I've been completely infatuated
   for how many years now?
You keep me just close enough
   that I can't get over it

How long did I tell you the truth
that I love you
   just to be ****** by your inability to accept it?

How long?
I can't stress enough
How long?
Before you believe?

Or do you-
   is that why?
You think that I
   won't see through this?

Because I'm not as stupid as you think
I let you get away with it
because I really do love you, you know
   and that's apparently my downfall

I never thought that life would give me a second chance
Although, I'm not sure why;
   I've ****** up again and again
      only to take every advantage for granted
I'm not even sure how I feel about that
How is everything ever changing,
    yet our history is stuck on repeat?
Is it just me?

Am I supposed to find correlation
   in your eccentricity?
Or was this confusion your intention all along?
Are you afraid that if I find truth
   that I'll lose interest in you?
Maybe it's my own insecurity that fuels this doubt
Maybe
   It's really not you
      It's me

I never knew how stupid I was
Until I was lying in bed
   for hours on end
Trying to cry myself to sleep for the hundredth time
Praying for sleep to come
   And to not wake up
Knowing **** well neither are gonna come true
So I'll just lie here
   letting my mind torture itself
      through the best of memories
         and the worst of truths
Until finally it gives out
   and silent tranquility takes hold

Can you feel the empty?
   It hangs thick in the air
      palpable
         tangible
Pressing; it feels like malevolent intention
   in the eyes of a killer
Quietly stalking, biding time
    preying upon those who are weak enough to submit
      and stupid enough to venture alone

I don't need
your ******* help
   I dug this grave
      I can bury myself

You used to make me feel like Halloween
I can't listen to those old clichéd
   90's songs without reminiscing
Once the moment solidifies
   into a memory
It's as tangible as this liquor's hold on me