Intrusive Thoughts
A Heavy Darkness Follows
Perceptions With Guilt
I Feel Hollow
Really I See Through
Rationalize
Still I See Too
The Parts That I Block Out
To Help Me Feel Better About Choices
I Make I'm Afraid
I'm Hearing Voices
Reminding Me What I Did
I Feel Sarrow Bleeding Through My Eye Lids
So Many Ways I See In Situations
Making Descions That Better Me
Make Me Feel Anxious
I Can't Comprise What I'm Contemplating
I Let People Go
I Need Myself
I Need Calm My Mind And Free My Self
All These Abilities Will Heal Me And Feul Me
Or Haunt Me And **** Me
No Longer Can I Step A Side
I Take A Breath Then I Step Out Side
The Sky I Gaze Upon
I See A Grave I'm On
I'm Processing And Analyzing
All, Micro Everything
It's Hard To Relax And Feel The Energy
Shamanic Path Dealing With The Entities
I Watch The Embers In Our Hearts
And It's Crippling
To Feel The Sensations Of Mysery
And Try To Justify It With A Beautiful Mystery
I'm To Complex For The Simple Things
I Need To Get Right
Or I Must **** My Self
I'm Praying Lets Make A Pact
Help Me Heal My Self
Doctors Don't Understand Me
There Ain't A Plan B
I Even Feel Distant With My Family
They See Me In The Past Warped
Off Built Perceptions
I Want To Lay On Train Tracks
And Leave Earth
But I Can't Leave A Message
It Would Take Life Times
To Say All My Perceptions
I'm Looking For A Balance Of Peace
Not A Place In Heaven
My Mind Is Infinite And Open
Others Are In A Box
Hope I Don't Get Locked Up
Cos I Can't Knock It Off
I'm Built With
Magick Within
In A Skin Full Of Sin
That Is Thinning
I Can See My Ashes In Dust
Do The Pros Weight Out The Cons
When I'm Adding Em Up
Nobody But Me Can Convince Me
When I Had Enough
Emotions Can Feel Disturbing
And Mold Like
Got To Hold Tight
On What I Want To Be
Not An Old Life
I Feel Like A Vampyre
On A Cold Night
I know Right
Here I Go Again
I Fantasize
How To Shape Shift
Through Candle Light
I Opened Up My Mind To See Things In Ways With Out Confirming To A Single Structure Or Foundation
Battle With Insanity, I Hate It
Sizzle Like Its Satin
Wheeping But I Make It
I See Ghost Upon A Swing
Some Lady In A White Dress
That Dances Through A Grass Feild
The Flowers Dead
Black Roses By My Feet
Is That My Seat
Bloods Clogging The Sink
Meditate In A Casket Just Too See What It Means
Purgatory Screams
The Agony In Dreams
Absence Or Achieve
At The Grave Yard
Writing Poetry Under A Tree
It's Raining
I Admire The Leaves
As They Blow With The Wind
I'm Cold As Ice If You Touch My Skin
Romance And Poetry
Is What I Know
I Used To Hold On The Thorns
Now I Let Go
Observing As Everything Unfolds
Is There A Purpose
Is This A Show
Will The Ones That I Love Most Read What I Wrote
Insides A Symphony
Haunted By The Oak

Dark Nights Of The Soul
I Feel A Push And A Pull
It's Not Depression I Know
This Is An Emotional Portal
The Infinite Imortal
All My Thoughts Are Poetry
Paranormals All I See
I Feel My Spirit Floating Down A Misty Creek
I'm Grateful Still I Feel Im Missing Things
The Yearning And Silence
I Keep Hearing Evacuation Sirens
Why Do I Feel So Alive But I'm Dying
How Can It Be Forgotten
That All Souls Are Crying
The Trauma And The Pain
Blood That Is Stained
Alone In The Rain
Everything We Hold Dear
Turns Into Gray
Convincing My Self Everythings Okay
Theory Is Be In The Now With No Worries
But There's To Many Sad Truths Of This Earth
That Hurts Me
My Philosophy Is Rational
My Psychology Is Wicked
I Don't Cope The Normal Way
My Healings Very Different
Perceptions Of Life's Happenings
And To Many Why's
Makes My Soul Just Ache
My Heart Wheeps In The Night
I'm Waiting For An Angel
Here Comes The Sun Rise
It's Already 4:30 In The Morning
I Don't Even Feel Time
I Need To Feel Passion To Know If It's Right
I Am Magick Got A Hold Of The Light
Kundalini Rising Up My Back
It's A Warmth In My Spine
When My Heart Is In Sync
Perfectly With My Mind
I Have All The Answers
I Was Seeking To Find
Like What Is This Agony
That's Having Me
Channel These Rhymes
Vampyre Heart
In A Body That's Timed

I got this darkness inside I see
I'm the demon that is fighting me
Bleeding for change
I was inside safe
Now I'm out in the rain
I don't feel much , except for pain
Observing my self I feel strange
When the dust fills my veins
What will remain
Thoughts just float through my brain
My heart may be beautiful but my mind is insane
Don't dare compare I'm not the same
I want to be a light house
On some ones darkest of days
Abandoned people that needed me
I feel odd when  when I pray
I see a monster full of pain
When I look in my face
Another ritual begins i open up space
I'm trying to stop me from fading away
All this black Magick
It's amazing I'm safe
Getting prepared already dug up my grave
Inside in a casket I lay
Parnmoral storm rainy and gray
Forgive me in the essence of Grace
My tears perice deeper as the reaper awaits
Suffocating on the Truths haunting me always
Shreaded wings carry me
Asbence is scaring me
I trust what I think I know
Life is a  painful, beautiful show
Lost in the what ifs and ocean of hope
In this field with ghost
Shes in a white dress I'm here writing a note
Conjure beauty from the pain and the mold
I reach for her arms to hold
emptiness holding a rose
Thorns perice drip blood down my palms
Inside of my self symphonies and songs

I know what I like and I know what I'm into
I know what I wrote I know what I sent you
I felt what I said and I spoke what I meant to
If you betray me I will go against you
Said something of me that's not even true
That's not what a friend do
Enough of the threats
Not ready for death
I live for my freedom
Don't make me end you
Equipped with the sword Ready for war
With whoever might want to avenge you
My goal is just peace
My soul is elite
My heart
Forever it bleeds
Thorns from the roses they cover the sheet
Meditate in a casket
To see what it means
My mind is intricate
I'm infinite
Thoughts are to deep
Quantum and sensative
Feeling Extreme
Tears piercing my face
Fade into streams
Do I ever feel safe
Escpae in my dreams
Night mares to night terrors
Purgatory screams
A beautiful voice full of pain when I sing
I feel detached
Strange and aware of these things
I am Magickal
Pacts with Interdimensional Beings
Abandoned graveyards
Ghost on a swing
Shivers through my spine
Whispers from the Trees
I get chills from the thoughts that I think
Blood just cloggs up the sink