My heart beats like a thousand fleets, marching on to a beautiful song. When the tempo slows, and the darkness. That beautiful song is gone. My pulse quickens, my knees weaken, I can only try not to cry. My life you took, was shaken not shook, life was a treat, and so sweet. But once I saw you, there was nothing I could do, I reached so hard I fell, and all you had to do was ring a bell. For once now, I won’t be a cow, I won’t be pushed, and no longer shushed. I’m FREE, and finally ME!!!!

My whole life people have told me that I have to wait and see...
I have always heard that expression.
But...
I don't wanna wait and see what my life will be,
I want to know, not wait and see.
I want to know who my love will be,
I don't want to wait and see.
I want to know now if we'll work out,
I am not going to "wait and see".

I am tired of being told to "wait and see"...
It's my life, and I wanna know what MY future holds!!
So from now on you'll be the one to wait and see!!!!!!

Depression washes over me like a blanket.
Sweet sorrow is no longer sweet.
My droopy eyes, make it impossible to stay awake.
I can’t seem to take any more heartbreak.
My love for you is more than I can handle.
To my surprise, I still care, after everything

I miss you…

I miss the hours we would spend talking, being open and honest, and free. I miss how my heart would breathe a sigh of relief because you brought me peace.

I miss the feeling of hope and happiness and how with you I always felt content…

I miss you…

I miss the hours I would spend lying by your side tracing the lines upon your skin, I miss he way you held me close enough to hear your heartbeat… I wish I could hear it again.

I miss you…

I miss you every minute of every day, it’s an ache, a sadness, an emptiness that doesn’t ever go away... I miss you.

Burning love is Dangerous,
Fire blazing a hot red,
The colors so addicting,
Came too close and got Burned.

But yet the flames beckon,
Only to come back again,
The pull is strong,
And again you're burned.

The glowing red turns blue,
The love is hotter,
Burns to get burns,
Fight this urge, but lose again.

Burning Love means pain,
Yet so addicting you forget.

The price you pay for love,
A Burning Love <3

Can you hear it? The sound of my defeat, you have won. I can’t feel my feet.
My heart is bleeding out, my body numb, wanting to shout, “how was I so dumb?!?”
Leave me now, you’ve done enough, for you are foul, I’m calling your bluff.
I’m dying and you’re still alive…

Depression overcomes me, sadness deepens within me, I can’t feel anything.

Thoughts run through my mind, my body becomes numb. I’m weak, I can’t stop.

Warm blood runs down my arm, trying to feel something, anything. It hurts, but I can’t stop.

My life comes before me, mocking my every move. Still going, because I can’t stop.

Heartache worsens, the pain grows bigger. All I feel when I can’t stop.

The song intenses and plays on, the song of confusion. Someone stop, because I can’t.

I am weak and cold, I can’t remember what happened. No one around, I’m alone.

My body not moving, blood around, but still I feel nothing. Is there help, or am I still alone?

I can’t breathe, air is getting way to think, I can’t breathe. No one to help, I’m all alone.

Suffocation overcomes me, breathing not possible. No air, no help, I’m still alone.

I see a light when I wake, someone above me, I have help. Why couldn’t I just die?

Pain is me, and I can’t stand, my temple broken down. Why couldn’t you let me die?

Blood stains all over my body, heartache still appealing. Help no longer wanted, I want to die.

I can’t get up, movement not possible, hurts to breathe. Just lemme die.
Laying here, the help no longer wanted, has found me, but I didn’t want it, **** me, and lemme die.

Life not in sight, for I can’t put up for this fight, I close my eyes, please lemme die.

No more asking, I’m telling you, the pain hurts too much, I can’t handle it. LEMME DIE!

Tears running down my cheek, pain is unbearable at this point, won’t someone make it stop?

I love the way you smile, I love the way you go the extra mile. I love the way you looked at me, I love the way it used to be. I love how you make me feel, I love how my heart is the only thing you can steal. I love how true you are, I love feeling safe in your car. I love… You!

Take my hand, and lead me to no ordinary place.
A view behind the scenes, of what lies upon you face.
I’ll seek out every though, to view it in your mind.
A revelation of desire, dreams that you design.
Pleasure perceived is decadence, not in parts conceived, but whole.
Fantasies beyond measure, totally self-controlled.
A fearsome delight comes over me, rattles me to the core.
If they become reality… What quenches the need for more?

The kisses caress
Not only the skin
But reaches deep
To the soul within.
The hands slowly touch places
With unrehearsed skill.
Not wanting the moment to end,
Nor even the thrill.
Each minute a mountain to climb;
Your heart beating and racing
As if running out of time.
Although the room may be cool,
Your body's temperature starts to rise
And silence of the night
Is filled with pleasure soft cries.
Soon they become exhausted
And cuddle ever so close;
Slowly falling asleep
Dreaming of the lover they chose.

Tears run down my face,
when standing in our place.
It's like a dream,
only it's nothing but a scheme.

When you kissed my lips,
my heart did flips.
Your voice I hear,
was the only thing clear.

But now things have changed,
and words have been rearranged.
For now you're gone,
by the break of dawn.

I still remember our time,
when in it's prime.
I love you,
and now my world is blue.

I miss our time together,
before the change of "weather".
When it was our time,
it was perfectly fine.

I love you… that’s all I can say. But what I’ve done, and how I hurt you, is more than I can bear. The love is strong, but the trust is weak. But love without trust is something I can’t imagine. Trust can be had without love, but how can you truly love them if you can’t trust them? No trust equals no love, conclusion… I’m unloved.

I want to cry, but I hold back, finding it hard not to have a heart attack.

My mind is set to wonder, I can’t seem not to break, for him I do ponder, wishing the pain was fake.

The pain worsens within me, when I see his dear face, for it seems to be, my heart begins to race.

My life comes unbearable, the pain of heartache worsens, and the song of confusion plays on.

Life mocking my every move, though depression overcomes me, I can’t feel anything.

Trying to feel something, anything. My body becomes numb, falling on my knees, I’m weak.

Pain is me, I can’t stand, for my temple is broken down. It’s cold, and I’m too weak.

I can no longer breathe, this air is way too thick. Suffocation overcomes me, breathing not possible.

Use to being hurt, for I’ve been beaten many times. My heart can’t take anymore.

There's pressure all around me
the walls are crumbling down
tears fall from my eyes;
fears without a sound.
I'm drawn into a black-hole;
an empty space with no way out.
No one to turn to-
no one to hear me shout.
Suddenly I find it hard to breathe-
life becomes slow motion.
Forever it seems,
it goes with no emotion.
"Help me! Help me!"
I cry with no reply.
Is this how it feels-
What it's like to die?

I miss your smile, your eyes… The moments we walked side-by-side.
It seems just like yesterday, but it’s been a year, since I’ve seen you standing there.
Your lips against mine, as our hands intertwined.
Holding you in the water, so you’ll be warmer.
The time it rained driving in your car, not having to go too far.
The first time I met you…
These are the memories, that much is true.