Why is it you?
When my mind can't unwind,
When I'm at my darkest
At my brightest.
Why is it you?
When my body sleeps
But my brain is awake,
Dreaming up memories.
Why is it you?
Whom I've not seen in years,
Left behind in a moment,
Haunting me.

Why is it you
That I so desperately want
Beside me?

I've burned all my bridges,
Lit a match and nursed flames.
Now I'll rise from the ashes,
Make myself a brand new name.
I'm not who I used to be,
None of you knew me anyway.
So without any obstacles
I'll stand taller than ever today.
Sure I'll miss these bridges,
They held such potential.
But they were breaking,
Some condemned by the crumble.
This desolation will be my start,
My chance to move ahead.
Burning bridges for the better,
My past is better off dead.

The house is quiet,
But I'm awake.
The floors creak
The house sighs
And opens its eyes.

I look at you,
Little fingers,
Little toes.
You've got life,
My eyes,
My nose.
You have a future,
Bright days,
All sunshine.
You have family,
Just me,
That's fine.

My life is becoming empty,
I thought I had so many people,
I thought I had at least one,
But I'm finding myself alone.

All my ships have sailed,
Now the tides are rising
And I have no life vest.

I'm such a coward,
Using poetry as a means
To say my feelings
Without bursting the seams.
I could just talk,
Say hello and reconnect.
I could mend previous bridges,
Build over what I wrecked.
I can't get over my fears
It's there no matter what I do.
All I have is this hope
That it's getting to you.