I fell for you,
I fell for you hard

Maybe its the way you
held me
or maybe it was the way
you understood me
like no other did

The long summer nights
and how you kissed me
'till the morning light

Oh darling..

When you are not here
I cant seem to get you
out of my mind
I just miss you so

and the days I saw
you
I cherished until the day
I saw you again

The way you would
smoke your
cigarette
inhaling and exhaling
every breath

You were perfect in
my eyes
every one of your
flaws were nothing
but beauty

I never questioned
being with you
not once
not ever

To this day,
I get butterflies
as I think of you my
dear

you gave me a kiss before you
left but you never
said itd be the last

why did you have to go..
broke every promise made
when you said you'd stay
left me behind for me
to rot  

A day doesn't go by
without missing you

when I think back
of that day,
I feel empty and
lost all over
again

I can still hear you whisper
'i love you'
and it breaks my heart every time ..

I visit you some days
but all im talking
to is a tombstone
with 'R.I.P Chris'
engraved in it

I need you here,
I need you now

Your touch
Your love
You..

They look me in the eyes,
My demons,
They leave me feeling paralyzed,
I'm dreaming,
No
This is far beyond a dream,
Oh, far beyond what it seems
A place of inner reflection,
Battling all my fears,
Head on, with no protection,
Except the strength I've gained.
Throughout the years

When I look in the mirror,
I see in my own eyes that,
The monsters are growing bigger
Thrashing, crashing in my head,
Leave me hopeless, sweating,
Keeping me awake in my own bed
The monsters fill me with dread,
Thrashing, crashing, inside my head
They **** me inside, leave me thinking that I'm dead
I've listened to the words they have said
When they're thrashing, crashing, inside my head

Tonight every cricket chirps,
His soft little sounds booming in my ears,
Along with the sizzle of a midnight Marlboro
It is here and now I feel fully alive

Nothing but myself and my thoughts
Running through my head, of love, of loss,
Laying in my bed, thinking of the cost,
Of life, and happiness

Babygirl,
Babe,
Baby.

He says that.
Those.
to ME.

He says,
"I love you"
So much.

He's unexplainable.
...perfection...

I've only but dreamed..
of the day, when I would be
Someone's... babygirl <3
and Now,
I'm his.

He says,
"I
L o v e
Y o u"
...but why?

Could it be true?
This is all so new.
I wonder what he means.

Yet, I love him too.
Who could've knew.
He's the man of my dreams.

I really wanna talk to him.
Hear his voice &&
See his cute little face.
But there's no way. And it makes me sad,
That I may never meet, this wonderful
Young man.

Is this how it's supposed to be?
What am I  supposed to see?
The world revolving in conflict. and violence.
I'm told to sit, and revel in global silence
While everyone won't accept my guidance
Or learn to treat each other with love and kindness
A veil of violence, causing global blindness

I'm a gentle man in a violent world
I do what I can, then maybe a little more
Everyone is so fixated on settling scores
If only we could find the kindness in humanities core
And before we fight, we think about what we're fighting for
Then we won't have to face karmas vengeful scorn

i Know we have Spoken
but one Mere night, yet
It felt like Days.
You were the bright
Star that lit Up my Sky
when It was the Darkest.
you made Me smile when
i Wanted to cry.

you made me Feel.
wanted.
Beautiful.
cared for.
Reversed what my Sister
made me Feel.  
turned the Worst night
Into the Best.

I wonder to myself, are you
an Angel? sent from God to
Make me happy?
Welp, when I think of you,
i can't help But to Smile.
Grin, like an Idiot.
^.^ << I use that face
WAY
TOO
Much.
When I talk about
You.

That's my face
i Use when I'm a
grinning idiot.

Welp, I stink at writing
P
O
  E
   M
    S
For people.
I've, never
Tried actually.
OH WELL.
There's a First
for
Everything.

You and I ,
sitting on the
old oak bench
where we once carved
"I+B= 4evr"
with a framed
heart around it

the day you told me
you loved me so
you promised
you'd never let
go
and how you
promised me forever

but here we
are now
sitting on the oak
bench where we
once carved
"I+B= 4evr"
chatting about how
you promised me
forever
and what went wrong
and why I am no
longer yours
    and how
         you are no
longer
      mine.