Honeybee

Honeybee Sep 2020

Morning

Lying here in bed
Wanting to cry and bang my head
I don’t know why I feel so much
I think it’s just because
I woke up as me

I struggle with very low self esteem

I’m working on it though

Honeybee Sep 2020

Disorders

Mental Disorders
Are out of order for a reason
So we can see the seasons
Uniquely
We are health and pain
We see beauty in the rain
We may be considered in a craze
But I consider our brains like a maze
Traps and dead ends
but like water and gardens
beauty

We are all different in our own ways. Just remember everyone is going through their own thing

Honeybee Sep 2020

I may be me

I may speak the truth
In my poetry
I may have friends
They may or may not know the true me
I may be timid in real life
I may be a little over weight
I may be too tall or too short
For your liking
Or maybe just maybe
I may be the perfect me
I possibly could be

I may not love myself but I respect and accept who I am

Honeybee Sep 2020

Doesn’t

Suicide doesn’t end the pain
It just makes everyone insane
People who care
Will cry and be in despair
And for the people who don’t
Well there not worth anyone’s time

You have to be kind especially to yourself

Honeybee Sep 2020

DON’T MIND

My scars don’t mind if they have friends
friends like more cuts and burns
More pain just keeps me happier
At least that’s what I thought
Until I got help
Then I realized I’m not okay
And
THAT IS OKAY

I’ve gotten help for 10 years and I’m just starting to realize that being hurt and in pain is fine just how you handle it is what matters

Honeybee Sep 2020

Ripped Apart

All alone
Scrolling through my phone
Unsatisfied with my heart
Want to rip it apart?
Go ahead
I’m just lying in bed
Listening to the echo of the chains in my mind
Holding me down, it’s harder to find
My joy or anything at all really
You see me as happy or silly
But I’m not “fine”
Look deeper you’ll see I’m dying inside
Words can’t hurt me ?
That’s a lie you see
I’m hurting from the wrong words
A sentence said by a jealous little bird
Ruined it all
I can’t help but fall
Deeper and deeper into the dark

The chains in my mind feel so deep that they are unbreakable

Honeybee Sep 2020

Stayed

Every tear you shed
Put me on edge
Every time you laughed
If only I knew it would be your last
If only your beauty
Could have stayed