Honeybee

Honeybee Apr 2021

Anorexia

Some people count calories
Or sodium and sugars
But I have nothing to count
Because I just
Don’t eat

I used to not eat at all
I’m doing better now
But I still feel really insecure whenever I eat

Honeybee Apr 2021

Friend into Family

I may not have been able to pick my blood family
But my chosen family
Is the most important thing to me in this world

Honeybee Apr 2021

my chosen sister

The day she came
Was the day my hope returned

We’re not blood related but she’s my family nonetheless
I love her she’s the best
She understands me in ways no one else could
She’s my inspiration in poetry
And in my life in general

Honeybee Apr 2021

**** it Up

I’m always there when others need me
But when I need someone no one seems to be there

I usually just tell myself to **** it up
And it’s not like I don’t have people to talk to
It’s just in that moment I feel like I’d just be bothering them and should just keep it to myself

Honeybee Apr 2021

I’ll be dead

I’m used to being abandoned
But one day it’ll stop hurting
And when that day comes...

Honeybee Apr 2021

Warriors

I like the term warrior
Rather than survivor
Because I don’t feel like
That I was ever a victim
And survivor makes it
Sound like I was weak
At one point

I’m sorry if it’s just me that thinks this way
It’s just it’s always bothered me when someone called me a survivor
It makes me feel like they pity me
They shouldn’t pity me
They should instead be inspired by what I’ve been through
And hopefully be proud that I’m still alive and (mostly) well

Honeybee Apr 2021

the truth

just because i’m broken
does not
mean i’m weak
so don’t treat me
like i’m a victim

Quite the contrary It makes me stronger