Gulishta

Gulishta Nov 2017

No us!.

What do you actually think?,
When you think about me.
What do you actually see me as?
If there isn't any us.

Do you actually care about me?
If we are just you and me.
Do you care that I care for you?
Or you just want me want you.

You want me to care.
But your mind isn't even here.
You want me to come along.
But still want to be alone.

You want to have a home in my heart,
But refusing to give away yours.

Gulishta Nov 2017

An unwanted love.

He said,
I like you, a little.
I want you, a little.
I trust you, a little.
Wanna be with you, a little.
Wanna love you, a little.

I said,
I don't think it's possible.
That my decision is irreplaceable.
That I wouldn't let this happen.

Then why?
I was the one to fall.
I was the one who couldn't be alone.
After knowing everything all along,
Why am I the one who couldn't keep,
My head and heart apart?
Why am I the one,with a broken heart?.

Gulishta Nov 2017

A mess.

My mind is a mess.
This game of life,
Really similar to chess.
I don't know what is right or wrong.
I don't know ,if I wanna be with someone or stay all alone.

I'm trying to solve this puzzle.
Everytime I come close ,
There's another one.
I don't know what to believe.
I don't know,if I should be scared or relieved.
Should I enjoy this feeling?
Or run for the hills??

Maybe it's a bad thing,
My lack of experience.
Or Maybe I shouldn't,
Take this That seriously.

Gulishta Nov 2017

I saw a man.

I saw a man walking by..
Hunched in himself.
Like he wanted to be left alone.
Like it's hurting him,
The sun that just shone .

He was a resemblance of the night.
Cold ,dark and all dressed in black.
With an aura of loneliness.
A walking example of heartbreak.

Maybe he was going to say goodbye.
Or Maybe he was coming back from it.
I wanted to reach out.
To make him less lonely.
To tell him "it's not it".

Then I realised. .
I'm the resemblance of the night.
he was a figment of my imagination.
Just to feel less lonely.
OrMaybe he was the other half of me.

Gulishta Nov 2017

Life.

Some says it's a journey,
Some says it's an experience.
I say it's a roller coastar.
The exhilaration of going up,
The calmness of coming down.
The pulsing of excitement,
The serenity of the quiet.
The tears of heartbreak.
And the tears of joy.
The butterflies of falling in love.
The gut ranching feeling of loosing someone.
The togetherness of family.
The companionship of the friendship.
The celebrations of a new life.
The funerals and goodbyes.
The beauty of mother nature.
And the ugly side of humans.
The innocence of a child.
The aqua and wild life.
It's really hard to contain it in just few lines.

Gulishta Nov 2017

Rise from the ashes.

Oh! I've gone crazy,
I couldn't stay away.
You slept serenely,
While I lie awake.

You told me the promises
You told me the lies.
You did everthing to hurt me.
While I tried to keep us alive .

You just go now,
I gave you the permission.
I was a fool to try,
Or just knew the importance.

But I won't Fall.
I won't give you the satisfaction.
And I don't care,
I got burn in the process.
Oh! you just wait and see,
I will rise from the ashes.

Gulishta Nov 2017

Waiting for you.

Watching you from afar,
Waiting for you to notice,
That you are what I wanted.
And everybody can tell it.

I want you to make the move,
Not because I'm shy,
just have something to prove.
We have an unsteady relation.
That I'm sure we both wants to improve.

Because you are everything to me.
Like you are flowing through me.
Like I'm living on you.
Like I came in this world for you.
And right now, just here waiting for you.