One year ago this month.
I fell off a cliff.
For the first time falling,
I thought I was flying.
In February I hit the ground.
My emotions splattered all around.
I felt weak and worthless.
I’d never felt more alone.
In March, I moved on.
I got up, and I pushed myself.
Away from him, away from the past,
And away from myself.
April brought rain.
I always remember rain.
Getting washed away.
In that April rain.
May brought beauty.
And with beauty came my camera.
I still have pictures of that first day,
In the sunshine of May.
June was too much like a puzzle.
No school, floating with nothing to do,
But pick up the pieces,
And start over.
July brought me back.
I finally found myself in those corridors,
Pushing myself through fears upon fears.
I stopped hiding in July.
August brought hope.
For a new day, a new me.
With support from my friends,
I pushed and tried to win.
September brought a new age.
It shouldn’t have changed me but it did.
I’m still the youngest of all of us.
Why shouldn’t I feel like a kid?
October brought me only sadness,
Missing my friends from July.
All their birthdays were there in the autumn madness.
Why’d I have to say goodbye?
November was a month of silence.
A break from the stress of my life.
But even though it was silent,
I wouldn’t have ever gone back for more.
December has brought a new beginning.
Confidence, and strength through myself.
I’m now saying goodbye and I’m happy,
That 2017 is now gone.