She believes
in picket fences and two-story castles
in geometric hedges and manicured lawns
She relies on window blinds
and the convenient camera
that remains slightly out of focus
She spends her days
applying adhesive to china pieces
and polishing away revealing cracks
She spends her nights
nurturing splinted dreams
and convalescing hopes
So when he says
"I love you, it will never happen again"
She believes

If your heart raged
Like a black tempest on an endless blue sea
If your blood ran
Like fiery lava down ancient rock
If your hands reached out to touch
And grasped only colorless clouds
If your breath pulled in and out
Like gentle breezes over jagged rocks
If your soul knew no limit to any emotion…
Then you would know how it feels
To be in love with you

Champagne flavored rain
Kaleidoscope skies
Carnival days
December lights
Saturday dreams
Magical moons
Rainbow melodies
Memories of you.

During the night-morning hours,
as sun and moon exchange domains
They stand facing each other,
infinite space between them.
Those two in the same room,
the same two who catch
then throw daggerous words,
bleeding from their impact.
Crashing silences belie
years worth of artillery
and aberrations of emotion
camouflage ever constant love
waiting patiently in the background.
Becoming a reluctant referee,
exhaustion pulls the blanket
over hurt and anger.
Apologies arrive to take down
barbed-wire fences around the heart.
Kisses, the psychological band-aids,
provide comfort for the scrapes on their souls.
Feeling, then knowing,
that one cannot survive without the other,
they acquiesce;
the two who might be named
night and day.

Between r.e.m and dawn
I heard it.
Before blue awoke black
and sent yellow out to play
Beneath shadow gray
I felt it.
Sounds of a lover’s touch caressed me
and I held them close
In purple candle light
I remembered.
Before black tucked in blue
and the northern night-light burned
And then I knew.
It was a lie.

Weeping Cascades of redeeming droplets,
my soul experienced resurgence and cure.
At once, poignant and lachrymose episodes occurred, unceasing.
Like a newborn’s first burning breath, they seared
though giving life and vitality
So I reached, a rosebud, eager to drink morning dew
and let the affecting liquid wash over me,
replenishing my spirit.

The speedometer read zero for the longest time
All things stood still in your eyes and in mine
Our hearts stitched together, just beating
Our chests pressed tight together, both of us just breathing

This love seemed timeless, until you unlocked
I heard the dreaded "tik tok, tik tok"
And you began to drift
While I remained, devastated by the rift

One mile per hour, two, ten
The world creaks and groans as it starts up again
I stand floating in a timeless void
Split in half and utterly destroyed

I cry and I kick, the tantrum of a child
Slowly become an animal, feral and wild
There is no more dancing, there is no more twirl
Just the death of the poet who stopped the world

Without the muse, there is no more starlight
Another wall to break me down, knock me out of the fight
I lay on the floor, rooted like a tree
As the world moves again without me.

You make your way across the tightrope of life
But you always seem to end up freefalling
I want to be the harness to keep you in safety
Want to be the blanket that keeps you warm and secure

I want to be the laughter that bubbles inside
To be the poker stoking the flames of your lust
To be the angel that teaches you to fly
And the anchor that keeps you standing steady

I want to be the whiskey that gets you drunk on love
I want to be the jeans clinging to your body
I want to be the song singing sweet nothings in your ear
Just give me the opportunity

I want to be your life blood running in your veins
I want to be your water, refreshing your energy
I want to be the best friend the brings you joy
The lover that brings you completion.

You cry out from the cracks in the earth
Where you're trapped in your personal hell
I may not be enough, but for what it's worth
I'll try to unlock this inferno cell

I'm so frustrated my screams could shatter
Everything I thought I knew
Why the **** is it that my dreams must scatter
Like the shards of what was once true

You're in the prison as I unlock the door
To see your skin licked by flame
I offer water, but to my horror
You seem to be enjoying the pain

You're being burned alive in here
I cry and scream and try so hard
But you just smile as you slowly incinerate
And leave me alone in the dark

You see through the eyes of the truly determined
I don't have a choice but to step aside
Though I can't bear living without you, I've learned
That I'm just along for this horrible ride.

You're the welspring where I draw my inspiration and strength
You help me spin poems and prose at length
But there's so much more within this spring
Beauty, innocence, passion, wild things

You're in my air, water, blood
I could never stop this flood
I'll fill this book with ink and lead
Until I wind up dead

Don't even try to get me to quit
You're ingrained in the words I emit
You're in my lungs, heart, veins
I feel your joy, sorrow and pain

You're part of me now, that I'll never forget
You're all of me now, my muse, my spirit
I can't let go, we can't be torn or separated
Don't even try, for it would be as impossible
as stabbing the sky