Maybe you didn't mean to hurt me
Maybe you had a bad day
Maybe there's a war raging inside of you that I'm not a part of
Maybe I spoke too much
Maybe I said something that hurt you
Maybe I should apologize for striking a nerve
Maybe I'm being unfair
Maybe I'm giving you too little credit
Maybe I shouldn't just assume next time
Maybe its just one of those days
Maybe I should justblet this one slide
Maybe everything will be better tomorrow?

I don't like passions
That passion the lovers speak of
I keep those fires at a great distance
I use them for heaters
I can feel their heat and not allow them in
To breath life to foolish hopes or give entry to sins
I don't like passions or those types of things

Thinking about the rain from in between my bedsheets
Ideas of the world start to join in in dead heaps
But all that I need
Is the peace that it brings
Not the worry it brought
With a head full of thought
Oh the rain is a pain when it doesn't clean your brain
From dirt stained ideas that could clog up your drain
Thinking about rain as it pours from the sky
And drowns me in bed while my bedsheets are dry

Experiencing the good, brings an understanding of the bad
You gave me so much joy, I could sympathize with the sad.

Leave what belongs to the sky to the clouds to ponder
Leave the unknown at the floor of the rabbit hole
Leave the blinds shut

Close your eyes and fall asleep
Give rest to sore bones
And warmth to cold skin
Rest for just a second
And let tomorrow bring tomorrow's questions

I'll stand up out of this hurt
And be done with he entire bit
This lesson will be learned
Peace earned
Bridges bridges burned
This loneliness can eat ****
And I'll be a better person because of it

Its to hard to love
to love and to fight for that love has hardened my heels
and scratched my knees that refuse to bend
To love is hard
to love and to live for love has bruised the skin that covers my heart
and cut my years in half
love is hard
love that has given me more sleeplessness than raging and thundering nights
and filled me to the brim with worry
love
love that forms deep in the inner parts of my being and causes me to move and arch and stand tall
This love that is perfect and potent
This love
That love
My love
Our love
Love here and there and far and fair
From which all is made and all is destroyed
And all is born and all is restored
This love that is me
and you
and us
Naturally and organically and instinctively and automatically
Was made by love, to love, by love
And yet
This love is hard

It started like an ending
And began as it finished
Even found its all missing
Running fast as it walks slow
Becoming bigger as it was growing smaller
As absent the present mind
While it was becoming something, it was nothing
Broken fixed things
Opened already closed eyes
Melted ice solid in the cold of the warmest air
That was the truth of the lies
And as dead as it was alive

He was so heavy
That she eroded away under him
But his body craved into her all the feelings her muscles were designed to react to
So she allowed herself to get grinded down into sand

And that's how the desert built a river...

My tummy hurts
But my heart worst
10 second love
Hit a growth spurt
With more and more
To insert
Now I ache
In chest under shirt
Of decisions made
Of lessons learned

Promise that you're not searching anymore
Hurting anymore
Out trying to find more
Like the time before
You were mine

I think of her often
This beautiful force
I followed her into my head one night
And got lost

Here's my head
And here's my heart
Here they are in separate parts
Head on a neck
And the body is gone
Bed is a wreck
But the night is still long
Morning comes
But the hours are wrong
Living in me
But I'm apart
Two sides of me that'll never get along
Forced into a body  where they don't belong
But there's my head
And there's my heart
There's they are in separate parts

I drew a circle around you
And set you aside
I plucked you from the masses
And called you mine

I kiss your bottom lip
I kiss your top lip
I kiss all your lips
And the world is a perfect place again

I'm at my best
In front of the rest
But without all the zest
Inside my chest
They couldn't care less
I'm just a mess
If I must confess
That I am just flesh
Under my dress
And I'm not okay

In this short life
With these long days
Time just seems to go
When you decide to stay

I hope you know
That when I step away
Only for a moment, to tender to these wounds
That I'll fly back in a sunny day
With fresh skin for you to bruise

It's unhealthy
But you left so stealthily
In the  morning while it was pouring ounces
Remembering those days ever since
You stepped out into the rain from where my love is
Now I'm hunched over the basin trying to rinse
Your face out of my hair

