Why should I cry, when it was you that caused the pain,
Why should I believe, when you've lied to me over and over again?
Why should I pretend, that it won't happen again?
Why should I believe, that you love me or that your my friend?
Why do I continue to hide what you do?
{I mean the make-up-the dark shades-and the long sleeves too}.
One day I'll tell it , One day you'll see; One day I'll be strong enough to stand-up for me.
Didn't think that they would find out, Thought I hid it well.
Funny how, that from the grave...My story I did tell.
Told you, That I would fight back, said "That I would be strong enough for me".
Why did I have to die, In-order to be free?
Why??

Feeling like a queen in drag
Longest night
Ever had
Like being late for the ball
Standing alone against the wall
Seeming big but feeling small
Fading to black
Confused and shattered
I know I'm better than that
Pass the *****
Give me gin
I'm ready
I'm at the door
Now let me in
I feel like a drag queen
Late for the ball
Wondering how I got here
And about to give my all
Ignoring what you heard
Ignoring what you see
You wanted the best
They sent you me
Feeling like a queen in drag
About to give all...
You never had
When it's all over
Your high on my essence
I'll smile and give you kisses
As I cry in my admission
Wondering why I keep giving over
To submission
No need to cry
No words to say
I wonder sometimes
How I got this way...
Feeling like a queen in drag

When you spoke
It was like jazz
Deep and pure
Sweet yet simple
Flowing from endless melody
Oh how you raptured me
In just one word...hello
You melted me
Ohh like honey butter
To you I flow
Speak again
My jazz melody

When we met
It was December
Do you remember the music we made
You were as smooth as the blues
An up beat tempo
On my sullen days
The wind blew us into another phase
You spoke the word goodbye
Slow jazz whispered through my ears
Calming down my river of tears
For you I flow
Come again
Help me grow

Hello...goodbye
Sweet whispers
In a jazz melody
You so deep
In me
I'm so true to you
But your goodbye
Makes my brown eyes blue
I'll be blues to you
Down beat slow melody
Strings like bass
Drumming the tears
Streaming down my face
I'll be blues for you
You be jazz to me
Why can't we make a melody?

Make a rhythm so soft
Only the beat knows were we fell off
How your voice spoke to mine
Once in perfect harmony
Our pitch was different this time
Never forget the music we made
For you I flow
It took you leaving me
Me loving you
To help us grow.

my heart is going to die!
NO! you belong with him!
wait, now hes dead, that changes everything!
Don't! not that ship!
I was sure it would sail!
The tears, OH! the tears!
no! no! no!
this is wrong!
you have to **** him!
he has all but ruined your life!
please!
NOOOOOOO!!!
THE SHOW IS OVER!
now i will have to face reality.

I use to many exclamation marks!
i forgot to capitalise so many things!
I, used CAPS LOCK!
and, worst of all, i dont know if i used correct punctuation.

why!?