You abused me
Bruised me
Battered me
Left me feeling cold and scared
Teared
Trust
Is a must
You broke that
Im not yours
Never have been
Never will be
See
Im stronger without you
Keep your troubled soul away from me
For the love of god please
Never look me in the eye again
Im in fear
But i must face you.
The monster deep in my mind
Ill end you for good
Never shall u hurt me again
You never wanted me i was just a toy
I wasnt good enough
Your a pathetic boy
But i feel pitty
I feel guilty
Never got to say my last words to you.
But they will lay on my lips
As long as the memory of you gripping my hips
Lurks
I may forgive but ill never forget.

A part of me died
I tried
But all i can do is cry
He won
I did fight back
But he knew he would win
And he did

Im sorry for fighting
Im sorry i wanted to feel wanted
Im sorry i fought back
I should have done as im told
My heart is so cold
I may be told
Its not my fault
But it is
I deserved this
How could i miss
The evil smile
Mistake it for
A close friend
I will never mend
I tend
To smile
Even when im sad
This may be bad
But i want evreyone to not worry
Im a mess
I cant even wear a dress
Without feeling disgusting
You took my soul
Now i lay a mess and evreyone watches me fall into a slumber.
Maybe one day i wont wake up
And then he will trully win
This is my deadly sin
Im a monster
A freak.

Im in fear
I dont want you near
Its very clear
i wipe my tear
And move away from you
Evreyone else ought to
Nobody has the foggiest clue
What u did
They know the basics
But not what u did
Half a story
It eats me alive
To hide
I have someone so close to me by my side
But i stay silent
Because this tale turns violent

If people knew what u did
You would be killed
No remorse
But still i stay silent
Becuase of how violent
You were and your twisted games
1, i shifted
2. I didnt like it
3 i said stop
4  i begged

How long till your exhausted from fighting? He would snigger

So stay quite tattetale princess
But i fear
Each tear
Falls down my face
The way you gripped my ribs of lace
For your own selfish benifit

Watch me drop it low
Feel the flow
The beat
Boy take a seat
I shake my hips
I know u want my lips
I feel the music flow through me
See
Im a dancer
The rhythm flows through my blood
If only i could
Do this forever
My dress skin tight
I just might
Close my eyes and let it loose
I bite my lip
It feels right
I caught ur sight
I loose control
In the moment
Im happy
Head low bent down
Cant stand the way u look at me
Cant a girl be free to dance  
The music
Is
My world
I dance on my own
I dont feel so alone
Its my escape

Throw me against a wall
Before i fall
Kiss me
And ill kiss back
Hold me
See
Look at me light up
Watch the animal come out
Bring me out
Let me roam free
See
Told you i was a freak
Its what you seek
And you thought i was meek  
Pha!
Revive me from my tomb
Show me not all men are monsters
Kiss me like its the last time
Be mine
Im a hot mess
Put me to the test
I see your on a quest

I love him
My heart is his
I crave his kiss
He makes me smile
my heart flutters
I melt like butter
He is such a ******
But my heart is his
forever and always
He is always there for me
See
True love does exsist
I hope he stays
❣️

I still remeber the games
Like im downing in the rive thames
Get out my head
I just lay in bed
Im loosing my mind
Im running out of time
wont ever call you mine
I wanna die
Oh my
You still harm me
Even tho your long gone
You ******
You monster
You freak
Your a curse
Thats what makes this worse
I deserved what u did
evrey punch knocked my appetite
Now i sit in a corner and starve
Wont let anyone touch me like you did
I rot away
Your killing me
See
I knew there was somthing to be afraid of
I fear you
U threatened me with That blade
All u wanted was to get laid
Who is the fool now.

you got no place to hide
feeling like a villain got a hunger inside
one look in my eyes
you are running
because im coming
going to eat you alive
your heart is like a drum
you chase has just begun
monsters stuck in your head
i am the monster under your bed
im a monster

your kiss
is all i miss
your touch
is my good luck
your sweet as sugar
your heart gold
you always told me,
i would be yours
forever i am
forever yours
till death due us part
my soulmate
my life

your gone
but the last kiss still lays on my lips
i try to hide behind my mask of fear
layer of makeup, to hide my heart break
my eyes black
my heard cold
i wouldn't be told
this gets better
because it does not
give over you lot
im done
no more fun
rose are red
violets are dying
outside im smiling
inside im dying

You keep me awake
You told me to be silent
You told me this is what happens to pretty girls
You told me you wouldnt hurt me
You haunt my mind
You make me want to never wake up
You ruined my life
You created this mask i hide behind
You you you
Now im nothing
No-one
I hope ur happy

I am your butter and bread
The voice thats in your head
Ill take you in and fill you up
With the lack of being fed

Dont worry i only killed her
I know you will have better control

You all lie,
You all took,
Guess it was my bad luck,
you tried to take him away from me,
Knowing they are my evreything,
Why
Oh u didnt have to try
I saw the bitter truth
All you care about are yourselves
I protected you but you threw me
To the dirt
And it hurt
U never care
It wasnt fair
i saw the bitter truth..
and it wasnt pretty

Oh little girl so far from home
You think that you're no good
Because you don't weigh seven stone

Though others say you should

Your mothers never satisfied
She makes you feel unsure
You watch the way she weighs her food
So this must be the cure

Your father drowns his weight in drink
For reasons so unclear
And hear the way his body aches
And vomits up his fear

Oh little girl so scared and brave
So confused in your skin
You are just too young to crave
The emptiness within

will scream my lungs out ‘til the sound numbs the
room, I will scream my lungs out To you I am immune.
I will scream my heart out While tearing out your tubes,
You know that you can't hold me down To you I am immune.
Immune.
I'll pass your inspections Downing water by the
glass, Evading your detections Concealed behind my mask.
I will hear my heart pound As I sweat inside my room,
You know that you can't hold me down To you I am immune.
Immune.
Show a smile, gain some weight Yes, I'm looking ‘well'
Good to see some meat upon your
bones!" Your words they burn like hell.
I let my eyes fall to the ground, Say what you want to hear, "
Oh yes, I'm doing much better now" But still, they've no idea.
Discharge me from this unit, Revive me from my tomb

You gave me a kiss
What the hell did i miss
Where did the monster come from
He was a creep from the start
I remember the pain
When his charm didnt work
To use fear
To make it clear
He was in control
He used my disorder as a key to overpower me
I became his toy
He was a pathetic boy
His smirk
Oh boy how it would work
I was scared
Oh why did i ever care
For the monster.

Hungry to bed hungry to rise makes me a smaller size
Hungry to bed hungry to rise i began falling for my anorexic lies
Hungry to bed hungry to rise makes me wanna go exercise
Hungry to bed hungry to rise sweet as sugar but im cold as ice
I craved his approval
His touch
His kiss
bliss,
My bones protruded
My smile widened
So close yet so far.