Worldly pleasures and passions aside
Riddled with want and mangled desire
Nothing on the earth compares to to the fire
Of reaching and scratching a demanding hive

I hold my breath
And refuse the air
If I let in the oxygen my heart will expand and flutter

I know you want me to say
Sorry for lying
but I'm just crying on my  pillow
like I'm supposed to do
to get over you

I know its easier to keep you
and just admit that I was wrong
but I can't be the loser
so I just play a sad song
like I'm supposed to do
to get over you

Although everything is my fault
as far as I remember
I won't lead you to resolve
and I'll ruined your December
Just drinking coffee in my car
heart is sore and tender

Winning never feels good on this tongue
I've been bitter since I was young
Now you know the woman you've loved
Now she's just another sad girl
trying to get over you

I'm feeling all kinds of tired
Like I've lost a piece of my mind somewhere
In the blossom of a new desire
One for which I didn't prepare

It stalks me
I keep my eyes open out of fear
How can I return to the me I used to be
Because no matter how far I run it'll always be near

My edges were sharp from the very start
My attitude is a product of a broken heart
Now I carry a treasure in need of guarding
Creating an environment for my heart to harden

I am far too afraid
To go that way
The path seems dark and murky
Though my heart will erase
The memories made
And leave them all behind me
I must walk
I must move
No more talk
Time to prove
But I am far too afraid
To go that way
And leave this world behind me

I put my heart on a piece of paper
and threw it into the ocean
hoping that it would lead it further that my body could
but waves and currents spat it back at me
and told me to put it back in my chest
with the damp piece of paper
dripping in my hands
I asked the ocean how it could be so cruel
the waves retreated and left carved in sand
that hearts were not meant to be led by a guide
but rather they should carry our frail and lifeless bodies
to more destinations than any ocean could

Am I what I fear?
When she's so frighteningly near
Almost ear to ear
Closer still my dear
Close like the sea to the pier
A bee to nectar
Monarch to his sceptre
She's the sun on my receptors
Her skin has a temper
Like piping hot embers
It burns through November
In the African weather
My skin turns to leather
And I crease under pressure
That I almost whisper
What is kept under murmur
Still she comes hither
I'm at the end of my tether
So I let the words flutter
And escape through the stutters
Of my mouth as I utter
Things we should never mutter
To ourselves or each other
Come sunshine or thunder
But she's a storm like no other
And when we came close to each other
She destroyed my shelter
Drenched I stand here to tell her
While she's so frighteningly near
Almost ear to ear
"Come closer my dear,
For I am what I fear"

Will there be anything more exciting than knowing you?
An experience you've set aside for a select few
In a selection process they were not privy to
Now the joy of a ray of sunshine peaking through
The slow trickle of morning dew
A whisper of words so dearingly true
The world was just a page
That became a story because of you...

Under the cloak of the morning
Your breaths are still and restful
Mine are patient as I wait for you to break your sleep
You are peaceful
And I am peacefully in suspense
For a new day to awake and the continuation of love to commence

I'm standing on the high way
Screaming at the top of my lungs
Begging someone to love me

You silly girl
Stretching out of your habitat to seek ways to get hurt
Lending your heart out like pieces of furniture
For other peoples comfort
You use your lips like billboards
Directing everyone to your inner most parts
That you avail like parking spaces for them to stand until it's time for them to go home

She is trapped
The sun had caught her
She's hasn't been a child
She's nobody's daughter

Going on getaways wearing nothing but wits
And the almond cream lotion she butters herself with
The sun disappears, it's not beauty that fades
Under her white bikini and Versace shades

Everybody cares when you are blue
As if you would lend a shoulder to them too
You're like a typo in a letter
That mistakingly made the meaning better
You've built this army up around you
They all licks all your bruises when they turn blue
You don't even like anything about you
But somehow you're only one you run to
You're not even the hero of this story
But every other character is boring

I'm afraid to do anything with my dad
Even if I want to speak to him
Because I'm scared they just went I start enjoying spending time with him
He's gonna to start to talk over me and make me feel like him inviting me to do something with him was just a cover up for him wanting to impose his thoughts on another person and hear his own voice. I feel like it didn't even matter which was sitting there listening to him because it was about him the entire time. I love my dad, but I wish he heard me sometimes

