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111 · Feb 2021
Silent Voices
Honeybee Feb 2021
Don’t open you mouth when your angry
You’ll regret it
Don’t mutter
It’s not ladylike
Don’t curse
You won’t be respected
Don’t talk about politics
You’re too young
Don’t talk about sexuality
It makes others uncomfortable
Don’t talk about your emotions
It’s selfish
Don’t cry while talking
No one will understand you
Don’t yell
No one will listen

Don’t just don’t
No one wants to hear your voice
I’ve heard all of these things so many times that I’m just fed up with it!
So I thought I’d share my opinion here

DON’T LET OTHERS SILENCE YOUR VOICE!!!

Your opinions matter
Remember that
105 · Apr 2021
Safe
Honeybee Apr 2021
I want for someone to hold me and love me
And I want to be able to feel safe in their arms
105 · Feb 2021
Tunnel
Honeybee Feb 2021
Everyone says that there’s a light at the end of a tunnel
But to be honest I’m just so **** done with the tunnel itself
104 · Mar 2021
Mask
Honeybee Mar 2021
I used to be better at being
“Fine”
102 · Feb 2021
Sunrises
Honeybee Feb 2021
I remember seeing the sunrise
Turn into a sunset
Watching people walk by
While I just watch at my window
My life
My world
Falling
Breaking
Shattering
All I ever knew disappearing
In front of my eyes
101 · Mar 2021
Worlds
Honeybee Mar 2021
You were the world to me
I just wish
You could’ve seen
You were enough for me
101 · Aug 2021
Welp… Here we go again
Honeybee Aug 2021
The sight of my blood trickling down my arm
Slowly at first but quickly turning into red rushing down my wrist
The smell of lit matches burning through something
that should have never been touched in the first place
Holding my throat contemplating whether or not to squeeze it
Until it bruises purple and blue
The feeling of not wanting to be alive
Ah yes
What a wonderful bliss of forgetting my thoughts
as I drift away to never be heard from again
101 · Jan 2021
15
Honeybee Jan 2021
15
another year
passed by
and i guess
i have more reasons
to be here
to be alive
to try
to be seen
for who i’m meant to be
to be heard
as more than just a little girl
to give myself a chance
to change
to be more of
honeybee
Big fifteen tomorrow
98 · Feb 2021
Memories
Honeybee Feb 2021
I hate getting flashbacks
Of things I don’t want to remember
Just a quote I twisted around a little
98 · Feb 2021
Body
Honeybee Feb 2021
I sometimes I look at my body
And just break
I break because I’m
Sensitive
Insecure
Easily scared
And everything that people say
Goes straight to my
Heart
97 · Sep 2020
Bites
Honeybee Sep 2020
The bright stars settle
In the ominous night sky
Yet I’m still biting my ****** tongue
So I don’t cry and cry and cry
96 · Sep 2020
Bittersweet
Honeybee Sep 2020
Sitting here
listening to our song
Thinking about how much
I still love you
It’s bittersweet
95 · Mar 2021
Stop
Honeybee Mar 2021
Whenever I look at you
It’s like time stops
94 · Feb 2021
Lost and Found
Honeybee Feb 2021
If I was lost
Could I  find my way home?

