Dear you,
I miss you badly.
I tell myself its silly,
I'm just reminiscing,
I'm just seeking escape,
I'm lonely.
But it's true,
I miss you.
What I wouldn't give
To turn back time.
What I wouldn't give
To just stay.
But its too late,
And I'm stuck.
I missed my opportunity
And the door shut,
It locked behind me
Mocking me.
I'll never have you,
I'll never have love
Like we had.
I'm such an idiot,
An idiot who misses you...
Badly.

Its in my head,
An ugly virus.
The memories won't stop,
Won't go away.
Spreading like a plague,
They're taking over.
All I see is your hands,
Turned to fists.
They haunt me now
I'm so vulnerable.
I have all this love,
I have all this fear.
When will I get over this?
Should I ever get over this...?

I miss the days that have passed,
Ones with so much potential,
Days full of happiness and grace.
I miss the people I have lost,
The poetic fluffy haired friend,
The long distance soft singer.
I miss not feeling so alone,
Counting days of the past,
Wishing they'd come back.

This bruise on my face,
The memory of fists,
I should have known
It would come to this.

Patching us together lightly,
We've become so fragile.
Ripped apart by the slightest breeze,
We're fighting the wind.
Hope is the only thread left
Holding us together.

Sorting feelings too big to understand,
Heavy like blankets yet light,
One by one, set free finally,
I'm set free...finally.

I've cracked my head against your walls,
Screamed into your silent void,
Stepped right into your fire,
For far too long now.

But then again,
I should have worn shoes around fire
I should have exited the void while I could.
I never should have hit my head on your walls