate
The minds right and wrong
Freedom to participate

I feel like I've lost my mind
But it was my mind that lost me
And now I found out          
It cost me more than I could pay

Slow descent
Into the measurement
And what the measure meant
A metaphysical question
Answered in a numerical
One -through ten
On that scale of how much
Do you believe in your creation
And where you came from
To where you are going
When this all ends

We backtrack and note
Where we've been
Snap photos
Collect mementos
That we'll all leave behind to our friends
Which heaven which God
Which devil will you befriend
When you ascend into the inevitable    
Otherside and discard your skin
Where will all of our brethren
Gather and perform good deeds
Or will those deeds be bad instead
As you calculate this all in your head
And ignore the truth you should have read
This is one thing we know for sure that has been
You are accountable for the life you have lived
And you better believe what you achieved
In knowledge will be the make of your bed

Can I change
The change in me
I changed
When I thought the change
Was better than what changed

If I changed
Will the change
Change me
Into something I could change

If the change wasn't the right change
That needed to be changed
For me to change

Maybe so...

I guess I'll have to change

Cold falls
Into October's jaws
It couldn't stay warm
For longer than forever

We were

Thoughts of the
Winter
Apart
From the face it kissed
On earth

Bound to the heavens
Or hell it could
Be hot

As the body drops
Temperatures
Tears dry up

And cold falls
Into heavens paws
Or hell it could
Be claws

Thoughts of winter
A heart
Shivers
In thoughts delivered
By a hand

      Gone

Is the summer
Burned in a lovers arms
It couldn't stay
Longer than forever

We were

Cold and purple lips
One last kiss
For the recklessness
Of snowfall

In the jaws of October
Frozen in the clocks
Of hopelessness and
Each other

We shall freeze in forever
Longer than
We were

I lost the war
   All my fight

Was conquered

  I considered
To live where
Where my death
             Haunted

I was a ghost
       Spiraling
In a phantom host
Gliding into the center
                      Of a joke


I started the whole world laughing


But the joke was on my passion
I started a prayer
           And found
the joke was on me askin'

I lost the battle
My body was dragged thru the shrapnel

And I drowned in the fear
Of having to live where
                   It happened

The toll of my flesh
           Paid the ash
           The cost of my token

For the wages of sin is death
            I know I owe
But the Savior does the work
       While I rest in the hoping

Perhaps I lost
    But He won
    What he wanted

I just wish I could've lived
                      Yet I couldn't

I lost the war
       A soldier
        Fighting for the life
Of my dissipating vapor

I had to escape here

           From the pain
The selfishness
And never-ending hatred

I bid my farewell
    To the hellfire
  I was left
To burn in

For God so loved the world
     He sent a boy and a girl
To be harassed
       By demons

I started a joke

                  But the Devil
Delivered the punchline

I was staring into space

Lethargic
Distant
Far away

Thinking about everything
At once
I remember the first day
That was

Prematurely
I climbed out of the womb
I asked the doc
What am I here for"

"He said you were born

But I have to cut my own
umbilical cord

Praise the Lord

               I think
But sometimes I'm not sure

I was staring into space
Thinking about it all
And after I said grace
I bawled

Because life was hard
I thought it was a gift

But
Oh my God

The pain
The misery
The same repeated history

Sinners
Full of everything
The world furnishes

Our mother earth is bleeding
And we can't apply the tourniquet

Stress and needing
Are your only feelings

I was born
  But ****!

I kinda wish I wasn't

I was staring into space
Thinking about maybe I should go home
Because I'm too far away

And it could be dangerous
If I wander
Into some unknown place

Without answers

I could get lost for days

I pondered
My existence
And wondered

What am I here for
?Just tears and slumber

Tell me
What did you create

Am I monster

Or a Rockstar
That never
Sang

I became a poet
With poems lame
I was never remembered
But I still came

I was staring into space
And I couldn't get back
Because my spaceship crashed
Inside my brain

My inside died

And I was replaced
With a lie

That said
Everything was going to be ok

A woman

Soft slow
Sleek

A flower
A bird
With angels wings

Oh how i love the way she is

A woman

Loving
Tender
Feminine

Oh how i love the legs
Of a woman
And how she curves
Around me

A woman
A beautiful
Energy

I can't live without her

Without her I need

A woman

A woman for me

For the scent of a woman
Is a sensual breeze
I inhale the moments
She spends with me

A woman

Oh how lovely
She is made

For a man to notice
She's everything

A woman
A woman so great

A man should treat her
Better than he

Because she's a woman

She's a mother
Yet a lover to me

She's a woman
A super human
With a beautiful face

And oh how I love her every way
She's a woman
A woman

So great

The same old constellations
Hanging in the sky

The same old noose
Beckoning tight

The squeeze
       The night
Flickering twinkles
         Up to my knife

My neck
Slides across the edge
As my breath dies
Spinning upside
In the galaxies head
I see stars kite

But I'm running out of time

      The end
Is nigh
In the blackened sky
Where the constellations
Hang their bright

The same old constellations
Used in navigation
Hang on the noose of life

These celestial bodies hang
As I dangle mine

I'm in that space
You used to face every day

Tryna shake me up

I'm on the faultline
Pointing my finger at someone else

Is this a tight rope
Or a noosed throat
I felt the earth quake
And it shook me up

I keep blaming the weather
I thought climate change would sell better

Perhaps a virus
Or a swarm of locusts
How about a few more warning signs
For me to believe in the hocus pocus

I need someone to explain
The birth pains
Because I've always wanted to
But I never came

To church

To and fro they'll search
Just like the prophesy said
But you never learned

You were left
On the outside of the ark
When you saw the rain

But you waited and procrastinated
And it was all too late

The door had closed

And you drowned in the death
You paid to the wage

That cost yourself

Velvet eyes
Smooth drive
Me out

Of mind


My oh
My

She had honestly

Had she
Honesty

I believed

Her voice climbed
With a harps harmony
And she struck every string

Like she struck me

When my saxophone breathed
Like the winds trees
I heard timber

The curving flesh
Of my girl whispered
Believe

Velvet eyes
Smooth talk
Midnight jazz

The cats walked
While alley cried
Dark

Are you with me

My oh
My

Kissing
The light
Shined the moons
Eyes
Beamed

Driving me
Crazy

Velvet eyes
Creamy thighs
I'm out of my mind

My oh
My

The whiskey