If I was found
Would I even want to go home?
91 · Feb 2021
Toxic
Honeybee Feb 2021
When you need them the most
It’s like they disappear
89 · Oct 2020
Etching
Honeybee Oct 2020
My mind is a maze
The etching on my skin is the proof
I tried to reach out for help
But my heart shattered
Before I could
Get to you
I’m trying hard to not let my thoughts get to me
89 · Sep 2020
Sins
Honeybee Sep 2020
She gives in
To the sins
Of death
Every breath
She takes
She might catch a break
But the gauze
Says she’s on pause
Going through life
With a knife
To her skin
Starving to be thin
Waiting for a day
She’ll find a way
To survive
81 · Oct 2020
Lies
Honeybee Oct 2020
Her eyes glowed
However her pain never showed
As she looked straight into my eyes
She lied that she was fine
I can’t blame her though
I did the same exact thing
81 · Sep 2020
Comfortable
Honeybee Sep 2020
The stars above
Can’t even show my love
Or how much I died
Every time you cried
The good you saw in me
Made me want to believe
I could get better
And not hide under my sweater
To be comfortable in my own skin
To realize it’s okay to not be thin
Would be wonderful
81 · Sep 2020
DON’T MIND
Honeybee Sep 2020
My scars don’t mind if they have friends
friends like more cuts and burns
More pain just keeps me happier
At least that’s what I thought
Until I got help
Then I realized I’m not okay
And
THAT IS OKAY
I’ve gotten help for 10 years and I’m just starting to realize that being hurt and in pain is fine just how you handle it is what matters
80 · Sep 2020
Deep
Honeybee Sep 2020
I dove too deep
Loved her too much
I didn’t want to let go
But she left anyways
80 · Sep 2020
Already
Honeybee Sep 2020
"Ugly"
Wounds ******
I don't believe in myself
Put your feelings on top of that
Bookshelf
Hide away
I have nothing to say
I'm alone in this world
Life in itself is a hurdle
I'm long gone
My family's love is overdone
Everyone's fake
They are just like snakes
Friendly then deadly
Comforting yet scary
I can't handle this
Throw me into the abyss
Already
79 · Sep 2020
Angels
Honeybee Sep 2020
She was the angel that got me through part of my personal hell
73 · Sep 2020
Disorders
Honeybee Sep 2020
Mental Disorders
Are out of order for a reason
So we can see the seasons
Uniquely
We are health and pain
We see beauty in the rain
We may be considered in a craze
But I consider our brains like a maze
Traps and dead ends
but like water and gardens
beauty
We are all different in our own ways. Just remember everyone is going through their own thing
72 · Sep 2020
Doesn’t
Honeybee Sep 2020
Suicide doesn’t end the pain
It just makes everyone insane
People who care
Will cry and be in despair
And for the people who don’t
Well there not worth anyone’s time
You have to be kind especially to yourself
71 · Oct 2020
:(
Honeybee Oct 2020
:(
i
just
want
to
give
up
71 · Sep 2020
Knowing
Honeybee Sep 2020
Time after time
Rhyme after rhyme
I’m still crying inside
I ask myself why?
Why can’t I see
What they think they know about me
Or
For
What they knew about me
I hope this makes sense😣
65 · Sep 2020
Stayed
Honeybee Sep 2020
Every tear you shed
Put me on edge
Every time you laughed
If only I knew it would be your last
If only your beauty
Could have stayed
65 · Sep 2020
Pure Pain
Honeybee Sep 2020
Your smile was the sun
But it didn’t last for very long
You were bored
So death came knocking at your back door
You cherished me
Yet I couldn’t see
That through the rain
You were in pain
Your heart was so pure
I was so sure
We were just friends
But in the end
I loved you so much
Sadly it was to late for such

Emotions
65 · Sep 2020
they say...
Honeybee Sep 2020
they say I need to be loved
they say i’m unlovable
they say I am worthy
they say i’m worthless
at this point
i’m
unsure what
I
want
I need to figure out what I want
65 · Oct 2020
used to it
Honeybee Oct 2020
It’s sad maybe  even pathetic
When someone hurts me
I can honestly and genuinely say
Im used to it
65 · Oct 2020
Help
Honeybee Oct 2020
She tried and tried
She hid behind a fake smile with tired eyes
She asked you for help
But you didn’t hear her
In time
64 · Sep 2020
I’m hurting
Honeybee Sep 2020
Being alone
Hurts just
As much
As being with
You
62 · Sep 2020
I may be me
Honeybee Sep 2020
I may speak the truth
In my poetry
I may have friends
They may or may not know the true me
I may be timid in real life
I may be a little over weight
I may be too tall or too short
For your liking
Or maybe just maybe
I may be the perfect me
I possibly could be
I may not love myself but I respect and accept who I am
62 · Oct 2020
Hate
Honeybee Oct 2020
I say I’m fine
that I’m good
Even though I know I’m not
I want someone to know I’m not
I’m scared to say anything though
I’m afraid they’ll hate me
As much as I hate myself
I’m dealing with a lot of self hatred recently
60 · Sep 2020
Without
Honeybee Sep 2020
You always told me to hold on tight
Almost like you knew
What I would have to go through
Without you
58 · Sep 2020
?
Honeybee Sep 2020
?
I am here

But am I really?

I don’t think I am

But I say it anyways

Can I change?

