To look back on past loves
And know the intensity you felt
Like being stuck in a furnace
And feeling your organs melt
That blistering heat the love you felt
But time cools all coal
And we’re just ashes now

You should never apologize
For doin the right thing
It’s only natural

I choke on my words for you
like You shoved cotton so far down my throat I turned blue in the face
Just to make you stop
You never did
You’re so mean when you’re angry
Like a bear ready to maul me
I’m terrified of you
Not because I know if you wanted to you could **** me
But it is in the fact I love you
Where my gut wrenching fear lies
Because you make me crumble to my core like a sandcastle too close to rising tides
I hate me

I am spring
In love with winter

I used to sit outside of liquor stores
For the beast who helped make me
Dripping in sweat with frizzy pig tails
And curly blonde hair
***** clothes that were too small, blisters on my feet
Bubblegum overchewed leaving a sour taste in the back of my throat but i keep squishing it between my teeth
***** hands with little fingers
Small body no dreams
I was clueless
I’d make mud pies in the sunlight on hot summer days
Florida has never been beautiful to me
But it’s where I’ve always lived
The palm trees are rough and the sand sticks to your toes
Coyotes often roamed the areas so I wasn’t permitted to go out at night
Orange trees sit in the backyard dying of disease
They’re sick and twisted, they reminded me of me
I’d **** squirrels and birds in me free time
I never felt a single thing
My eyes were blank and emotionless
I was only a child when you did this to me