Have you heard of the little girl
Who chased cute boys around the playground
Writing love notes
Asking if they liked her?
This girl who imagined herself a mermaid princess
With the heart of a wolf
Just to have fun
With her friends on the playground
Never thinking a second thought
Past how cute the boy on the swings was?

How about the girl in a new school
Where people are bigger than her
In more than one sense?
Walking through the halls
Looking at how well the girls grew
And she guessed the boys did too.
The girl who thought looking at both
Was what everyone did?
It didn't take long for her to realize
It wasn't.

Ever heard of the girl
Who saw her best friend in a new way
That she never saw before
That lasted years?
The girl who then entered another school
One with faces old and new
Some adults that felt more like brothers and sisters
With new faces of girls who were even more grown
Than any she had seen in a while
Oh, and a couple cool guys walking by?

Have you ever heard of the girl
Who tried to convince herself
That she was normal
Like every other girl she walked by,
But couldn't help but stare
At those passing girls?
This same girl
Who refused to believe
That she wasn't anything like what she saw around her
That she was still that same girl
Who chased cute boys around the playground,
But couldn't keep hiding
That in her head
She was chasing beautiful girls around the playground?

There's this girl
Who spent her whole life
Wishing to be normal,
But found herself happiest
Hand in hand
With her same kind.

She used to loom tall over the sea of shadows
Watching them wraith and squirm without purpose
Searching for an open soul to invade
Its dark arms reached for her,
But never did her strength waver

Suddenly a calm flooded the shadows below
They sat still, waiting. Watching.
And for the first time she shrunk, she weakened
With this the darkness grew more vicious than before
Jumping and scratching her knees
Bleeding to fill rivers
Bleeding the water red


She stared down at the shadows with unimaginable terror
All she could do is run.
So she ran from the darkness, but it was all to be seen
Aching and sweaty and exhausted she stopped running
Turning slowly to see the vast dark behind her
Now the shadows loomed gravely over her head
Instinctively she grew more terrified,
But this time their dark arms seemed inviting

This time she did not run
Running from something so massive was pointless
So she stood and stared up at the wave of shadows
And like all ways do, it finally crashed.
Taking her to the sea of endless night with it

And if she ever is given the tiniest glance above the shadows,
They tear at her scars, ripping her back beneath the surface.

Say for tonight...
That you won't leave me alone
To not hide the love you've always shown
And I don't have to wait for the ring from my phone

Say for tonight...
You'll turn off the light,
Slip into my sight,
And for the rest of the night hold me ever so tight

Say for tonight...
That you only want to stay
Because nothing else matters today
And pray and pray we will be together as it may

Say for tonight...
That once again we can take it slow
Lying around to watch our show
And to never feel another emotion so low

Say for tonight...
That you won't leave me alone
That you'll slip into my darkened sight
To pray and pray we will be together as it may
And to never feel another emotion so low

Whether it is the roof above my head or the one above my heart, I am home
With you I have found my home
A place I can turn to in need
A place I know that I will never leave
A place I trust, with everything
A place I can call home
Whether it stands before me or is waiting at the end of a twisted road
It is my home, our home
One I can count on
One I can lean on
One I can protect and provide for
One I can save
Whether it be a measly cabin or a towering mansion
It is one we have built with strong walls, unbreakable walls
They do not waver
They do not chip
They do not crack
They do not have an end, a fortress for only us
Whether it is old and rickety or new and shiney
Our home is a home, one we have built together
With our gentle working hands we've built a life together
So let's live in this home together
And may this house become our home
You are my home

My hardest times have frozen me
Hardened my outermost shell
Inside it is cold, painful, lonely
The souls of my feet walk upon shards of ice
Ice much like shining glass
A step is to crumble, with each I lose more faith
More and more until,
Suddenly I can no longer walk, I crumble
Shaking, shivering, waiting
The minutes, moments pass without the slightest notion or sign
Not a trace of notice in their eyes
My own does not even notice the pain
I do not wish to move, standing still pains me less
So I stand and stare with nothing but anguish
Full of utmost hatred, despair, loneliness, cold
Not until then do I realize it is cold still
Time as frozen as the ends of my nerves
Nerves that will never function the same again
Hatred for myself overrules and I redress,
Solemnly limping to an unseen comfort
I am in the presence of warmth but still I tremble
Ruined, an outer shell cracked and crumbling
I must fall, I do not wish to be alone, I am scared
I am cold, I feel a most dreadful sorrow, I cannot stand
I fall, but now you fall with me
We collapse and let our tears melt the ice
Not forever will my loneliness last and we can crumble together
My heart thaws, my chills subside, and hypothermia fades

Will you think of me?
...when you rest your sweet head on the comforts of your pillow
...when the pressure is too great and you cannot stand
...when the world you've always known crashes before you
...when you need a shoulder to cry on, a beam to support you
...when you're scared of the demons picking at your arms and legs,
   someone to protect you
...when it becomes hard to breath on your own
...when you need strong arms to keep you steady on your feet
...when drowning, sinking, is the only way you know how to cope
...when you can't live all alone anymore, someone to love you, hold
   you
...when the future is too unknown and you aren't allowed to see it
...when you need another half, a friend, a lover, a fighter
...when you want someone to stand beside you, to guide you
   through the pains
...when someone needs to show you that you're loved, very greatly
When will you think of me?

There are so many words lost in the gap between our hearts
A gap never so prominent, so widened
It has become a dead space of words we've left unsaid
One place in which we reside on our own
We mustn't share our thoughts, no longer the entitlement
So this leaves us to our own minds, a scary place
Of discomfort, confusion, sadness, one of love, lust, and loneliness,
But I pray one day again you will let me in
There was a time I was your person, let me be your person
Let me be your shoulder to lean on, I have two
Let me look you in the eyes and pull you to what is right here and now, in front of you
Let me take your hands and tell you everything will be fine if you just hold tighter
Let me pull you away from the edges of darkened hopes and dreams, depression
Let me show you the light of our forever tomorrow
Let me know what is eating you from the inside out
Let me stand in your corner, no matter what you choose
Let me show you how perfect you truly are, since you be too blind to see
Let me save you from everything out there, protect you
Let me love you,
But, please, let me stay