Gulishta

Gulishta Feb 2019

A fragile innocence,
    A demon trying to steal.
A family sworn to protect,
    And a witch fighting to heal.

The powers and priorities.
    The assets and liabilities.
The friends and allies.
    The duty and responsibilities.

The friends became the foe.
    The loved ones are lost.
The spells of protection.
    And the truth trying to cloak.

The harness of pain,
    The threads of sanity.
The switch between the brothers,
    In exchange with clarity.

To defeat the monsters,
    The family should stick together.
Even demons and monsters are afraid,
    Of their always and forever.

It's inspired by a show I watched a while ago.
This always and forever stole my heart.

Gulishta Jan 2019

Lesson of the lifetime.

And suddenly as a smack to the face I realised that I don't actually need you to live my life.
That I can survive a broken heart and even the broken trust,I was able to see in the hindsight.
It took about a day to see the reasons,everyone kept showing me for a while.
I won't say you were wrong cause it'll paint me in a wrong color as well and I won't say I was right.
I just wish that I would've gotten a little bit of fight.
A little bit of yearning and efforts from you to make us survive.
To just have it for a moment no matter how small,I just wish for you to come out from the shadows in which you supposedly hide.
But sometimes wishes are just not meant to be answered because we are somehow better off without them to actually learn and move on with a hard learn lesson of the lifetime.

Gulishta Jan 2019

Finding.

Scream loud,
      Let them hear you growling.
Launch yourself high,
     Then get the dice rolling.

Pull yourself together,
      Stand tall.
Do not let yourself anymore,
      Been a while, you've been stalling.

Dream!,
      Do not be afraid.
You will achieve it,
      Just Know..
           what you will do,after achieving.

See the sky,
      Aim to the ground.
You will be up above,
      So start climbing.

It's a game,
     Of hunters and preys.
Been a prey too long,
     Now let's start hunting.

Life is too short,
    To waste on what ifs.
You're worth every risk,
    So start doing.

You have a name,
    Written in the stars.
This is your life,
    So start shining.

Been silent too long,
Been hidden too long.
It's time to be seen,
This is you...
So let them hear you breathing.

Been afraid too long,
Been lost too long.
Now,..the time has come.
And it's time for finding.

Gulishta Jan 2019

Truth of the poem.

Everyone reads the same words,
But the meaning is always different.
It's in the mind of the reader,
Where it's hidden,
The meaning of the poem.

Some relate to the emotions,
Some just like the words.
Some can interpret as it is,
Some take it to another level.
It's in the eyes of the reader,
Where it's hidden,
The beauty of the poem.

For some it's a song,
For some it's a lesson.
For some it's just a saying,
For some it's a passion.
It's in the heart of the reader,
Where it's hidden,
The purpose of the poem.

Sometimes it reminds us of a good time,
Sometimes it makes us cry.
Sometimes it's just what we wanna hear,
Sometimes it shows the ugly side.
It's in thoughts of the reader,
Where it's hidden,
The truth of the poem.

Gulishta Jan 2019

PRESENCE.

You went so far away....
But I still feel your presence.

Like, when I'm standing beside the water,
Watching my reflection washed away by angry waves.

When I'm laying underneath that old oak tree,
In back garden of grandma's house,
Seeing a family of veronica's coming back home and dusting their wings.

When I'm walking down the streets,
For no other reason then to just keep walking.

When I'm doing nothing but sitting on the porch swing,
With the sun setting behind me,
The feeling of nostalgia and end of comparatively better day.

Or when I feel the first rays of the rising sun,
Through the east facing window on my face.
Hoping and praying for another better day.

I've always felt your presence,

In the silent moment in between the conversations,
When I'm trying to make a point.
Or as a constant voice in my head naming my conscience.

In everything that you taught me,
And In everything that I do with my life.

It feels too small of the words,
But what I regret the most,
Is never saying thank you or goodbye.

Gulishta Jan 2019

I do feel the same.

You are right,
      I can be wrong.
You are everything that I want,
      But I gotta be strong.

You say I am your heart,
      Baby you are my soul.
I want to keep a piece of you,
      Cause I can't have you whole.

You can call me anything you want,
     I will take it all.
You are someone to cherish,
    I'm someone just tagging along.

We've been apart,
    You were here all along.
You want me to face it,
    But I am facing it around the clock.

You show emotions,
   In everything you do.
I die a little every time,
   Cause I can't say "me too".

You apologise for my mistake,
   And everything that I did wrong.
You've got a heart of gold,
   You think mine is made of stone.

I can't open it,
    As you are standing at the door.
I can't have you as I want,
    So I don't want you at all.

So you keep caring about me,
    I'll keep pretending that I don't.
Believe me if you can,
    Or baby I will take the blame.

Z