I thought I could

But now I’m questioning

How?
57 · Sep 2020
Pain
Honeybee Sep 2020
You can see the pain
Leaves a blood stain
Have sat at a gray window
Cried into my pillow
A lot of nights
I think about the fights
That I caused
I wish I could have it paused
Could have fixed it
At least a little bit
Arguing every night
I was in my blanket pulled tight
Or in the tub begging to drown
All I had was a frown
"Keep your head up"
It wasn't just a bump
You did this
Back then there was no bliss
I was thinking of a day
Where things might go a little my way
But it never did
56 · Sep 2020
You didn’t notice
Honeybee Sep 2020
When she cried
Instead of smiling

When she wore long sleeves
Instead of wearing a shirt

When she only acted kind to others
Instead of herself

When she didn’t say I love you
Instead she said nothing at all

When she had friends
Instead now she sits alone

When she had clear skin
Instead bears scars now

When she said goodbye
Instead of goodnight


You didn’t notice
55 · Jun 2020
Time
Honeybee Jun 2020
Falling apart
Leaving my heart
Behind
I can not find
My knife
Even in the afterlife
Protect attack
But never attach
Yourself
Leave me be
I’m just a burden you see
The fact I’m still alive
Time after time
Minutes hours days weeks
When will I find what I seek
Love
Something that is long gone
It no longer has a song
My soul
Is just a pawn
Until the end of dawn
53 · Sep 2020
Souls
Honeybee Sep 2020
Water flows
Just like our souls
Together at the start
But now we are split apart
I rebuild my walls
They feel empty, these halls
I feel worthless, alone
Now I’m just a clone
Empty, hollow
Now I just follow
Blood runs down the sink
And I’m to close to the brink
Of
Death
52 · Sep 2020
Ripped Apart
Honeybee Sep 2020
All alone
Scrolling through my phone
Unsatisfied with my heart
Want to rip it apart?
Go ahead
I’m just lying in bed
Listening to the echo of the chains in my mind
Holding me down, it’s harder to find
My joy or anything at all really
You see me as happy or silly
But I’m not “fine”
Look deeper you’ll see I’m dying inside
Words can’t hurt me ?
That’s a lie you see
I’m hurting from the wrong words
A sentence said by a jealous little bird
Ruined it all
I can’t help but fall
Deeper and deeper into the dark
The chains in my mind feel so deep that they are unbreakable
51 · Sep 2020
Morning
Honeybee Sep 2020
Lying here in bed
Wanting to cry and bang my head
I don’t know why I feel so much
I think it’s just because
I woke up as me
I struggle with very low self esteem  

I’m working on it though
50 · Sep 2020
Untitled
Honeybee Sep 2020
Her blood dripped down her arms
As she wrote letters
When said goodbye to the world
Yet I didn’t get to say goodbye to her
what a cruel world
Not even a clue how to deal with depression
She just had to cope on her own
She couldn’t tell anyone
As her body dropped to the floor



She’s now

Gone
I lost someone I loved dearly to suicide
I miss her
She was and still is my muse


It’s too difficult and meaningful to give a tittle sorry
49 · Sep 2020
Shattered
Honeybee Sep 2020
People say broken can be fixed
But what if I’ve been shattered to dust
No amount of care and time can fix that
I’ve been going through a lot lately

I’m sorry if this is super depressing
49 · Sep 2020
the girl I loved
Honeybee Sep 2020
You loved me
It broke you
Hey are you okay
Never once said
Because I'm yours
You wrote
I cried
All night
Because I lost you
My diamond
my starlight
On a dark night
Or at the peek of dawn
During the day
You say
I've been waiting
In my dreams
I see you
In my nightmares
I imagine
You screaming
From pain
That I caused
Cause dearie
In my bright eyes
You saw hurt
And you don't know
How much you still do
To me
Even though you've
Moved on
Parts of me
My heart
My soul
My smile
Is gone
I don't have people
Like you
I regret My decisions
24/7
I have memories
That try running
Away
But I catch them
Because all I have of you
Are the thoughts
Inside my head
Heartbreak
Is what I gave
Now kindness
Is what I do
What went wrong
Nothing
This is all because of you
*** you pushed me
Forwards
Backwards
All I have is because
You smiled
Firstly
Lastly
Yet
Sadly
You deserve nothing
But true happiness
I couldn't  give that to you
I'm sorry
Please forgive me
I know this long but it means a lot to me
47 · Jun 2020
The Screams
Honeybee Jun 2020
In her heart she cries
Yet on her face is a smile
FAKE
That’s what she is
they are all right
She finally tried to talk out loud
WHISPERS
is what her voice comes out as
Crying at night
But hiding behind that mask
ALL DAY
Hoping that one day
SOMEONE
will realize the pain that she’s in
Share it with her
Respect her
And mostly
LOVE
her for who she is
Maybe then the screams will disappear
FOREVER

— The End —