I wish my days would end in peace
Not in a rummaging of details I picked up along my way out and back into bed
And the silence was a ferry to sleep
Not an open sea raging again in against the shores of my head

You came in with the rain
And the winds and thunder were following
Now the clouds have long since passed
But I'm still dripping

The better collective is outside of me
The parts of the world that could never converge with me
In my chest is a hollow nest of surging threads
That scrap and pulsate against each other
The unrest carries itself into my flesh and makes me shudder
And makes me lift my hands and arms to hurt my brother
But the world around me is a blissful sea
Of people who don't know what lies beneath
The soft sheets that forms me
There where there is strangers passing each other in the street
Without so much as an acknowledgment to speak
There is the place I want to be
Far from the familiar haste that Lives within me
That breaths and beats and eats constantly

I was afraid to touch the glass
It would undoubtably have left a mark
One that had the power and girth
To ruin the life I've built on Earth
If I forgave myself for peeking inside
Would my heart have survived the violent desire
Or the pain that my want would have birthed
I would have to learn to forgive myself
But would God have forgiven me first

I drank up my sadness
And let the spirits wash me clean
Tomorrow I will again remember
The person that I've been

She'll be dying with the coals
When the last ember dies
Pushed along but the wind
Fluttering in the night...

And everyone will say
"I thought that she'd survive"

Sometimes
Before the world creeps in
I lay in my sheets and experience peace
The moments before my thoughts begin.

You have learned with the seasons
Said the past to the present
"The truth is the truth
No matter how you said it
Pain is pain
No matter how thin you spread it"

She is a blossom of a spring flower
His shoulders as broad like two stable towers
In spring rainfall, in gentle showers
Swear there is no greater love than ours
He is a beam that stretches to the clouds
Head sweet and pretty and savvy and proud
Her eyes carry punches that crack gravel ground
Brown and deep, and potent and loud
Come at my chest until all desenses are down
Swear there is no love greater than ours
As good a frame with us in the middle
Either one or the other
Who can solve such a riddle?
One has a heart
But so does the other
Sand off the edges and call me a lover
One has the sweets, the other has the sours
Yet both has me with such unfamiliar powers
With wrists to the sky, and no place to cower,
Swear there is no love greater than ours

I found you deep in a cut drenched and *****
you were soaked down to your socks in your own self pity
When you flickered and flinched as I removed the bandage
and dabbed off the blood left by years of damaged,
you asked me to check in 12 years from that moment,
to see if you had blossomed from that paddle of atonement
Do you still hate that man I picked up off the floor
and dragged like lead through the valley of remorse?
If your answer is yes, then say less my friend
But you whisper No, then let me find you once again.

She said sunlight and water
through Spring and through Autumn
Just keep your love warm and
let it sprout without boarders
without care and without warning
and your garden will keep swarming
like the bees and the hornets
build their nests in the tallest
branches and corners
Just sunlight and water
Is all you need

Maybe I should've asked more
Maybe I should think less
Maybe I should forget the smell of Vasace on your silk dress
Maybe I hid my heart but you saw the veins right through my vest
You're the type seek delight in man so weak he'd offered his chest
My weakest cursed, I saw you first, and at that sight my sanity left
I've seen your sin but to feel you skin, I ignored the rest

She walked away the winter after last
I watched you cry on your guitar as the feeling passed
But you'd never stop to think
That it wasn't meant to be
You stitched your entire heart to her memory

If the grass is always greener then there'll always be greener grass
But with a sigh you ask me why the good things never last

She doesn't know the love she has to give
And built 20 walls to hold up her dreams
One day in the future when life truly begins
The sum of her childhood will make perfect sense.

I've been travelling northward
Shedding all the bruises from my shoulders
Leaving you in the creases in my footprints in the sand
But you have the tip of my heart
Buiried in the lines of your palms
Dripping out the spaces of your hands
So no distance would make me the difference
No wise words would bring me solace
Though I'm no longer the person you knew
So much for mkving on
So much getting over you