Honeybee

Honeybee Sep 2020

Suicide doesn’t end the pain
It just makes everyone insane
People who care
Will cry and be in despair
And for the people who don’t
Well there not worth anyone’s time

You have to be kind especially to yourself

Honeybee Sep 2020

DON’T MIND

My scars don’t mind if they have friends
friends like more cuts and burns
More pain just keeps me happier
At least that’s what I thought
Until I got help
Then I realized I’m not okay
And
THAT IS OKAY

I’ve gotten help for 10 years and I’m just starting to realize that being hurt and in pain is fine just how you handle it is what matters

Honeybee Sep 2020

Ripped Apart

All alone
Scrolling through my phone
Unsatisfied with my heart
Want to rip it apart?
Go ahead
I’m just lying in bed
Listening to the echo of the chains in my mind
Holding me down, it’s harder to find
My joy or anything at all really
You see me as happy or silly
But I’m not “fine”
Look deeper you’ll see I’m dying inside
Words can’t hurt me ?
That’s a lie you see
I’m hurting from the wrong words
A sentence said by a jealous little bird
Ruined it all
I can’t help but fall
Deeper and deeper into the dark

The chains in my mind feel so deep that they are unbreakable

Honeybee Sep 2020

Stayed

Every tear you shed
Put me on edge
Every time you laughed
If only I knew it would be your last
If only your beauty
Could have stayed

Honeybee Sep 2020

Comfortable

The stars above
Can’t even show my love
Or how much I died
Every time you cried
The good you saw in me
Made me want to believe
I could get better
And not hide under my sweater
To be comfortable in my own skin
To realize it’s okay to not be thin
Would be wonderful

Honeybee Jun 2020

The Screams

In her heart she cries
Yet on her face is a smile
FAKE
That’s what she is
they are all right
She finally tried to talk out loud
WHISPERS is what her voice comes out as
Crying at night
But hiding behind that mask
ALL DAY
Hoping that one day
SOMEONE
will realize the pain that she’s in
Share it with her
Respect her
And mostly
LOVE
her for who she is
Maybe then the screams will disappear
FOREVER

Honeybee Jun 2020

Time

Falling apart
Leaving my heart
Behind
I can not find
My knife
Even in the afterlife
Protect attack
But never attach
Yourself
Leave me be
I’m just a burden you see
The fact I’m still alive
Time after time
Minutes hours days weeks
When will I find what I seek
Love
Something that is long gone
It no longer has a song
My soul
Is just a pawn
Until the end of dawn

— The End —